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|  Its like we know. We just know when something’s wrong, when one another need quiet time. And we also know when its time to have fun, when its time for us to just chill. That’s how amazing our friendship is. I love you more than any boy or any person in this world 
She leans her head on his chest
& she falls even more in
love with him with every heart beat   For once in my life I don't have to pretend to be happy,
when I’m with you, it just happens. 
I don’t know what’s in store for us,
I don’t know how long this will last, and I don’t know if we're meant to be.
But I do know that I love being in your arms,
I know that I love being by your side, and I know that
I love you 
No matter what’s coming..baby…I’m ready for it… I’m ready for any storm that comes our way…because I love being with you, I love it when you wrap your arms around me. I love the way you kiss my neck. I love it all. 
I was trying so hard to find someone. I was trying my hardest to change so I could be perfect for someone, but when we hung out and I was myself because I wasn’t looking for anything then WHAM! Your were always on my mind…that goes to prove you find love when your not looking. 
You call me babe you call me beautiful you ask me my opinion first you care for my feelings and honestly it’s never happened like that before. I always wondered what was wrong with me but you find no error. It amazes me… I love you! 
This world scares me everyday but it’s a good scare... they kind where I’m like whoa how did that happen? It’s crazy how much one person can affect your whole life when i`m with you, it's like nothing else
matters. except for where life takes us 
we almost laughed harder than we kissed
you were always something I could never resist spare me just three last words I love you is all she heard. All is lost but not forgot…the pain controls my every thought  and for the first time in a while
when she walked into school
on a Monday morning, you
could see, from the look in her
eyes and the smile on her face,
that she was gonna be okay  I'm a sucker for the sweet talkers; the ones that treat me right.
The ones that call randomly or to just say goodnight. The ones
that pull my hair back loosely behind my ears. The ones that
challenge me & make me face my fears there wasn't anything wonderfully amazing about him, but there was simply something that she couldn't resist You know you're in love when you see that someone &
your heart flutters, your stomach gets butterflies,
& the rest of the world disappears When i'm with you, i feel like
that's where i belong. and honestly,
that's the only place i want to be.
And last night was amazing,
because i spent it all with you
he showed me that you can find the good in anybody
if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt.
sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they
surprise you, but you never really get to know them
until you listen to what's in their heart You be the anchor that keeps my
feet on the ground, I'll be the wings
that keep your heart in the clouds He's annoying, He's hilarious, He's no one but himself.
He makes me mad, He drives me crazy, He's loud, he's original,
he's badass. He's out of his mind, and he's everything I want I am who I am because of you.
You are my every reason, every hope,
and every dream i've ever had,
and no matter what happens to us in the future,
every day we are together
is the greatest day of my life.
I will always be yours  so i've finally have my perfect match. he's amazing and everything i could ever want. eek! i'm so happy | | |
| you put on quite a show you really had me going okay heres an update....its all dedicated to someone who hurt me to recently....i miss him....he was one of my best friends When you called and begged me to save your relationship I did without hesitation especially when you were crying and you called me babe, then you promised we’d always be friends and you’d never hate me, well guess what you lied everything you said that wouldn’t happen happened. I miss you…. you will always be a part of my
life. a happy memory, a good
laugh, a tear or two.
i won't forget you i don't understand how we ended up like this . was it something that i did ? why did our friendship end with no reason at all ? Sometimes, someone can mean so much to you,
not even the truth can change your mind. everyone one warned me this would happen and i hate them not you because they proved me wrong and you only proved them right. People hold on to memories so tight because
they’re the only thing that will never change when everything else does.
