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Friday, June 27, 2008

  • Memories

    A song plays on the radio
    And another memory comes along
    Tears rolling down my face
    I can't take it anymore

    "Oh my love, my darling..." the song goes on
    And it haunts me every time, I just can't let go
    I wish we could get back what we have lost
    But it's gone forever I suppose

    You promised me forever
    But forever has gone with the wind
    You said our love was eternal
    But all good things must come to an end

    Memories of you are locked in this room
    Sometimes I don't wanna be here remembering you
    It hurts too much going down memory lane
    When it really doesn't make any sense

    The memories I recall never had a face
    Only words and things left to the imagination
    Have I really got memories at all?
    Maybe it was only hallucinations

    My mind playing tricks on me
    And it's like I see you there
    The ghost of what was to be
    Disappeared or was it ever there?

    The dreams that scattered
    Like pollen on a warm spring day
    Have become nothing and there is nothing left
    I am speechless I have nothing left to say

Thursday, June 12, 2008

  • Sad Event

    It's been so long since I blogged on here. Lately I have been feeling sad. I tell people I cry all the time but never say why. I usually say I don't know why but it's a lie. My reason for crying is because I miss a certain someone and it is driving me crazy.

    I'm the kind of person who will stick to my decisions and never turn back and just forget it ever happened. I am talking about forgetting my last relationship and carrying on with my new one. I don't know what it is about him that makes me miss him so much, when I should really be mad at him for many reasons and forgetting him.

    I can't forget my ex no matter how hard I try and it's so weird because I have always been able to forget others and move on. I guess it's hard to let go when that certain someone is your soul mate and the love of your life. You might wonder how 2 people who are supposed to be each others soul mate can separate forever. Well, all I can say is crap happens and that's life. I still love him though and I know he will always love me.

    Were we meant to be? Only time will tell! Anyway, so he has 2 amazing kids whom were calling me "mummy" while we were together. Last weekend they found out that "mummy and daddy" aren't together anymore and they took it pretty hard specially our 4 year old son.

    I love his kids as if they were my own. I don't think his son will ever stop calling me "mummy" but I think his daughter will. She is much older and she told me she wants to be friends for a long time. Her words were "I love you Sanny", it broke my heart. She used to call me "mummy Sanny".

    The little one calls me "mummy Snow White" lol, he is so cute! He says I have dark hair and red lips like Snow White and I wear blue, as you can see on my profile picture. A few days later I talked to the little guy again and he told me he drew me. He is very talented like his daddy. He said he wanted to draw me and his daddy and send it to me.

    I wanted so much to marry their daddy and have a family together but things got in the way of that. I wanted so much to be the mother his kids deserved to have. I will never stop loving them and I will never stop being a part of their lives. I'd even consider moving to London to be close to them, so that they'd always have a mummy to rely on even if I am not with their daddy.

    I won't break the promise I made to look after them and raise them should anything happen to their daddy God forbid. They mean so much to me. I was crying my eyes out when I was told that our son asked "do I have a mummy?", "does mummy love me?". I never thought it would hurt him so bad. I am not his biological mother.

    I gotta wonder how he took it when his parents got divorced. I know his mom isn't the best mom and he hardly likes to spend time with her, because she doesn't really bother much with him to begin with and I don't blame him for not wanting to be around her.

    Anyway, I assured him that I will always love him and he was ok after a while. We talked on the phone and we said "I love you" to each other and it felt great to hear him say it and also the fact that I told him I love him and he didn't question it. It was as if I never lost my son and I don't wanna lose him. I don't wanna lose my daughter either but she wants to be friends. I guess I understand.

    Anyway, this is all I have for now. I'll blog again soon. Goodnight to all and God Bless!

     

     

Saturday, May 10, 2008

  • About Me

    Birthday Calculator

    15 November 1976

    Your date of conception was on or about 23 February 1976 which was a Monday.

    You were born on a Monday
    under the astrological sign Scorpio.
    Your Life path number is
    4.

    Your fortune cookie reads:
    Today is a lucky day for those who remain cheerful and optimistic.

    Life Path Compatibility:
    You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
    You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 6 & 7.
    You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 3, 5 & 9.

    The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2443097.5.
    The
    golden number for 1976 is 1.
    The
    epact number for 1976 is -1.
    The year 1976 was a leap year.

    Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/31/1976 and ending 2/17/1977.
    You were born in the
    Chinese year of the Dragon.

    Your Native American Zodiac sign is Snake; your plant is Thistle.

    You were born in the Egyptian month of Tyby, the first month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

    Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 22 Heshvan 5737.
    Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 23 Heshvan 5737.

    The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.3.6.13 which is
    12 baktun 18 katun 3 tun 6 uinal 13 kin

    The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 23 Dhi'l-Qa'dih 1396 (1396-11-23).

    The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 18 April 1976.
    The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 25 April 1976.
    The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 3 March 1976.
    The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 6 June 1976.
    The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 13 June 1976.
    The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 25 September 1976.
    The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 15 April 1976.
    The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 2 March 1976.


