Currently Listening Futures By Jimmy Eat World Drugs or me see related

It' that time of the year....for downers?

If only you could, the stranger next to me....

It seems always around this time of the year my life seems to be a bit of a poopy. It kind of was last year too. I don't see why I should feel this way. I mean, I'm on break, I have a girlfriend, I made crossmen, church seems to be going well, school could be a little better, but not too bad...."So what's my deal?" as my Dad likes to put it. I don't understand why I feel the way I feel.

The being on break thing is kind of shitty. This break is kind of a blow. Nothing too fun. I've been sitting around on my butt all week doing nothing but eating and watching t.v. I kind of like the t.v watching part though. I was suppost to go to Cali with my friend Nat from school, but I have no money what so ever to go....there's the problem with that.

I DO have a girlfriend. I like having a girlfriend, but am I doing it for the wrong reasons. I like the title, and I like having someone to talk to, but am I really talking to her like I should? I don't feel like I'm in it for the right reasons. It's just kind of blah with her. We had a talk about it at church today. It was something like "If you can't really see yourself marrying the person down the road, then is it safe to be in that relationship?" I'm kind of taking that to heart. But we've only been together for two weeks. Am I just trying to get my mind away from something or someone else?

I made drum crop.....let me repeat. I made drum crop!!! I'm so excited about that. But why does money have to be such an issue/ I feel like it's making me not want to do it and just stay home. Is it because it's the "safer" thing to do? Am I just afraid to do this? I want this....and I want to do it soo badly I can taste it.

Chruch seems to be going fine. We got new wireless stuff for the contempary service. It's freakin awesome. And I'm like church a lot, but I'm kind of feeling out of place...maybe? Maybe not. Am I waiting for that right moment to come....will it come? Who knows.

School is school.....F-that.

Anyway, I just need t not feel like this. I think I need to go talk to Ric about this....see ya punks!

Jo-Jo ~

Currently Listening There Came a Lion By Ivoryline remind me I'm alive see related

State of mind? Oh what the heck, just let me run free with my thoughts.

Hello and goodevening to you all. What a pleasent evening it has been? Nope, not at all actually. It just seems like a big poop bowl. Nothing seems to be going to plan tonight. Maybe I should just sleep on it or do some homework or somthing to that nature.

I'm trying to hang out with this girl, a lot actually, and it just doesn't seem to be working. I dont' really know why either. I told her I would call her tomorrow, but maybe I should just let her call me. Yeah....maybe. lol As I said in the last blog entry, I might just let the girls come to me if that's what God wants.

It's for real this time: I'M TRYING OUT FOR CROSSMEN THIS WEEKEND. the only problem is transportation down there. I might have some trouble doing it, but it's going to happen no matter what. Besides, I already RSVP that I was going too! Yay. I'm so pumped. My first Drum Corp experience. I'm there for a weekend hangin out with the corp, and I'm going try out for the brass cap. guy. It would be so cool if I made it. The only problem would be money. I would have to pay for a lot of it on my own...actually all of it on my own. Dang....it blows, but it's something I've wanted since what....9th grade maybe?? So it's freakin worth it. But Tommys gonna end up not doing this year because of money. SO that blow because it would be my first year and his last. It would be nice to meet him on the field and say hey and everything. OH! and the uniforms are tight as balls! They're freakin awesome. can't wait.

I went down to Waco this past tuesday. I went for the college night worship. It was so great to see everyone again. I miss everyone down there, and Waco itself. I'm tellin ya man, I would date Waco if I could. But anywho, I brought Tommy with me, and he got to see what I used to go to back last semester. I think he really enjoyed it. He and I had a really good time there.

I need to be doing a lot better in school. Now that I'm back home, there's more distraction on me, and it's taking away from school. I need more focus on school. The hardest class I have is Bio, and it's kickin my bottom. I need to shift into high gear with school. Maybe I should put more time on school, and less time on everything else. I need a job too. I'm tired of not making any income. I need some so I can stop bothering my parents about it.

