a wise woman once said

i am weak, i am vulnerable, i am woman...hear me whine...

seriously...i did the hardest thing i've ever done in  my entire life this weekend.

it's not fair.

it's really not.

all i could do was cry, and cry, and cry till i was to tired to cry anymore...i've never cried like that. not even after a break up.

i hate it so bad, but action will be taken. i won't sit around and watch this happen.

it's ridiculous

how odd, the things that make you giggle....man...i missed giggling!

so i've been keeping my godson on the weekends, and he is the coolest thing on the planet. he just turned 1 on the 28th! and he FINALLY calls me nana!
if i could only ask that you guys keep his family in your prayers, they're my heart.

this weekend was kinda different...but a good different.

there's no way that you can get comfortable. i don't expect to be comfortable for the rest of my life, and i'm excited about it. i'm moving higher every time i spend time with God. it's so foreign, but it feels so right; like i've been doing it forever. 

it's perfect.

almost

but that's not important...if you only knew how different it is when your life isn't revolving around trying to find a guy. i found the love i've been looking for without even knowing what it is.

i used to confuse love for...love if that makes sence. and it probably doesn't, but it makes perfect sence in my head so bear with me...

it's pretty cool now to recognize the difference, and know it for what it is...

oops tavens awake....

night night

just a small obsession....

BAHAAA

i said small.....

my goodness...

i dunno why i feel the need to document this...but it's been a year.

what a different individual i've become eh?

apparently a bit canadian too...

woohoo

ya know why?

cause it doesn't even hurt!

i can easily say i forgive you, and it's not even a lie!

if only i had something witty real to say.

i need a good quiet time.

tomorrow is pretty well needed...time to crawl into daddy's lap.

oh how i missed you.

lighter news!

i'm going on my first mission trip this summer!

first time out of the states, first time to see a beach(actual blue water, none of that muck in the gulf)...first week to spend with no air conditioner, hot water, or a fan to sleep with. praise god...and this is what i want to do with my life! haha. big things are happening. i'm so excited!

yay jamaica!