And..she writes! She's alive.  Even after her Birthday Week...What a week it was!

Sunday: Church with the fam and buffet #1

Monday: THE day, sat in class for 40% of the day, sulked in my room, got surprised by my buds in my room, complete with balloons, cake and gift =) dinner at Calle Ocho (which has really good bread by the way) with dino and studied the rest of the evening

Wednesday: Histo Exam, another Birthday dinner with the buds

Thursday: got my buzz on in Happy Hour at Katwalk, buffet #2 

Saturday: nightmare of a time waiting out in the cold for an hour and a half just to have the promoters and bouncers of embassy and duvet tell us to leave basically bc we were mostly asian, before i actually caught onto the racism tho i threw a couple tantrums (i channel between 3 and 23 year olds), i'd go on about the bs but i gotta study at some point today.  Even behind the embarassed/frustrated tears i was greatful for everyone who showed up to celebrate with me, turns out all we needed was a warm place, booze and eachother.  Crime scene was a life saver, had such a great time thanks to everyone's understanding and great company: my brothers, friends, friends of friends, and classmates, thank you so much for the love  and drinks!  Sorry for the wasted time, extra money for cab fares and parking expenses. Late night completed with Wohop

Sunday: more tossing and turning than expected, Water, Airbone, and now back to studying...

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas.  This break is going too quickly between me sleeping and jus straight up bumming.  For this last week though, I'm gonna have to get out, cuz I dont really get to do that during the semester.

Something about Christmas brings out the youth in all of us.  For me it's just this little glimmer that shines thru the sadness.  Sad for the people who couldn't join in the festivities because they're far away, a town over, or gone in this lifetime.  The holidays aren't like how they used to be.  I feel my family is getting smaller and smaller eventhough it should be getting bigger and bigger.  No matter, what keeps me going is what I have, a driving force that can be taken for granted too often.  It seems that with age you learn to appreciate your family more, or if you're on the other side of the fence, learn to make situations better for yourself in the family department.  The more time that passes, the more people you lose in your life, and you strive to hold close what matters to you.  I feel it most during holiday times, and the more I realize that it's mi familia that'll always be there for me, who'll always be sincere, and who'll always love me.

Update with school: I passed!! haha, what a great feeling, I shoulda celebrated but instead..well I said what I've been doing already.  But it only gets harder from here, so that was just warm-up.

For this New Year that's coming so quick, I strive to cut the unnescessary load out of my hectic, busy life.  Lighten the weight.  Why make things more difficult?  I've already been doing it for so long I hope I can do it.

Hold close what matters...

Yes, no need to worry she is alive, not so well.  Well, it could be worse I think.  So studying sucks, alot.  Unless ur the type that likes studying. Take for example my fellow dental student friends, i feel like they straight up like studying.  As they show utmost disappointment in simply getting an A-/B, I throw my hands up in excitement for my passing C.  I'm the dumb one of the group.  Oh well, I do aim to do better after this semester.  What's left? one more test, Biology of Cellular Functions, fun fun.  They threw this course at us at the end to learn in a month basically. 

What waits after this? SLEEEP and much needed Christmas Shopping, how, I'm not sure.  I'm broke. 

Miss my friends back home, love my friends here, like city life, wish i could enjoy it more, miss stony, love christmas time =) 

I should be studying...

So things are kinda falling into place, moving in was a 3 week process and im still in need of getting school supplies, but who cares, that's just how things are going.  

Life really is so unexpected, but that's just what makes it unique, torturous and yet wonderful.  With the passing of my cousin however, it doesn't seem so wonderful.  Kuya Jojo was always this extremely patient and brilliant person.  No matter the kulit and naiive behavior of our Filippino parents that drive us up the wall, he'd take it on any time with a smile.  He was the type that didn't have to study but managed to find his way up to the top.  He graduated from Johns Hopkins with a masters in Biomedical Engineering...his life was just falling into place: new job, new car and it just ended. 

Life really is a mystery and I suppose it'll remain that way depending on how you look at it.  So you really never know...it's kinda sad how things like this make you see things differently, cuz it's so easy to take them for granted. 

R.I.P. Kuya Jojo

One long week to go...

NYU is waiting for me and I can't wait to go to college all over again, but this time, I don't think I'll have any time to party =/ Well it'll make the times I do party that much better.  Becoming more of an adult is a lil scarey, but I'm finally sucking it up n I'm getting ready to go. 

This last week is time for me to finish up enjoying the small things that I might not have time to enjoy in the city, the last stages of my summer, before I venture out as a dental student and eventually a dentist (sorry i know thats a scarey word for alot of u). 

So as much as I miss how things were in the past, I think I'm falling into acceptance of things being over more and more.  People do change, and what you have now in your grasp and reaching for is what's most important.  Things really are what you make of them - just count your blessings and cherish those around u.