But, the only thing consistent in life IS change Things won't be the same;
you're gone and only memories remain;
I'm not ready for this change people said ive changed so much.
well here's the honest truth,
i G R E W U P .
i stopped letting people push me
around. i learned that you can`t
always be happy. i accepted reality i get so sick of everyone disappointing me.
i guess its my fault for thinking so highly of people.
cause in the end,
no one seems to live up to my expectations for all the times you hurt me & for everything you put me through it's hard not to feel like you never cared at you now what’s not fair though,
i come away with a broken heart
and you come away with a cute little story
of the mess of a dreamer
with the nerve to adore you its hard to watch someone you love change before your eyes and know you can't do anything about it, && it's heartbreaking to remember them as they once were Don't tell me you have been depressed. You have no idea. No fucking idea. How dare you tell me you've been depressed. Look at you, smiling and laughing and joking. You shrug when I tell you I feel bad. There is no way you would shrug if you had been depressed. When I say I have had a bad day, that doesn't mean I failed a test, or lost my purse. | | |
| i just need some time on my own before i'm ready to come back home.so i havent updated in almost a month..i've been uber busy. but heres an update just quotes but tomorrow i will have just icons/graphics/pictures.. Tears are words your heart cannot say. the sooner you know who you are and what you want, the less things you'll let upset you Watched my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
-What's Left of Me, Nick Lachey He isn't my boyfriend but I guess I fell in love with our friendship. I love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his kindness, all the times we spent together, laughed together So I thought I knew who I was.
But everyday I do something that convinces me otherwise it's the small things that make me smile, like a simple hug in the morning she wasn't bitter, but she was sad.
but it was the hopeful kind of sad,
the kind of sad that just takes time. Don’t come running to me when that girl puts
a hole through your heart, because I'll just walk
away and leave you stranded. Just like you left
me when I needed you the most
I feel lonely every single day of my life,
but I'm ashamed to admit that
to the people who love me && trust me,
i know better than anyone
what happens when you get attached Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom
and hurting the ones you love,
to realize what you have become
is not what you planned and
who you are is not who you like.
and you were just too busy being fabulous
too busy to think about us
I don't know what you were dreaming of
somehow you forgot how to love
and you were just too busy being fabulous
Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky
then it starts to rain.
My defenses hit the ground and they shatter
all around, so open and exposed.
I found strength in the struggle,
face to face with my trouble
thoughts; they change
and times; they rearrange
i don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go, this i know
and i'm not who you recall anymore
through storms and rainbows.
i will be there
I'm sorry if I don't feel like telling you
what's wrong today. Or any other
day. But one thing, you got wrong.
I am not scared of you. I'm scared of myself
cause i am barely breathing
and i can't find the air
i don't know who i'm kidding.
thinking that you care.
The truth is, you could slit my throat
&& with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
Can you hear me?
Are you listening?
This is the sound of my heart breaking
And I hope it's entertaining
Cause for me,
it's a bitch.
maybe i don't smile as much as
her and maybe i don't have as
many friends as she does. but
ill bet you she hasn't gone
through what i have. ill bet she
has never sat down on her
stairs and just cried, cried her
heart out because the world
was caving in and she just
couldn't take it anymore
Her eyes glistens when she smiles,
& her smile lights up the room,
but when she’s all by herself,
she’s buried in her gloom,
& the blood stains her sleeves
Cause the way I see it,
the more people that hate me,
the less people I have to please.
i took your words & believed every one you said.
The truth hurts.
So I'm going to tell you every bit
I'm not shooting for a successful relationship at this point, I'm just looking for something that will prevent me from throwing myself in front of a bus.
she finally gave up.
She dropped the fake smile
as a tear ran down her cheek;
she whispered to herself
I can't do this anymore.
I try to laugh about it,
Cover it all up with lies.
I Try to laugh about it,
Hiding the tears in my eyes
I'm not any good at this whole "living" thing.
shes a mess. She has so much to confess.
Her life is spiraling down. Theres to much drama in this town.
she tired of all these fights. One more break down & shes done with life
Standing at the edge of the cliff,
so many choices, so many problems.
This world is full of its ups and downs,
but lately, it seems so hopeless.
She sat with her friends during a movie.
A movie where a girl cuts
Her friends were disgusted.
While she sat and watched.
knowing what was under her sleeve
She's suicidal. It's obvious enough.
They have all noticed the way
she stares into space.
Like she's searching for something to take her away.
But nothing ever comes and that reality just pushes her to make one more cut and take one
extra pill.. Maybe this time she;ll be the winner in the suicide game.
so now having the best life right now...ugh. but theres an update | | |
| okay so here's an update. Easter is tomorrow. hmm. so much has been going on idk who i can trust anymore, my best friend doesnt tell me anything anymore. so ugh! but anywho heres an update. 
