|
| It's really funny, everyone says she's not my type...one friend said, "she's SOOOOO not your type" and another said, "well...you could do better."
Is she my type? I'm not even sure anymore...I'm not even sure I know my type anymore...but apparently they know because they positive she's not...oh well who cares...looks like we get along, and she's actually interested...lunch was rushed but fun...we'll see how Thursday goes...
Love Storm is actually not bad...given the fact that I have no life and have been sitting here watching like 5 episodes a day...maybe it's because it's got Vivian in it...yeah...that's got to be it...
So she called me late last night...didn't know who it was at first because I never had her new cell number...that's how long we haven't spoken for...I guess I must have missed the call since I was asleep...she's back in Taiwan now...maybe that's what she wanted to tell me, although I can't imagine what she would have said besides, "I'm at the airport now about to get on a plane to Taiwan." That would have been kind of awkward... | | |
| Wow it certainly has been a while since I last logged in...I almost didn't even remember my password/username...so many things have happened...don't even really know where to begin my thoughts...
...It's not so bad where I am now...physically, emotionally, in life...whatever...the people around me are all friendly, but somehow, I think I still keep pushing them away...most of the time I don't even know why I do it...perhaps I do know why, but I'm just to afraid to admit it...there's always that one thing missing...I hope I can find it soon...
I feel better that I've been talking with angelle again...for a while we kind of lost touch...sometimes I just phase out, and I'm glad she didn't take it personally...I know she's been going through some rough times, but I know she'll pull through...
Been thinking about A-bomb a lot these days too...we were like the best of friends back in the day, but now it feels like a dream...p-town, Japan, even NY...I wish him the best...I know he'll do well...
And sometimes I still think about her...the first few weeks were the hardest, but it got better, but now and again I feel the tug still...it's strange because I thought that moving closer would strengthen the friendship (if you could call it that), but it's actually distanced her...it's probably been a few months since I last talked to her, and even longer since I saw her...there are times when I pick up the phone and want to call, but then I realize I have absolutely nothing to say...so silly...even I laugh at myself sometimes | | |
| It was strange...yesterday...I really didn't think I wanted to go back to the whole 9/11 deal...I don't like to live in the past...but everywhere I looked, there it was...yesterday started out really gloomy...just wanted to check out the weather...and there it was...on every fucking channel...
Got some bad news yesterday too...it's always disappointing when you don't get what you want...I ended up getting NC...I mean...I know nothing about NC...but hopefully I'll be able to keep what I have now, and maybe just do a little windshield time...
It was so good to talk to Winona yesterday...I actually miss her a lot...more than I thought so before...it's like while I was on the phone with her, I realized that I'd actually missed out a lot on what she was going through and all...I hope we keep in touch...
I think Karissa's getting all bent out of shape cuz I haven't told her what's been going on around me...but then again, I haven't really told anyone yet...with the exception of M_...I just feel like I'm so lost sometimes...it's like even though I try to surround myself with people, I'm always alone...always end up going the distance by myself...not many people understand me...I'm not even sure I understand myself...
So things are supposed to look "not that great" for the next few days...hopefully I'll pull through...hopefully... | | |
| I wonder what's going on...I wanted to call her all day, and finally I ICQed her, and she told me she had just called ME! Imagine the odds of that happening...
But I get horrible reception here...so of course I missed the call...
What a day...it's been so boring...I wish I had something REAL to do...maybe I'll go look at digital cameras or something...
Maybe I'll get back to working on that tune... | | |
| Today is just CRAWLING by...I can't believe how slowly this day is going by...I feel like I'm gonna rot here...
Brain fart... | | |
|
