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老實地說又可以告訴誰?

怕女友亂想
又怕令她覺得煩厭
更怕她認定我已變得愈來愈婆媽

嗚呼噫嘻

我想老實的表達自己
欲又怕承擔不起 要知禍從口出
而且忠言逆耳
老朋友我說你不對
你卻問我何時變得斯般不對嘴

我變了你變了你變了我變了

我常想
如果我不再是那天我示愛時的我
你還喜歡我嗎?

如果我認識你的那天超不爽
我們會是老友死黨嗎?

甚麼是我當然是一個好問題
而甚麼才造就成我是一個更好的問題

我想開心快樂的好人.

好
要開心快樂
最容易便是just do it想做就做

有人說這太自私
不是好人所為

那麼
另一個極端便是將別人都放在自己之前
如老爸老媽,女朋友,朋友,同學...

這樣我說不快樂
縱然要別人才能夠成就一個你
但老是為別人也是蠢的

我想做自己
我不會偷呃拐騙殺人放火傷天害理
我只想有一個以我為中心的時間

媽媽要見我,爸爸要我執屋,朋友說我不夠情義,女朋友亦投訴...

你們都告訴我決定了就要做
你們都告訴我你們明白我支持我了解我

你們都告訴我你們不快樂
你們都冷冷的叫我去吧
你們都給我面色

我想發呆
我想看書
我想喝可樂.

there is nothing in the world you can control.

of course sometimes you feel like you estimate how will it go and try to change it.
but we actually like leaves, when the breeze have to take you away, u can try hard to stick to the tree, yet it was the tree or the wind decide u have to go or not.

we, human , are simply creature, not immortal.

we try to stay because we dont know wt is going on.
we afraid of unknown, yet future is, pathatically, equals to unknown.
nothing can be confirmed.

i can only promise u i will try, but u know there is always something bigger.
u may say that i have the choice of "to be or not to be".
but i cant make a choice without concerning all others,
a play without one single actor cannot play, even how "tiny" he was.

i dont want to give u empty words, and you know i wont
i do always want to fulfill ur wishes, didnt i?

drama is my dream, it is mt hobby, or u can say it is part of me,
if u love me, please. love my drama too.

please appreciate how much i put on it.
please appreciate how much pressure i carry for it.
please appreciate how brave i am becasue of it.

sorry sometimes i cant see the tears in your heart.

i m reli such a fool.

i am a God damned wired person.
sometimes i cant even speak what i reli want to tell.

but please believe me that you are always my only one.

some said darkness was there due to the brightness of light.

but i guess i was supposed to know your good, without having any comparisons, for decades.

Beauty

the concept of beauty can be very different from each other.

i have can see two concepts.

one is being yourself would be most beautiful.
another one is being what you want yourself to be.

to be honest, sorry for my cheap taste, it is hard to said that outlook is not important at all.
at least, the very first thing i aware is how was she look.
i believe that also apply on girls, which help them to make choices like keep in touch with them or not.

if we take it in this way, girls are more aware the outlooks of the opposite sex.
(of coz not all of you)

that was the first impression, which i believe is the most important things to charm an opposite sex.

so... how to make ourself become a beauty?

there are always someone around you who are inborn beauty.
they are so beautiful even when they are young, dressing badly or didn't put on make up.
juz accept that, we are not inborn beauty.

yet there are still somebody who are not actually good looking when you look them in detail, yet they are very charming, loads of bee surround this honey even she did nth.

we can probably be this type.
we need not to have great body (of coz you cant go extreme)
all we need is to believe in ourselves.

beautiful is only a adjective others give.
it can be anything.
you have to know that every person have a attractive pt on their own.
so... all you have to do is to learn more about yourself by trying different type of you and see which can charm others and u love it at the same time.
then expand it.

everyone is lovable, no matter the outlook or the inner you.

being logical to some-emotional-thing

Okay

can u face wt i hv said with the deep inside of your heart?
wt i need is not someone to comfort me

MAYBE, i ,that's all, just realise sth in life

of coz, everybody know that wt love probably is
like 愛是恆久的 是慈祥 愛是不嫉妒 不誇張 不自大 凡事包容 凡事盼望 凡事相信 凡事忍耐
you see, we even have the defination in bible
BUT
is that wt you do?
知而不為 是為不知

love can not be quantized becoz love is like a kind of gases, but you cant count in mole or concentartion
yet you can feel the place full with love

BUT we people said love cant be quantized simply becoz we want to be LOGICIAL
myabe is mr. logicial make we,human, become different
yet we must remember that we are actually animal, with emotion.

juz like there is no perfect convalent bond or neither ionic

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being logical is good or bad, wll, it all depends on your logic
wt i mean is wt kind of logic you have

to be logical, isnt it emphasizing to ask for the reward?

our so-called logical thinking are simply fill with emotion
we love you, so we give

but back to the old question, wt on earth is love?
or wt is love on earth?

i m not trying to teach abt love or wt
juz, i was faithful in love, once.
i dun know wt actually i m now.

sometimes i refer it to the pressure,
sometimes i refer it to the loneliness,
sometimes i refer it to i m not strong enough,
sometimes i refer it to i m exhausted,
sometimes i refer it to i m sick, psycologicailly.

if the mind is so complicated, how can one figure out wt is love?
or love is simply sth inborn n we dont hv to know but to act?
then wt can i do when somebody had different defination of love with me?
i can even hardly know m i right about love.
remember wt love is a action instead of words

please make sure you are saying wt you are doing
or else we are all saints.