Monday, July 21, 2008
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Ana's blog: Public entry.
I need to do a lot of backposts, I missed like three from the LJ-crossover.
Just took a bunch of pictures with my webcam, to document this morning's weigh-in of 101 lbs. They're rated explicit, so you'll have to prove your age before you can view, but they're public.
Leave a comment if you wish to see sickness; please be warned that while some ED blogs may be warm and fluffy and all about loving you to the bones, this is where I come to release my shaken core. If it's disturbing even to me, I can't imagine what it must be like to look in from the outside.
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I looked at the pictures. Saw you the other day. I'm worried about you. I love you too much to lose you. <333
All I know is this. Your pictures were amazing...beautiful. HOWEVER, that is not what is important. What IS important is you....the inside of you. Your spirit, your personality....that trumps your body any day. I do understand, though, a man's eye is what draws his attention and I say shame on me and most men. I applaud you and your strength to admit the pain inside is there and at times running you ragged. That truly is the first step to breaking the pain. Keep it up, win.
It has to be difficult to see yourself as a sexual creature....a desirable person. Am I right or wrong. I haven't an issue with my weight, but my spirit has been crushed. My self image destroyed at a young age. I was hated in school. I never went to prom. I contemplated the heinous act of self destruction, but was way too strong willed. I have limped and worked my way through life. I have been lucky. Self destruction has never been an option since.
If you want to talk. I'm here. If you want a sounding board, speak.