okay, i'm a feeling a little less vindinctive today.

that and i feel like i don't have anything to hide anymore.

so, my apologies to those of you who were left in the dark for a bit, but i'll make it up to you, here's my new xanga: http://www.xanga.com/foxieheatherb

it has a free trial of xanga premium...

you know what? i don't owe you anything. kim hit it dead on when she said, "if he wanted a good review, he should become a good person." to that end, thank you, you're making the transition a hell of a lot easier.

also, this is my last public post, so here's your chance to get on my good side. if you are still able to read my next update, then feel loved, you're on my protected list.

i think i'm freaking out... i feel so totally alone. it is overwhelming... and there is literally no one to talk to.

i feel like i failed my friend by not watching her back. i'm not very good at being the responsible one.

i had a temporary high when the guy at mcdonald's was like, "i have to tell you, i think you're beautiful."

that high was quickly replaced by utter self-loathing when jay broke things off because it's "wrong and empty". of course it is. i don't hate him, but i don't really like myself much, for getting suckered in to it all. hindsight is 20/20. flipping cliché. oh well, i've got a plethora of professional ass-kickers who are just waiting for me to say the word... good news though, you won't hear me talking about him anymore, he's history.

Currently Watching Scrubs - The Complete First Season By Zach Braff see related

i got the scrubs season one dvd!!! i flipping love this show and have never missed an episode. and i'm so sad that sarah chalke is leaving the show. seriously, i wanted to be her... let's hope they get someone good to replace her.

it's oh so dangerously close to swimsuit season. like i freaking get to go and swim anywhere... anyone wanna take me to the beach???

oh and my room is super clean. as is the bathroom. so proud.