I finally have lost 12 pounds now. I had lost 11 by last month, then I gained 2 back. I've lost those two and have finally lost another...Yeah!!! Onward...
If I lose 3 more pounds I will be back to where I was 5 years ago, and if I can lose 7 more pounds, I will be at the lowest weight that me darlin' children will ever have remembered seeing me. That would be awesome....
I weighed less than that when Beth was little, but I doubt that she has much memory of it. I went through a bout of depression back when she was little and took medication that made me hungry all the time, and  gained 20 pounds. Yikes! I slowed down the weight gain after I stopped taking the medication, but a few pounds were added on the year that Michael was a baby. The year after we adopted John was so stressful, dealing with his birth grandparents, the social worker who had no clue what she was doing, and all of John's physical and emotional problems that I gained another 20 pounds. At my worst, I weighed 53 pounds more than I did before Beth arrived. I had lost 26 pounds around 6 years ago, but then had gradually gained 15 back over the last three years.
So that old high blood pressure has motivated me to lose weight and hopefully I can lose enough that I can get off the medication. In general, I have been feeling better these last few months, though I haven't been sleeping well this week...someone has been laying heavy on my heart and I haven't been able to talk to them, (and probably still won't get to for a while..they're too busy). For some reason, times like this make it difficult for me to sleep. I can sleep for about 4 hours and then I wake up and lay there thinking about things. Crazy, I know, but it happens.
What has helped some is that I will lay there and start praying for different people, especially the person who is lying heavy on my heart, and gradually I go back to sleep for another hour or two. But I've been getting by on 5 or 6 hours of sleep and since I'm the type of person who really needs 8 hours, it's catching up with me.

I need to get off here, and go do my morning exercise....work towards that next pound!

I hope and pray that all of  you have a blessed Wednesday.....

Please say a prayer for a friend of Will's who was killed in a car accident. I have no details, but he was a member of Will's Irish band (and went to the Josephinum with Will and his brother, John)  and lived in Pennsylvania.
Many of the people who are here at the cast party knew him and we are all a little shook. I know Will would appreciate any prayers you could send up for Gordo (his nickname), his family, and for Will and his friends. I'm sure this will be difficult for all of them.
Thank you....