And maybe i know
your eye color
your screename numbers
your address
your favorite color
your favorite food
your middle name
everything about you
that doesn't change the fact
that i look at you
and i can tell
your looking right through me
thinking about
someone else  I was always here for you when you needed someone,
& when i finally need you, you just left  a good friend will talk with you about
a boy your thinking about, but a best
friend will blurt out "she likes you &
wants to bang you!" right to his face  screaming and saying "fuck" a lot doesn't really get your point across. sometimes silence is the most violent option to choose 
Some people just need a little help;
some just need to be forgiven 
I’m not coming back forgive me I’ve done something so terrible I’m terrified to speak but you expect that from me. I’m mixed up I’ll be blunt now the rains just washing you out of my hair and out of my mind. Keeping an eye on the world from so many thousands of feet off the ground. I’m over you now I’m at home in the clouds towering over your head...I guess I’ll go home now 
you don't care at all, and i'm done
holding on to something that is long gone 
stay mad as long as you can.
because once you're not mad anymore, it hurts.
it hurts like hell and once it hurts that bad,
you can't make yourself mad anymore 
I'm okay, it's alright, good to know you're fine.
Pretending everything is right, to make it better
I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes, to show I tried Well obviously you were busy,
too busy for me. So this is how
you leave me? I'm broken
hearted on the floor.
My tears seep through the cracks
under my door, where I am locked in,
shut down. I'm so tired of picking
myself up off the ground 
It’s funny how when you finally get over someone,
you start seeing them in a whole new perspective.
It’s like you're looking at them
through the eyes of your best friend,
and you realize, he's nothing special.
He’s just another ordinary boy Admit it ; you only want
me when you can't have her
when she's silent, that's when you know somethings
wrong. because she's always the one to get in trouble
for talking to her friends and telling secrets about the
girl sitting across from her and screaming i love you
in the halls. so when she's not talking, theres a problem
I've blocked out the past for a good reason.
When someone that means everything to you tells you that
you mean nothing to them, you forget the good times and just
remember the bad ones so that it's easier to move on. here i am again,
talking to myself,
sitting at a red light.
both hands on the wheel,
how am i supposed to feel?
so much running through my mind.
first you wanna be free.
then you say you need me.
giving me signals and signs.
it's so hard to let you in,
thinking you might slam the breaks again All I want is happiness, I'm tired of being let down I need to come to realize that he's just a guy, a special one, maybe, but he's not mine. I don't need to do things to make him love me. if he wanted to, he would You’re my best friend; You’ve been there no matter what. Pain & tears, smiles and love. You’ve been there. So thank you, I think you’re the Only one I can count on anymore She’s never been good enough; So this is nothing new to her. She’s used to being put down, So don’t even think you can break her This morning i woke up with tears
in my eyes. You know, that kind of
cry when you don`t know why Give us brilliant boys that we wanna fuck. Full of ecstasy, hard drugs, and bad luck "Most of the time, I was a shy kid and I was afraid what I said sounded stupid, so I hardly ever said anything. I was the third wheel; fifth wheel? I was the wheel you really didn't need, but still hung around. I thought maybe my silence would one day impress somebody. As of yet, it hasn't done much for me." she touches the wall. slowly, she falls.
and i ask all of you who among us
cares enough to reach down
and save her from herself? "Of all the things about me that could frighten you,
you worry about my driving."
-Edward Cullen, Twilight and i'm lonely again tonight,
i can feel it like a knot in my side.
they keep saying this is part of the ride,
but i'm not getting stronger Sometimes you need to walk alone,
just to show that you can I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say?
It's called Breakup
’Cause it's broken I'm scared that I'm going to end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always going to be somebody's friend, or sister, or confidant, never quite somebody's everything. Mostly I'm scared I'm never going to find a guy that I love as much as I love you. and i know how it feels
to be on the edge of you bed,
your head buried in your hands
wishing everything would end & I'm sorry if you think I'm being a bitch, but being screwed over isn't fun, & I'm sick of it Wounded people are dangerous..
They know they can survive so there it is. thats it for now... i started putting pictures but i got bored. lol. comment<3 | | |
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