Currently Watching Crazy/ Beautiful see related

hey everyone... how have ya been?  things are getting better here... i haven't updated in a week but a lot has actually happened in this past week... lotsa drama.  i've realized that im never gunna be able to get away from the drama so i might as well make the best of my situations... i mean i definitely cause some of the drama but my stupid decisions but its not all caused by me.  things are getting back on track though which is really good cause i didn't know how much more i could handle!  but yeah other than all the drama summer has been boring... im stuck at the house which sucks!  pretty much the only thing i do is work... i need the money but it gets old really fast.  i'm actually thinking about getting another job because i have to start paying car insurance... which is a bitch haha.  yeah i still need money to shop lol... but yeah other then that not much is goin on here.  but yeah i kinda also wunna say sorry about certain decisions that i have made lately that have been bad ones and hurt people that are close to me... i don't regret anything that i have done because it has kinda opened my eyes and made me see that i need to change my attitude a little.  i mean im still gunna go out and have a good time just not as much as i do now... and also i need to think how things are going to affect other people.  but yeah i guess thats it for now... this entry was kinda blah... but overall things are good... only 1 thing could make things great right now and hopefully i can get the 1 last thing that i want!  welp anyways guess i'll update later!

P.S.- dashboard confessionals new cd comes out tomorrow... yay!!!

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Currently Listening Back to Bedlam By James Blunt High see related

hey everyone... how have ya been?  well i got back from NY today... it was awesome!  so many good memories haha... i definitely needed that vacation.  o while i was up there i got to see them filming spiderman 3... it was so cool cause i never seen an actor before... like in person!  yeah that was pretty cool... yeah and i got to go to 5th ave where all the rich people shop haha.  i actually bought some make-up there though!  what else happened... haha yeah getting woken up at 5:30 in the morning sunday and monday morning cause sarahs brother and cousin came in drunk... haha that was hilarious!!!  lol yeah that was probably the funniest thing from the whole trip... but yeah overall is was awesome!!!  yeah the drama didn't really die down while i was there like i hoped it would but i kinda have the attitude right now of whatever happens happens... its pretty much all i can do right now... im tired of caring about things because if i do it'll drive me crazy so thats my goal from now on... not to care so much and let whatever happens happen... i've realized its not worth it anymore.  so im happy about that... hmm what else is going on... i take my drivers test in like 2 weeks... definitely excited for that!  welp guess i will update later... not much else to say.

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Currently Listening A Fever You Can't Sweat Out By Panic! at the Disco see related

hey everyone... whats up?  well my goal of keeping drama outta my life for summer hasn't worked and its only... my 3rd day into summer... great.  lately things have been so dramatic and i really can't take it anymore... like i finally get things back to normal and something else comes along thats even worse then before... and its like a buncha different things that are wrong... not just one.  and to make things worse i'm stuck sitting at home with plenty of time to run things through my mind... idk all i wunna do is get through today cause tomorrow i leave for NY.  hopefully that helps... i think i just need to get away from everything for a little and hopefully things will cool down while im gone!  like i can't even sort out all of my feelings right now... i have too many going through my mind... pissed, sorry, upset, tired, stressed... yeah thats just to name a few.  and the funny thing is i don't regret anything that i have done... which is really good cause thats pretty much my rule like i won't let myself regret anything that i've done.  i dunno i guess we'll see what happens.  i'll update next week after i get back from NY.  ttyl!

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Currently Listening The Ransom By Cartel see related

mkay... so school ended today (for me anyways) so im really excited... summer is finally here and im gunna make sure its a good summer... less drama and all that shit.  at least im gunna try haha.  but yeah haven't updated in a while... last week was amy's graduation so i went to that... it was pretty fun... after that we went back to her house and had cake and took lotsa pics... all that kinda stuff.  she spent the night at my house but i had to go to school the next morning so that sucked.  didn't do much this past weekend... but i found out things about people we'll just say.  all im gunna say is certain people need to get their stories straight and stop talking shit because im gettin fuckin tired of it... other then that life has been peachy!  o this friday i leave for new york with my girl sari... its gunna be awesome!  welp other then that not much has been going on... i'll update later!

She's had enough of being down
And it seems that everything that she's heard
It's everything that makes her cry
And it's just about time to get this right
because I don't know if it's all about taking this drink tonight

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Currently Listening If Only You Were Lonely Version A By Hawthorne Heights see related

hey everyone... how have ya been?  yeah pretty much things suck right now... like i mean i thought monday was bad... yeah it has definitely gotten worse and the fact that i work constantly gives me plenty of time to run things through my head (when we're not busy)  but yeah i definitely thought things couldn't get much worse and they have... like seriously i can't handle everything all at one time.  i just have so much running through my mind right now and i can't seem to get my feelings sorted out ya know?  like every day its something else happens that makes me upset again.  *sigh* i dunno what to do... im just tired of all the shit thats going on... yeah well i need to go to bed... school tomorrow cause my 'rents are gay and won't let me take off... but anyways i'll update later... hopefully its a better entry than this one.

I never thought we'd end up this way
You are the worst, I am to blame

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