Life....just seems to be so RANDOM at times, and you never really know what's going to happen. I'm trying not to just be angry or mad, just relaxed and at peace and let things go.....like a blowing leaf. Let me be a leaf to travel light and easy without so much stress and wind.

Jo-Jo ~

Currently Listening Sticks and Stones By New Found Glory see related

The Cram-Box

Yo yo it's the J-Cram, The Cream cream....yeah.

Wowzers! It's been like....forever the sickest kids since I blog in this bad boy.

Life has come at me pretty fast down here in Waco. I like Waco though. It's a nice town and such. I just wish I had a little more friends down here. I get bored really easy down here. I got to see Copeland for the first time live a couple of weeks ago. It was major kick!! Tommy and Ralhpie came down to see them too! I must make a confession though...I'm coming home next semester. To make everything short, they had to let me go at MCH because I was too young. I didn't know you had to be 21 to work there. This is the main reason for me comign down here. Now that I don't have that job, there's no reason for me to be here. NOt in a bad way though. Like I said before, I like Waco. I could date Waco if I had the chance. Speakin of, Waco has a lot of beautiful woman down here. It's like wow!!! Anyway, the girl situation is so-so. I was kind of looking for someone at the beginning of the year, but as the year roles, I'm not really looking anymore. I mean, there is this one girl, but I'm really getting upset with her....not answering phone calls. What am I?? Chopped Liver?? GAY! So it's kind of like....if there's a girl out there, I think God will let me know. I've been putting a lot of trust in him lately, and I like it. Mr. All Powerful. That's what he should change his name to!

So Christmas is coming up very soon. I can't wait, but then again I can. So let it come at it's own time.

I am currently at Common Ground in Waco. It's basically like starbuck, only a little cooler. The people at common ground are pretty........cool! Oh you thought I was going to say something else. Now what that could of been I have no idea. lol

Homework is killing me so! That's all I've been doing these past couple of weeks, and the next two to come!! So wish me luck on homework. Yay.

Out-and-about
Jo-Jo ~

 So in general I notice that there's this line of music that seems to sum up my life when I leavt for college and maybe other peoples life: "I'm trying to hold myself togethor
I'm fighting the past things I've left behind".

It just seems form-fitting for the situation. You're trying to make a new journey in your life and as much as you want to keep those things that were in your past...some of them you have to let go. It's a hard thing to do; adapting to change. SOme people can do it and some people can't. I've been reading this book called "Who Moved My Cheese?" It's a great book and it definatly makes you think of life and how you might have to change to it. It's a really great book. I recamind it. I'm still learning the roops of things about change and will always be learning I think

I'm thinking about getting something along the lines of this as a tattoo, but something a little more simple.

Anyway, as much as I would like to change there's still something I will never forget...

         Jo-Jo ~

Currently Listening Hello from the Children of Planet Earth By Hundred Year Storm see related

This profile....it's got to change.

So I thiought I would change up the font on this. I have no idea what this will look like until I feel like looking up. Ill let you know when I look up. ANyway,...crap I just look up. ANyway, Waco (or"THe Wac" as I like to call it), is going grand as normal. School is going going going. I don't know how else to put school as.

Last week I went home for Alex's grad from Fire Fighter Acd. It was cool yo. We went out to eat afterwards. Also on Monday I was back in the hills for band practice and we went and ate at chili's....AS A BAND! That's right!

Work is awesome. That's actually where I am right now. I'm in the office putting in hours yo! I've got game night tonight with the greatful "Linda Hamza". I hope it's going to be fun. I don't know what's involved with game night, but hopefully nothing to serious...ly weird. Hopefully I can go to the Baylor game this Saturday. I was planing on going to the game, but the tickets are 35 bucks.....that's a little too much. What do you think??

Well I thought I would change it up a little bit. Something different in every paragraph. So with that said..."Sing like the Saved".

                                                                                                      Jo-Jo