| sourfeeling a bit like running on a very steeply inclined treadmill...and everyday, i fall at least once.
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| "When life tries to keep us apart, you keep calling me back to your heart. "
just about the only meaningful sentence in the entire song.
but...i still love it.
i have such good taste
: )
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| "Well that's just it. I don't want to be the rebound guy. I want to be the guy"
yay "Ugly Betty"!
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| O_Oi feel like i'm about to explode...constantly.
i wish i were better equipped at handling stress and seeing the big picture...but i'm currently fixated on one thing and i don't even know if it's worth all this stress. ugh...
i'm starting my surgery rotation (if all goes well...cross fingers) in may...which is my 3rd year of medical school and not residency O_O...people often get confused and don't realize the marathon-ness of medical education...ugh...it's all about delayed gratification. it's kind of exciting but also really scary at the same time. people say that 3rd year is much better...and they'd better be right...or else i'm going down the wrong track O_o.
does the work really ever end though? i don't think so. and it's not even just people in the medical field...it's every field if you want to be successful...or at least adequate. every time i walk around campus seeing undergrads doing undergrad things...like playing frisbee, making weekend plans, or talking about how cool friday's party was...i keep wishing that i could go back to college. i feel like even if i had worked 3X harder in undergraduate...it wouldn't even be the same amount of work i'm doing now...either i worked way too little in undergrad or i'm just have bad memory. i'm thinking a mix of both.
gahhhhh....spring weather is also not helping. can we just go to the beach? read a novel? maybe i should just find myself a rich man and spend the rest of my life attending charity functions and sipping tea with other ladies of high society discussing the amazingness of creme de la mer (sp?).
"付出的從來不會等於收回"
(ugh..that took me so long to type...chinese typing skills are diddly squat haha..)
so true on so many levels.
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| breakhaven't done much work today thus far...but feeling rather good and well adjusted.
cool non-academic things that happened today:
1. i love my car! i've decided to name it "tess amicar" (i mean seriously, leslie [who suggested amicar]...can you imagine me saying "i'm going to take amicar to the mall"?...sounds awkward). I've also realized that i don't like naming inanimate objects of my own...so who knows if the name will even stick.
2. went to a talk on the health care system. highlight was when the speaker was talking about why preventative care will not cut costs..."some people are saying, well, if everyone stopped smoking, were the right weight, and exercised, they wouldn't incur health care costs. if my grandmother had wheels she would be a bicycle. that's just wishful thinking." haha. so random. even though i've known the speaker for years...he still surprises me sometimes.
3. was at the li-sci studying away when someone 2 tables down presented me with a tuna sandwich and a bottle of diet coke, extra from their lunch meeting.
4. at li-sci, i was sitting next to these 3 grad students on lunch break....a fairly long lunch-break if you ask me (2 hrs) even for grad students. and they had (i kid you not) a 2 hour conversation about flies! i was tuning in at various times...and each time it was still about flies...i learned a couple of things: 'virgin flies' is an actual term, male flies die earlier, trying to publishing when your PI is not helpful is really difficult (actually i knew that already). I think that's what medical ppl sound like to other (normal) people. Not a bad thing...but definitely DORKY.
5. meeting someone at the comp lab. isn't it great when ppl are like...hey seen you around a lot...what's your name? and yet i always feel awkward doing that.
okay back to work.
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