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I've had this damned thing for 1048 days....thats close to 3 years....it seems like i've had this thing forever though....Not that I sign on here that often...I should at least write something while im on here...so yep..back in Japan...it took me a while but I'm pretty much over stacey....kinda hard to believe....didn't think i would....it took a loooooong time....its ok....I'll always love her, and wonder how she's doing....but it'll always stay at that.  First true love kinda thing...So yes, in Jay Pan...I think this deployment is going to suck more than the last time that I was here....partially do to all the new people in my unit....partially because half the friends that I went out with aren't here with me....to include Jake, Magen, Tom, And Mays....shit that's more than half...well and Judy...but she's been in Iraq since february...she'll be back when I come home in Jan though...then there's Magen...she's the new girl in my life...I really like her a lot....fortunatly for me I was smart enough to date a girl that lives in San Diego!!!  Unofortunatly...we started dating a little more than a month before I left for here....though we're still technically together it's a horse of a different color when you're on the other side of the world.....it's not the first time i've done it though....in general it's taking a while to get used to things here....it's like groundhogs day the movie....work all day.....or what seems like all day, and by the time I get off work I have enough time to eat, relax for 30-60 minutes....the gym...shower...call and talk to Magen for a while, and then sleep.....the weekend doesn't hold much in store for me either...I'm trying to save money so my paychecks are like half of what i'm used to...im putting away 833.33 a month.....ya..odd # i know...but in 6 months time...with interest I'll have a lil bit more than 5g's.  Don't know what i'm saving it for...or if im even going to spend it when I get back...but it'll be there.  Its hard to do...i've been partying and living care free for so long that saving money is very difficult.  I joined the marine corps for several reasons....college....travel...and overall a fresh start...and i'm slowly accomplishing all of that...I've got to enroll in my online classes today...I would've liked to have gone elsewhere my second deployment...but japanX2 is what i got served....unfortunatly all along the way....3 years in October...i've been partying it up...living good...going out constantly...living care free....kinda....i look back and realize it wasn't....It was wreckless and if I could do it all over again I would've set my priorites a lil better...I don't have a whole lot to show for in the time that i've been enlisted...but I don't really regret much of what i've done.  Not many people can say they've done some of the things I have...and I've still got more than a year to go...maybe more...but that's under wraps..NOT re-enlistment.  It's highly doubtfull that anyone will read this....and I know everyone says that...but its true for the most part....damn Mallory made a xanga...sent me a message about it...and hasn't updated it since....I hope YOU read it....then maybe you'll update!  I think it's time for me to leave...figure out something to do with my weekend....I do need to go to the gym today...alright, enough ramblings....for today...perhaps i will make more of an attempt to update this damned thing...for my own future readings...shit...maybe even a picture thats not so damn old.

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So it's been a long time since I've typed anything on here.  I almost forgot I had the damn thing.  A lot has happened since last june.......yet only one thing sticks out.......Stacey.  I could go into a super long story about me and her but it all comes down to the fact that I loved her more than anything.  I would have done anything just to make her happy....and most of the time I did....We haven't been together since February....she dumped me a week before I was going to fly down and see her....with an engagement ring........we don't talk anymore...the relationship ended on bad terms........it was her fault, but I made the decision to stop talking....thinking it would be easier...ya, its not.....though it is easier to think about now than what it was after I left Florida.....I spent less than 2 days with her before I found out that she had been lying to me....for god only knows how long....it was the hardest thing I've ever done....telling her that I love her, but can't talk to her anymore...because she had put me through so much and lying only made it worse.  I gave her a hug and walked away....this is day 3 of 14 on my "vacation"  You know how its easier to keep your mind off of things when you have something to occupy your time?  Well the only thing I had to take up my time was booze....for 11 days.  Since then things have only seem to have gone down hill....I'm trying to stop thinking about her but I can't......I still talk to one of  her friends all the time...anyways...I'm gonna stop bithching.........life goes on.  I miss having someone to care about.......ok..im done.

Currently Listening On And On By Jack Johnson see related

Ahhh...monday..and I've been sitting on my ass all day  too bad I don't have a choice in the matter...as I'm on duty....I've been going back and fourth between xanga and myspace all day..listening mt my Itunes.....mmm...third eye blind is on right now...can I graduate...ha...thats kinda funny..i've been reading about all the people that are graduating....makes me sad....it's been 2 years since I've graduated...and all my friends are now like 2 years ahead of me in college...eeeek...I just got down listening to Thursday and movielife..sublime is next...I'm eating some sort of sub the SSgt i'm on duty with bought me..not bad...I found an old friend on myspace...I have to pee....is pepsi really better than coke?  I don't know...I hit my elbow today, it still hurts....I might watch SLC punk later today.....My Ipod is blue...kool I know....I boutght a Rolex in Korea...its real I swear....I was going to take a picture of myself for this post...but I didn't bring my camera chord....by boots have cracks in them...from one side to the other...the most I ever weighed was around 275...the least I ever weighed was 170.3...Im like 205ish right now...I want to get down to 180 by mid july....I miss San Diego.....more than I miss being home....why is that?  Maybe because I hang out with too many of my friends when I was back home...and they were all doing the same old shit.....when I'm with you I feel like I could die, and that would be alright.....good song.....I miss being young...in HS..no worries....football games...parties...friday nights at fatmans.....fucked up girlfriends......driving to wayland....door.....hehe..my broke ass blazer....it's too bad no one that reads this knows any of this......I didn't have too many close friends that I still talk to...sad....I like ice skating at night while it's snowing.....I miss hockey...i need a haircut...tomorrow morning is a great song...Jack Johnson...I want to go to the beach with Fisher..in san diego....I'll go to the beach in florida...in september...I can't wait....Being a hall monitor was the best thing about high school...davie, you know...tecmo mutha fug in baseball...ok...I want to put a picture up..but still can't...

Currently Listening Commitment By Lucky Boys Confusion see related

OO, I went to Tokyo….and well…four months of saving money and dieting....wasted....but I had a great time....other than the weight gain, and the money loss...wa wa waaa...thats ok...after I buy my plane ticket for leave, I won't have much to spend my money on until September...and well the weight gain...i'm sure most of it is water weight...BUT, im going to kick it in the ass and lose a whole bunch of fat....I have many pictures from the trip though....lets have a looksie...

<---This here is me in Korea....good fun, my buddy Tyler took this picture..

This one--> is from this weekend thats a non-alcoholic something or other.......

This is me and Tyler...sure...rain clouds... eek!

Damn, I've reached my photo limit for the month...GAY...I'll put more in later...as I have many...meanwhile....here is another 50 word story, ENJOY!!