you know its really funny. i have lost a lot of friends lately and honestly i have cried a lot of tears. but i finally realized none of that really matters because all i need is HIM. somewhere in the bible it says that we need to give up everything and follow him, even if that means leaving our brothers, sisters, mother, father etc. and i really think i am learning that. He really is all that i need and HE is the reason i live and maybe He is taking these friendships away from me so that i can fall on HIM and find my happiness only in HIM. and i think this all needed to happen before i left for project. so as much as it stinks. i think i am learning from these crappy circumstances.

peace, love, prayers
<3 jennifer anne

i am getting so incredibly discouraged with support raising. it started out great and i got 1/3 so quickly and i was on such high. the people i was getting support from were the ones that i least expected. it was amazing. but then....checks just stopped coming and i hit a wall. my family isn't supporting me at all. it is so frustrating. i sent out almost 50 letters and only heard back from about 20. so today i started calling people....all i got were answering machines and we are not interested and my one cousin even had the nerve to say "we are not interested in paying for your vacation" and then hung up without  letting me explain. i'm so discouraged. i have just under $2,000 in support still to raise and i just really dont know how it is going to happen. it is so incredibly discouraging, especially since my family really just wants nothing to do with it. trusting the lord is getting more difficult as each day goes by.

also i am getting really nervous about if i am going to get into gvsu. i know it is all in god's hands, and god's will be done and in his timing but it is SO hard to trust.

i hope something encouraging happens soon. i could really use it right now. <3