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Friday, October 10, 2008

new song

Here are hthe lyrics to a song that im writing basically about what it means to be young, dumb, and self-absorbed. (still there by the way, not sure ive crossed the magical im-an-adult border)

A redheaded boy all wrapped up and coy

On dad's shoulders with devilish charm, pulled the fire alarm

gave the olds folks in the home a scare

While them elderly gave mom and dad a stare

 

We drove the Lakeway and swam the lake

immasculating our adolescent pecs for unwitting guests, for heavens sake!

Catching fish on a dock with bread and net

Seeing the prettiest girls that wed never met

 

 

Well those are the first two verses, i forgot the third. o well.

 

 

 

 


Wednesday, August 13, 2008

preaching

I will be preaching at Guilford College on the 21st of August at the College Meeting For Worship. I will be speaking to people who do not believe as I do. I dont want to preach but at the same time i cant get it out of my head. I know i say dumb things more often than i say wise things and i am not ready for the burden of being held to a higher standard. That said, I also have a yearning to be able to communicate Christ from such a position that i have never had the pleasure of using. I have been thinking about what I am going to say for the entire summer for this one 20 minute sermon. I think to myself....what impact can what i say really have? Am i trying to communicate life by faith to people while at the same time doubting the ability of Christ to use my words? Also, self-dependence also seems to go hand in hand with feeling overwhelmed about the beginning of the school year. God is willing and able. That is the truth whether i believe it or not.

I will be talking about the gospel of Grace and basically i think what i am going to say is going to be controvertial. I just cant get this event out of my head. with the task before also accompanies the recognition of the "wretched man that I am."


Thursday, July 10, 2008

repentance, the long road

One cant live with repentence but one cant live without it. It is the concept of turning back to God yet it is so hard. The hardest reality for me to live in in the christian walk is giving myself over to God constantly without reserve. when I sin, i want to hide and tell myself that because of God's grace i shouldnt be doing bad things anymore. After all, repentance is turning back to relationship with God and repentance produces fruit. How many times should i repent? As many times as Jesus tells his disciples to forgive one another? 7 x 70? The things in my life that so easily ensnare me like pride, sexual desire, and self-confidence always seem to produce along with the idea that the grace of God is limited. When i have reached the point of despair, I realize that i dont have a prayer without Jesus and it turns me back.

My thinking along with my sin seems to corrupt me. The gospel always turns every worldly concept on its head. The world says ingratiate yourself and live it up while the gospel says there is joy in a house of mourning. Blessed are the pathetic losers who dont have a prayer! It sounds silly when you say it in your head but you know that Gods wisdom is not my own. blessed are the humble, they have all things in Jesus! It also makes me think that the gospel is growing all around me while im sitting around carrying a baggage of sin that Jesus never intended for me to carry. As im writing this, i say to myself that i am being too revealing but the truth of scripture convicts that notion. Christians can be so shallow and more than one time i have not had. 2 Corinthians2:4 "For I wrote you out of great distress and anguish of heart and with many tears, not to grieve you but to let you know the depth of my love for you."

Wierd ending i know but time is pressing ....


Tuesday, June 17, 2008


 

 

We took the coal we used to use

Combined them with match and that old little fuse

Built a fire inside mounds of brick

To cook the three-year-old chicken we had on a stick

The workers gathered that old used coal

Said, “With this, what am I to do at all”

Placed them on a garden path

To line the walkway with black burnt ash

To remind passer Byers of that once great fire

The cost it made to satisfy my desire

What in me did He Demand?

Nothing at all, but my hand

 

 

Tried to write out of thin air

When really all I needed, a pen, a chair

I carry all necessities in my head

But Can they be worthy in Your stead

Wrote the things that mattered most

Devoid of thoughts from sun-laden coasts

I found a grape on a vine

Picked it fresh for some poorly made wine

When I write I think of You

Foiled the plans I thought I knew

 

 

Made the coffee ground from the bean

Enriched with flavor and addicting caffeine

Sat and left my head to my thoughts

Reflected on life, the illusions brought

 Enriched my mind in more noble things

tied my thoughts of life, illusions with string

I wrapped them tight in old dirtied towels

gave them to the dog and heard no growl

he took them to the sewer drain

to drop them where they could cause no pain

until a man impoverished and weak

found those thoughts amongst discarded antiques

 Cherished them, took them, and said He thought

He could bear my life and delusions wrought

Claimed He was the downtrodden’s lifter

I Said, “never again, am I a drifter!!”

Became my friend, my king, my song

Never have I met one so strong

Without you to carry worries

This body would have been long dead and buried

 


Thursday, June 12, 2008

Shades, Restuarant of beat-nicks and sinners


I used to work at a restaurant named Shades during the summer of my sophomore year of college. This was a peculiar restaurant as it was a dock on lake Travis that catered rich people with their boats. Also, it had a taxi that took people to the restaurant from the other side of the lake which was how i got to work everyday. the past two restaurant jobs that i have worked with my brother. When people ask why i don't go party with them or go to a bar, my brother remarks that its because i'm a "church kid." Once that is out there, I am immediately branded as a legalist, and a judgmental person. There are two perspectives that one can take after that happens: The fleshly perspective says that i ought to condemn and believe that there is no way that i can speak Christ into these people's lives while the spirit way is to love people by offering grace and redefining through my actions and speech about what a Christian really is. I remember a way that God shone through me while i was in that place.
    The boss was a tough and crude man along with being an alcoholic.  He was the kind of guy that built the business up by his sweat and blood. I'm sure that he has had some unsuccessful marriages and has a mistress on the side. During work he could be irritable and hard at times. I was an expo and was crucial in making sure the food got out and that the waiters/waitresses were taken care of. One day, the boss was going crazy because people didn't show up for work and he was calling  people frantically trying to get shifts taken. I said off hand and untactfully, "well boss, at least you got me!" with no ill intent meant at all. He looked over at me and with a loud booming voice said, "Dan you shut the fuck up! You screw up one more time and your out of here!" Everyone in the restaurant looked at me while he walked away. I was first struck by , what did i say!! next, i didnt feel like i screwed up that much before and never enough to be fired. Mistakes are a natural part of the business because its just too crazy to always be 100% efficient. I was not angry in response, but i felt hurt as if my dad came in and screamed at me or something when i was a kid. Everyone stared at me for a calm 10 minutes after the outburst and one of the co-workers said, "you ought to walk out on his ass, he cant say stuff like that to you." I didnt leave but I stayed and continued to work. It felt as if the love of God was poored on me and that i just couldn't bring myself to give him what he deserved. He came back and said that he was very sorry, and i was such filled with the emotion and i responded that, "I forgive you, I forgive you!" The gospel was demonstrated in such a powerful way and I am thoroughly convinced that the holy spirit took control and that God spoke and thought vicariously through me. Grace, grace, grace....



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