hope can be so hard to gain back.

i still don't understand how you lost faith.  i wonder if you were like me once, full of hope and faith when faced with obstacles..one day, "everything will be okay, and i will be happy".

i wondered what really happened.  the human mind can be so fragile.  did it just decide to give up?

will this be me one day?  i don't want to ever lose hope.  even when i have lost my hope, i always gain it back.

I really wished this xanga entry will be of a different tone.  I know I'll be okay (because I'll always be okay).  You can put so much effort and energy into something without realizing it, and you realize it when you find out it doesn't give you the outcome you desire.  Constantly I'm readjusting my dreams just to fit the incidents in my life, but why can't it be the other way around?  Why can't things work around my dreams?

I know I'll get to the other side, though it's not around the corner anytime soon.  But I've made promises to my friends, and promises should not be broken...