Currently Listening Stand Still, Look Pretty By The Wreckers, Michelle Branch, Jessica Harp The Rain* see related

Aw yes my dear xanga how i missed you. Ive been busy on facebook and myspace but got a bit burnt out. So things have been pretty much the same, no worse thats for sure.

Surgery count down- 5 days.. Not to thrilled about that, thats for sure. I just need to be better by the 4th because its like my favorite holiday! Coffeyville with Laura and Chelsey sound so awesome, with all of lauras family and some of mine i suppose, shooting off tons of fireworks. I mean i use to think i went crazy but these guys woah yeah i cant even touch that show.

Boyfriend news- oh well there is none. Its cool though better off alone anyways. Got my 2 best friends, and my mom what more can a girl ask for?

-Alex

Scratch that....im pretty sure im single...yeah me and josh had a big fight Friday....he said "its over" so im pretty sure that means were over. Yeah i was so upset friday....

Then I relized how much stuff i put up with beacause i loved him...but if hes just going to get mad over a stupid fight im so over it.

GIRLS NIGHT IS SO WHAT I NEEDED.

Went and got chelsey to meet Laura at the car show...then we went over to fridays to get some comfort food and of couse cheesecake with chocolate fudge...!

Then came back over to chelseys...and were dancing...taking stupid pictures.

I honestly do not know what i would do without laura and chelsey...

Were going to go off and do something...I Love You All*

Everything

Happens For a Reason_*

So many things have happened in the past few weeks it feels unreal. So many things in my friends lives have changed so much. I think i need to take a step back and look around me. Take a good look at what and who i see. I want to have that love, that love that takes your breath away, that familiar love, butterflies in your stomach love....not hes just there love. or like. Despite what some people might think my friendships mean everything to me, that will never change because of a guy. Never.

I have relized that keeping my emotions bottled up doesn't make me appear stronger, it means im weak.

A good life is like a rollercoster. If you ride it, you're more likely to feel brilliant after it than if you don't get on it, because if you don't get on it you'll never know what it feels like.

Nothing you love is lost. Not really.
Things, people ; they always go away sooner or later.
You can't hold them anymore than you can hold moonlight.
But if they've touched you, if they're inside you,
then they're still yours. The only things you can really have
are the ones you hold inside your heart

Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart & soul, please grind them into hamburger, & enjoy." It's both desired, & feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's..relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape, and other things you just don't want to know.
---Grey's Anatomy

Be nice to everyone you meet,
they're fighting a battle you know nothing about.

^ Good Quote*

But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark,
cus in the dark there may be fear, but there's also hope..
---Grey's Anatomy

"Lots of girls show their beauty
because they want the world to see it --
but others try to hide it so
HE will look for something more..."
- The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words & really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.
--Grey's Anatomy

True champions aren`t always the ones
that win, but those with the most guts.
- Mia Hamm

What if Prince Charming had never shown up? Would Snow White have slept in that glass coffin forever? Or would she have eventually woke up, spit out the apple, gotten a job, a health-care package & a baby from her local neighborhood sperm bank? I couldn't help but wonder..Inside every confident, driven, single woman, is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved?
* Sex & the City

_Alex

Whats meant

to be

Will Happen....<3

The weekend before Valentines day was pretty sweet. Josh came down on Saturday and we went out for Valentines Day. He brought me a dozen beautiful white roses and a really sweet card. I took him to Utica at A&E to get some new jeans and walked around a while. Then we went to Charlestons but had to leave and take care of something then came back and had a good dinner. Came back to my house watched a movie for a bit then he left..!

Well i was sick all thursday night so i didnt go to school Friday....this weekend is pretty much going to suck. Was going to go to Wing Ding but i dont have anyone to go with so scratch that.

SNOW SNOW SNOW... I would be a heck of alot happier if we didnt already have monday off maybe it will snow some more monday and we wont have school Tuesday. Ehh i hate Memorial i really do. I would switch schools if it wasnt already my junior year.

*HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY TO CHELSEY ANN CHERRINGTON AND ASHLEY WOODARD*! <3

Sorry this isnt a very good entry..guess im just not in a very happy mood...</3

it's so easy to love him
yet so hard to tell himm.<3

laugh your heart out
dance in the rain
cherish the memories
ignore the pain.
LOVE && LEARN
forget and forgive
because remeber yew only have
|[o n e l i f e t o l i v e]|*

i wanna be your favorite hello
and your hardest goodbye «---

here'`s a little  something
everyone should know ;;
its alright to hold onn  but
eventually   <3  you gotta
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let's be a kodak couple & smile in all pictures,
look silly when we take them, & laugh all day until we
are out of film *<3

if you don`t practice like it`s a GAME,
then your GAME will look like practice.