| I JUST HAD THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| I LOVE MATTHEW PAUL BROWN!!!!!! |
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| ok i got this new thing goin...hopefully i wont screw it up this time....and even if i do screw it up i dont think that hes gonna let me go that easily....im really happy about his one..
i love him to death! mwah! xoxoxo 
maggie |
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| i think that this is the most depressed state that i have ever been in and i dont know how to get out of it...i think ive totally ruined everything with aaron...for some reason things always seem to get really screwed up whenever i get even the slightest bit happy and i wish that it would all just be over with...i wish i could go back in time and erase all the stupid shit that i have done to make him hate me..and what makes it worse is the only reason i did any of it was because of the fact that i wanted to see him or talk to him or juist be with him...i never meant for things to get the way they are...it just seems like theres no way out and i hate that feeling..then on the other hand it seems like half of my friends either hate me or arent talkin to me and i dont even know what i did there...then the other half are pretty much m.i.a. and i have no idea where the hell they are or they are here physically but they have more emotional problems then i do...i just dont know how my life got so screwed up and i dont know how to fix it..grrrrr...... |
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| yea i really dont think that i would be too surprised if i found out he has absolutely no feelings for me at all.....and it really sadens me that its prolly true..cause i think i really may be in love with him..and not just the little girl oh i love him love but the real i love him..im not sure how im gonna be able to get through this shit if he doesnt feel the same..i really hope he does..i dont think that i could go through another heartbreak..they just tear you apart....but anyways..i think im in love and i dont think he gives a damn and i just dont know what to do about it..
love ya
maggie |
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