    As of 5/10/2008 3:47:54 PM EDT
    You are 31 years old.
    You are 378 months old.
    You are 1,642 weeks old.
    You are 11,499 days old.
    You are 275,991 hours old.
    You are 16,559,507 minutes old.
    You are 993,570,474 seconds old.

    Celebrities who share your birthday:

    Zena Grey (1988)Frida Lyngstad (1945)Sam Waterston (1940)
    Petula Clark (1932)Ed Asner (1929)Bill 'C.W. McCall' Fries (1928)
    Judge Joseph Wapner (1919)Georgia O'Keeffe (1887)


    Top songs of 1976

    Tonight's the Night by Rod StewartSilly Love Songs by Wings
    Don't Go Breaking My Heart by Elton John & Kiki DeeDisco Lady by Johnnie Taylor
    Play The Funky Music by Wild CherryDecember, 1963 (Oh What a Night) by Four Seasons
    50 Ways to Leave Your Lover by Paul SimonKiss and Say Goodbye by Manhattans
    If You Leave Me Now by ChicagoLove Hangover by Diana Ross


    Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 4.50058708414873 years old. (You're still chasing cats!)

    Your lucky day is Tuesday.
    Your lucky number is 9 & 11.
    Your ruling planet(s) is Mars & Pluto.
    Your lucky dates are 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th.
    Your opposition sign is Taurus.
    Your opposition number(s) is 6.

    Today is not one of your lucky days!

    There are 189 days till your next birthday
    on which your cake will have 32 candles.

    Those 32 candles produce 32 BTUs,
    or 8,064 calories of heat (that's only 8.0640 food Calories!) .
    You can boil 3.66 US ounces of water with that many candles.

    In 1976 there were approximately 3.1 million births in the US.
    In 1976 the US population was approximately 203,302,031 people, 57.4 persons per square mile.
    In 1976 in the US there were approximately 2,152,662 marriages (10.1%) and 1,036,000 divorces (4.9%)
    In 1976 in the US there were approximately 1,921,000 deaths (9.5 per 1000)
    In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
    In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

    In 1976 the population of Australia was approximately 14,110,107.
    In 1976 there were approximately 227,810 births in Australia.
    In 1976 in Australia there were approximately 109,973 marriages and 63,230 divorces.
    In 1976 in Australia there were approximately 112,662 deaths.


    Your birthstone is Citrine

    The Mystical properties of Citrine

    Citrine is said to help one connect with Spirit.

    Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

    Yellow Topaz, Pearl, Diamond


    Your birth tree is

    Chestnut Tree, the Honesty

    Of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritable and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self-confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood, loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.


    There are 229 days till Christmas 2008!
    There are 242 days till Orthodox Christmas!

    The moon's phase on the day you were
    born was waning crescent.

    Number 4

    The Life Path 4 suggests that you entered this plane with a natural genius for planning, fixing, building, and somehow, with practical application and cerebral excellence, making things work. You are one of the most trustworthy, practical, and down-to-earth of individuals; the cornerstone members of society. Indeed, as a Life Path 4, you are a builder of society. The cream of the crop in this Life Path can be a master builder in society. if you are among these highly talented people, you have an idealistic nature which is grounded in practical terms, allowing you to conceive grandiose, far-reaching schemes and carry them through to the end. If you desire and are willing to work for it, you can achieve enormous success, prestige, and fame. Obviously, everyone with a 4 Life Path does not become famous.

    All with this Life Path have the ability to take orders and to carry them out with dedication and perseverance and many 4s live and work happily in this context. But so often, the 4 Life Path is the entrepreneur and manager in the community. In either role, you always demand as much from yourself as you do from others, and sometimes a lot more.

    You have the kind of will power that is often mistaken for sheer stubbornness. You don't think of yourself as dogged, but your honest beliefs and that ever direct speech makes you come across as completely unremitting. Once a decision is made, it will be followed through to the conclusion, right, wrong, or indifferent. You are very set in your ways and determined to handle things the way you are so certain that they should be handled. Your tenacity of purpose and ability to get the job done borders on obsession. You are a wonderful manager with a great sense of how to get the job done.

    You are an excellent organizer and planner because of your innate ability to view things in a very common sense and practical way. This stems from a strong desire to be a perfectionist in your labor. Planning is necessary to avoid errors. It's very likely that a 4 Life Path person invented the to-do list, because it is the rare Life Path 4 who doesn't have one by her side at all times. Your life is programed in an orderly fashion permitting you to catalog and manage the flow of ideas and activities that fill your day. Indeed, you seem to function best when you are under the gun and facing a tough set of problems.

    Loyal and devoted, you make the best of your marriage, and you are always the good provider. Friends may be few in number, but you are very close to them and once friendships are made, they often last a lifetime.

