| My birthday is tomorrow yeah thats it.... |
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| i feel really stressed out... but its not just a current affair its a frequent part of my life it seems im always like this so... why havent i goten used to it by now?... you no what i figured out... you can suck at life really bad and you can be the stupidest kid in the world and you can be the uglyest kid on the block and you can be the worst at everything.... But... once you realize that God loves you... you dont really see that anymore and you emerge from that depressed state of mind and you arnt blinded by all the bullies and friends and teachers saying your cant do it you dont have to cover your sadness by trying to make others feel bad. you dont have to have a negative out look on life... because it all melts away in the presents of the holy father... thats what ive learned... and no it wasn't during a church service it wasn't finally braking through and cracking the problem No!... it was finally saying that I GIVE UP... and thats when your lifted up, off the ground and to the sky to where theirs no turning back or trying to hide because youve given up and He's taking over... the person that should have been there the whole time... that feeling of nothingness goes away and you can do anything in christs name. maybe this seems strange... and really its pretty long and it is still just xanga but i just thought id pass it along to the person that might need it because i sure did... i dont have to worry any more because its all in the right hands... and thats not to say not to try your best for this even encourages me to strive more for the best
sorry for the length... i just had to get some things out.... and this may be the stupid way to do that but what can i say... |
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| my grandpa past away on oct. 9 2005 he was a great man |
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| Saturday was busy but amazing ill just put it like this
Show at Granda= a ton of fun
Show at Granda then being close to on time to pick up my AMAZING date- Lucky
Pictures with a beautiful woman- Hot
Dinner- UMmm...
The Dance- We were breakin it down
After the dance- couldnt stop fallin for her
Whitney was the best date ever! |
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| - this is basically..... -ummm... thats what im talking about music so thiers this girl right... and shes really great right... but shes way out of my league right... but then she gives me a chance right... then i screw that up right... then she gives me another chance right... then i screw that one up right... then she gives me another chance... and i promise im not going to let this one slip away... right!
welp theres my life... |
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