today was good. =]

had to work today.
and forgot to take meds before i left
so i nearly hacked up a lung
every five minutes
while i was there.
that was pleasant. =|
but there weren't any big messes
or too many screaming children
or any really obnoxious people.
so things were good.
and then i saw nathanael on my way out.
*waves* =)

got some passion tea (my love)
and THEN...
oh, it was glorious!
the sunshine and the breeze!
i had the windows rolled down
and the music turned up
all the way home.
i actually didn't want to stop driving.
i wanted to just keep going
because it was so lovely. =]

chilled and talked with my mom when i got home.
we're gonna go to New York after graduation!
i'm super stoked.
it's my graduation gift. =)
and my Aunt Missy is gonna go with us.
so we talked about things we want to do
and places to go and things to see
and stuff to eat!
lol.

and i FINALLY finished
my Worldview Academy application.
all i have to do is pick a couple more camps
that i would like to work
and i'll seal it up and send it off tomorrow.
hoorah!

mmmm.
and you know,
something else just hit me.
in just a couple months,
i will no longer be a high school student.
high school will be done, finished, gone!
wow. lol.
i didn't get the full force of that til now.
i'm not gonna be in high school anymore.
i'll be a college student.
weirdy.
i don't feel old enough to be in college.

*shakes head*
anywho.
today was pretty good.
still sick, but feeling MUCH better.
yay. =)


LOVE

<3 H

Oh holy night!
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night of the dear Savior's birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Till he appear'd and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn!

Fall on your knees!
Oh hear the angel voices!
Oh night divine
Oh night when Christ was born
Oh night divine
Oh night divine

Led by the light of Faith serenely beaming
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming
Here come the wise men from Orient land
The King of Kings lay thus in lowly manger
In all our trials born to be our friend.

Fall on your knees!
Oh hear the angel voices!
Oh night divine
Oh night when Christ was born
Oh night divine
Oh night divine

Truly He taught us to love one another
His law is love and His gospel is peace
Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother
And in His name all oppression shall cease
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
Let all within us praise His holy name.

Fall on your knees!
Oh hear the angel voices!
Oh night divine
Oh night when Christ was born
Oh night divine
Oh night divine

this has definitely become
my favorite traditional Christmas song.
it's so beautiful,
and it means so much.

when i really think about what it's saying,
it brings tears to my eyes.
truly, it is amazing.
i mean, can you believe
God sent His perfect, spotless Son,
to this dark, sinful world
to save us.
to save you.
to save me.
what a beautiful gift.

until Jesus came,
the world was lost,
working under the law
and hoping for the Messiah.
but then He came.
He brought light and hope to the world.
He was born and lived a human life,
just like us.

He poured out His heart
and His life
so that ungrateful people
like me
could be saved.
and we take that for granted so often.
can we truly comprehend what He did for us?
i really doubt it.
but that's all the more reason
to contemplate His unfathomable love for us.

so, this Christmas,
i hope you fall on your knees
and recognize what the reason really is
that was celebrate this day.
i hope your soul feels its worth.
and i hope that you who are weary
rejoice.
for a new morning i breaking
and He is bringing hope and peace, love and joy.

have a happy Christmas.
<3

these are some songs
that have been speaking to me
and/or
depicting my life right now.
just thought i'd share a few...

I was so scared of everything you put in front of me
I've been marching to every part of me
Just to see
See
Why you need me to be
The boy you need me to be

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saves a wretch like me
I once was lost
And now I'm found
Was blind but now I see

I just wanna see

I'm the type of person who lets fear drive
I'm the type of guy that lets it drive
Cause I'm addicted, I'm needy
I'm lost without you
I need you
I need you

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saves a wretch like me
I once was lost
But now I'm found
Was blind but now I see

Amazing grace (amazing grace)
How sweet the sound (how sweet)
That saves a wretch like me (that saved a wretch like me)
I once was lost
But now I'm found (you know I'm found)
Was blind but now I see

Amazing grace (you're amazing)
How sweet the sound (you're amazing)
That saves a wretch like me
I once was lost (it feels so bad when you're lost and alone)
But now I'm found
Was blind but now I see

Amazing Because It Is//The Almost

I made it through the year and I did not even collapse
Gotta say, thank God for that
I'm torn between what keeps me whole and what tears me in half
I'll fall apart or stay intact

With tired eyes i stumble back to bed
I need to realize my sorry life's not hanging by a thread
At least not yet

So look at me now
Its finally Christmas and I'm home
Head Indoors to get out of this weather
And I dont know how
But the closest friends I've ever known
Are all inside
Singing together
Singing Merry Christmas, Here's to Many More

It always hurt to be all by myself this time of year
A cold and lonely Christmas Eve
And living out my days all alone, well, that had been my deepest fear
But you promised you won't leave

I look towards the east and see a star
Jesus Christ, its blessed my life to know just who you are
You are my hope

So look at me now
Its finally Christmas and I'm home
Head Indoors to get out of this weather
And I dont know how
But the closest friends I've ever known
Are all inside
Singing together
Singing Merry Christmas, Here's to Many More

Deck the halls with mistletoe
May all your heavy burdens go
Up the chimeny in a cloud of smoke
The fire's burning bright
Strike up the band and play the tune
'Cause Christmas will be here and soon
You'll hear our song in every room
This merry Christmas night

Singing Merry Christmas, Here's to Many More

Merry Christmas, Here's to Many More//Relient K

more to come later.
much loves.

<3 H