    The number 4 is solidly associated with the element of earth from which it gains its strength and utter sense of reality. You are one of the most dependable people you know. If patience and determination can ever win, you are sure to achieve great success in life. Often, you are called on to take care of others; to finish what they have started. It may not seem fair and probably isn't, but it may be the key to your accomplishment and reputation.

    The negative side of the 4 can prove dogmatic to an excess, narrow-minded, and repressive. A lot of skin-deep people turn you off, and you lack the tact to keep your feelings from being totally clear to all around. Additionally, the negative 4 has a bad tendency to get caught up in the daily routine of affairs, missing the big picture and major opportunities that come along once in a while.

    You entered: SLMR (not gonna display my full name)

    There are 22 letters in your name.
    Those 22 letters total to 101
    There are 9 vowels and 13 consonants in your name.

    What your first name means:

    GreekFemaleVariant of Alexandra: A feminine form of Alexander meaning defender of men, used in Britain since early 13th century; it became popular after the 1863 marriage of future King Edward VII to Princess Alexandra of Denmark.
    EnglishFemaleUnheeded prophetess. A diminutive of Casirnir, Cassandra, or Catherine. In Homer's 'The Iliad' Cassandra's prediction of the fall of Troy was unheeded. Also used as an independent name. Also a feminine of Alexander (defender of man).

    Your number is: 2

    The characteristics of #2 are: Cooperation, adaptability, consideration of others, partnering, mediating.

    The expression or destiny for #2:


    A number 2 Expression gives you the tools to work very well with other people. Your destiny is in the role of the mediator and the peacemaker. In many ways you are dependent on others and seem to function best in a partnership or in some form of group activity. Modesty runs deep in your nature, and you can work comfortably without recognition of your accomplishments. Often, others get credit for your ideas, and this is of little real concern to your since you are such a willing team player. As you grow in this direction, you become sensitive to the feelings of others, you are ever diplomatic in handling complicated situations. Cooperative, courteous, and considerate, you have the capacity to become an outstanding facilitator. You know how to organize and handle people. You are a good detail person because you rarely overlook anything. Tactful and friendly, nearly everyone likes you.

    The negative 2 personality can be over-sensitive and easily hurt. Too much of this number in your makeup can make you very shy and uncertain. Sometimes the excessive 2 energies makes one apathetic and somewhat indifferent to the job at hand; the ability to handle details is hampered in these cases.

    Your Soul Urge number is: 8

    A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
    With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

    Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

    The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

    Your Inner Dream number is: 3

    An Inner Dream number of 3 means:
    You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.

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Thursday, May 08, 2008

  • Happy Birthday Sunny!

    Happy Birthday Sunshine!! You've touched many lives in your 29 years of life. You have been blessed with family and friends who love you very much. I hope you have a great time on your day. May your birthday be filled with love, laughter and blessings. I love you!!

     

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

  • Won't Let Go

    I am sorry for the pain I caused
    That was never my intention
    I wanted to love you forever more
    But I felt it was time to move on

    I never wanted to dim that light
    That once shone upon our love
    Sometimes all I do is cry
    Because my heart won't let go

    Everywhere I go I still see you
    Everything I do makes me think of you
    I think of the times well spent
    Those are memories I will cherish

    I think of the times I felt I was in heaven
    Because you were always my loving angel
    They say time heals all wounds
    But I am not certain that's true

    My heart still beats for you
    I can't help but love you
    I know you still love me too
    It doesn't feel like we are through

    Our song keeps playing
    We dance through the night
    We get lost in the words
    And the way we look into each other's eyes

    My lips spoke the words
    My heart will never speak
    I never wanted to see you go
    I thought we were meant to be

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  • I am 31 with a passion for God, my man, family, friends, arts in all forms. I love to sing and write. I am not looking to hook up with anyone. I am here for friends and to share my thoughts.

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  • I have a new nephew and he is so precious! His name is Myles David born May 22nd, 2008. He is so tiny and I love him so much!
  • My man went home to Italy this past weekend. He has kept in touch but I still miss him a lot. Hurry back Stephano! Ti amo bello!
  • I am so happy with my man so far, I truly hope he is the real deal. I'd hate to be disappointed once again! I love you Stephano!

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  • no1charmerlondon
    My BestFriendI found a friend,Who knew everything I felt.She knew my every weakness,And the problems I've been dealt.She understood my wonders,And listened to my dreams.She listened to how I felt about life and love,And knew what it all means.Not once did she interrupt me,Or tell me I was wrong.She
  • no1charmerlondon
    It was nice chatting today when it was you and I, I love spending time with you, listening to music, sharing things, learning things.
  • no1charmerlondon
    opppppps I meant GORGEOUS! lol
  • no1charmerlondon
    Gorgeos poem hunny, maybe you should add it in English too, I know I understand most of it but I'm not sure everyone will! Lol Though I must say its better in Spanish, as it reads more emotional and is so much sexier when its read out loud ;)