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Monday, November 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 19:48:05 GMT

..well shit i dont know anymore... i mean i meet some really kick ass guys.. but they either smoke weed or do drugs.. or are just total losers.. that arent right for me- all i need is the feeling of it being real.. the kind of real where you rely on it with everything in you and know the things cant be torn apart... it would just be so great... just to rely all on the happiness of that other person.. one day i know i will make some guy really happy.. if hes the richest guy on earth or the poorest... all i would need to know is he ....real....

im looking for you.. now look back and catch a glance </3

lets start over

meet at the mouth

all for that one kiss

that will forever

..hold us together..

i only look at you.. when you turn your head

BUSH FOR PRESIDENT!

Monday, November 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 19:48:03 GMT

im looking for you.. now look back and catch a glance </3

lets start over

meet at the mouth

all for that one kiss

that will forever

..hold us together..

i only look at you.. when you turn your head

BUSH FOR PRESIDENT!

Monday, November 01, 2004

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 02:31:52 GMT

yea finally got my comp. fixed and got DSL.. i guess thats cool well updates... i got my hair done it has REALLY dark brown underneath and dark brown highlights.. its cool as shit other then that nothing is really new.. same shit everyday but we dont have school tuesday i dont know what ill be doing probally hanging out with some people? oh well im tired as fuck

Monday, October 18, 2004

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:26:08 GMT

HEY FUCK HEADS haha... nahh well dude i have gotten the most KICKASS shoes hell yeahh bitches...

wutever... this weekend was kinda gayass.. me and chelsea went to the mall sunday and i saw brandon eric and hayden...and it was erics birthday I LOVE U ERIC!! and tomorrow is chelsea's birthday YAYUH free makeovers and im gettin her these shoes she wants ha..

well im out peace

I WANT MORE SHOES! HAHA

i like.. hmm NOONE

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 23:16:16 GMT

heyy gosh.. i hate myself.. i still love him no matter what.... i cant help it... im so sorry for every thing ive ever done....

i hate millcreek

peace

Monday, October 11, 2004

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 17:32:27 GMT

fuck it... he doesnt want me then FUCK HIM also.. i cant be something im not.. and im not even gunna try.. im just gunna leave you as a memory...and hope that it fades a little more everyday

well im at julia's right now.. fucking crazy fucked up night... hell...

well im out nothing really to fuckin talk about lifes gay im out

Sunday, October 10, 2004

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 19:51:21 GMT

okay this song explains EXACTLY how i feel.. but i cant do it anymore.. i cant be perfect for you.. i am who i am and im sorry thats it not good enough for you... and sometimes not good enough for me...

Take it back, take it all back now
The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than i do
All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you
I'm broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how i wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz im so in love with what we were
Im not breathing im suffocating without you
Do u feel it to

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz i cant fake and I cant hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all i need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, im without
I'm crossed out
I can't doubt
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

well.... god... idk i hate home.. its so miserable... everything i do it NOT GOOD ENOUGH fuck my parents....

i hate who i am.. i hate who ive become </3

why cant i be good enough for you? just WHY

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 17:28:56 GMT

single... but im never lettin the guy i found go..

oh my fucking lord ive fallin for him all over again... damn there is just so much you do to me at once.. and i love the feeling.... well everythings gotten so much better since ive seen him...ahhh well thursday.. chris and brandon came to the game to see me hehe.. and then came to Buffalo's and i got to talk to brandon.. then friday kinda sucked.. i didnt rly do anything talked to brandon some... and today ive got homecoming at north hell yea!- and tomorrow im gunna be with julia.. hopefully ill get to hangout with brandon to....

you make life so wonderful <3

..please stay and dont let go..

Monday, October 04, 2004

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 19:59:31 GMT

holy fucking shit.. im so fucking tired of millcreek fuck that school.. i mean shit people are worse then fucking middle school GROW THE FUCK UP literally... homecoming was fucking gay... they turned on fuckin mexican music (no offence) but seriously... wtf was that? idk and idk how i feel... fucking everytime i think something is right nothing is... im fucking tired of it.. and i hate going home everyday bc nothing is fucking ever right and some real bad shit has been startin up (but im TRYING to keep my promise to you eric i rly am).. well anyway katie burned my the taking back sunday cd HOLY SHIT that is the most kickass cd...hell yeah ive rly grown to realize how much i hate rap now...all it is, is nigga this and nigga that.. and sex and drugs? yeah that shits real cool.. hmm well anyway im out norths homecoming is this weekend and its a fuckin 4 day weekend.. party time hoes.. later hit me up

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 21:18:36 GMT

finally got my cell phone
#- 678*758*4820
and its a nextel so beep # is- 155*132586*27

yayuh haha crazy day.... lunch just wow shelley lol.. but gosh i hope im gettin my comp fixed soon? errrr lol i can never update which totally SUCKS!!!! well homecoming is saturday i can wait.. and i just got my uniforma alterted (SP?) for the game friday bc i get to cheer one quater which is FUCKING AWSOME!!! holla for the hawks.. lol yeah idk where that came from oh well.. me and brandon are AWSOME right now its great!! im lovin millcreek SO much more now.. not as gayyass! haha well im out add my number and call me hoessss