one day all of the memories,
tears, & pain will go away...
just like you did.
she hugs him goodbye like its nothing,
while all she wants to do is hold on forever,
but she lets go, smiles, & walks away.
Sometimes it`s hard to look in the mirror. To see that face
that everyone says is so pretty but it just looks plain to me.
Sometimes it`s easier to wake up & forget your dreams
cause life..you can`t do that. The easiest thing to do in
life is be depressed. The hardest thing to do is to get up
& say to yourself "Things will get better" even though
your never convienced by that. But it helps to pretend.
Sometimes I sit back & watch everyone cry out for
attention, & everyone else goes "Oh they`re retarded."
But I think..why go to that length to get attention? Maybe
they really need it? Sometimes, I wake up in the morning &
say to myself, "If I give up today, I promise I`ll always
get back up tomorrow & try again." Cause sometimes
trying to be a saint & sticking with the most stubborn
of people, it makes it easier to look in that mirror.
When you look at a person, any person,
remember that everyone has a story.
Everyone has gone through something that has changed them.
There comes a time in your life when you have to keep your pain a secret,
You cant risk anyone finding out,
And not even your best friend can know,
You have to fight it yourself,
You cant get any help from anyone,
You cant risk it....
You cant risk getting even more hurt...
Sometimes you just have to stop caring. You have to turn off all emotion & feeling, to protect yourself from getting hurt. You have to stop caring what other people think of you & be yourself. Sometimes you have to hide it all, not let anyone know how you feel or what you think. You gotta put a smile on & pretend everything is fine, even when it's not. Sometimes that's the only way to save yourself from a broken heart.
And you kinda made me realize I'm nothing special ...
Just another girl ...
Yeah, sure ... maybe i caught your eye a few times
Made you smile ... made you laugh
But you never actually felt anything for me
At least not like i felt for you
Seems that I'm not very happy anymore. I used to be so different than
this. It is as though when you went away, you took part of me with you.
she says she's fine, but she's going insane.
she says she feels good, but
she's in a lot of pain.
she says it's nothing, but really it's a lot.
she
says she's okay, but really she's not.
Because
nothing sucks
worse than feeling alone,
no matter
how many people are around.
you want to know what living life to the fullest actually is?
it's waking up on Monday morning with no complaints.
it's knowing you always deserve to laugh.
when everything is completely wrong and yet you dont even know why and
its one of those days when you just wish that everyone would leave you
alone and go away, yeah its one of those days when all you need is to
be left alone yet at the same time you wish someone out there would
care. It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do
anything.
Dry your eyes, clear your mind; you just gotta take it one day at a
time. Dust off your heart, take it off the shelf; you gotta remember to
love yourself.
it's crazy how we always end up where we're meant to, how even the most
ironic situations eventually each you something you'd never dreamed you
were going to learn.
&& SHE'S MAD AT HERSELF ;;
BECAUSE SHE'S NOT STRONG ENOUGH
TO SHOW YOU HOW SHE REALLY FEELS.
SHE JUST SITS THERE && SMILES,
&& PRETends EVERYTHING'S OKAY
I believe everything happens for a reason, but I think its important to seek out that reason; that's how we learn.
when i was in grade school, they told me to
write down what i wanted to be when i grew
up. i wrote down happy. they told me i didn't
understand the assignment. i told them they
didn't understand life.
People dont see me for who i am but more for what i am.
there's more to me than what this smile i wear in order to
fool others into thinking that i'm alright when really the
things i keep inside are breaking me down inside and out
Shes not like that now. She knows better.
She knows now that people lie, and promises
can be broken as quick as they're made.
She understands that she might never be loved.
she sits on her porch
alone with her headphones on
listening to depressing music.
the mascara running down her face
as she looks up at the stars
& wishes upon every one of them
that one day he would love her
as much as she loved him
if i could show you
how much you've hurt me;;
you'd never be able to
look me in the eyes again
and no matter how many
times you hurt her
she always ends up forgiving
Did you ever notice that there is always
that particular line in that certain song that
always stands out in a certain way and
reminds you of that one person you can't forget?
There hasn't been one day since you left
where I haven't fought the urge
to put you back in my life.
It's been awhile now, since you left,
and I can't seem to shake this lonely mood
so we`ll just pretend nothing ever
happened look the other way, but
we both know deep down that it
isn`t supposed to end this way
It`s fine with me if that`s what you want.
I`m sorry I`m so screwed up.
I`m sorry I`m not perfect.
I`m sorry I`m not her.
turn on the shower
lock the door
fall upon the tile
and cry once more
grab a towel
damp the sounds
don't let a soul hear
that you're breaking down.
I just can't seem to move on;
there's something holding me back.
I'm the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows. Who will listen to a love song & see his face. Who will look for him wherever she goes. I'm the type of girl who doesn't get over things easily, who will beat herself up when someone doesn't love her back. Who will cry herself to sleep cause she feels she's not good enough. But I'm also the type of girl who's strong, who can cry her eyes out then forbid them to come back the next morning. Who will blast some old pop song & sing at the top of her lungs cause she feels like it. Who will be no one but herself.
You have a choice. Either let him
destroy you, or get up & fight.
It's time to move on with my life.
I've got to stop reading the same page
and continue turning the pages.
The memories are still locked in my mind,
but they're what's stopping me from living my life.
i`m done pretending, so here goes;
no, I`m not okay with the fact that you;
broke my heart.
no, I`m not okay with the fact that we;
don`t even talk anymore.
&& to top it all off?
no, I`m not okay with the fact that I;
fell in love with you in the first place
she knew she had to be cautious when speaking to him again,
for she had her heart on the line. with simply one wrong move,
she could surely find herself falling for that boy all over again.
The best things in life don't happen unless you take risks. Risk yourself and throw your heart out onto the table.Be who you are and hope people accept you. If they don't, too bad. Always be real, never fake.Smile when you're happy, cry when you're sad.
Never hold emotions inside. Let yourself risk getting hurt, let
yourself try something new. follow your heart and do what you feel is right. Not what other people tell you to do. fall in love; take a chance. Hope the other person feels the same. Love is a risk. it could bring either pleasure or pain. Sometimes both. Life is a gamble, you never know what it will bring. Live in the moment, and don't dwell on the past. Find the good in everybody. Think positive, do positive. Break the rules and take a chance of getting caught
I know in the back of my mind that life would be so much easier if I never talked to you again.
If I shut you out of my life and moved on, I could finally get over you.
But you're the only thing that makes me happy, whether it's right or wrong.
And I don't have the strength to give up on that.
Not even your parents know you well enough
To know how well you hide your pain.
You hide it so well
Behind your pretty face
No one can ever tell
How much your feeling out of place
And Im screaming every hurtful word that I can think of.
And whats killing me is that they dont hurt you at all.
Because you dont care what I say, you never have.
I'm mad at myself not you. I'm mad for always being nice, apologizing
for things I didn't do, I'm mad that I got attatched. I'm mad I
depended on you and you wasted my time. && mostly I'm mad for
not hating you, I should, but I can't.
