hola ..

summer is almost over already! how the hell .. ? so tragic. it feels so nice to be out of school and stayin up late and waking up past noon. just got bak from cbm camp on saturday and it was awesome! i met so many new cool people *smile* you should all visit danville sometime :) hmm .. but anyways, yes, summer is almost over and i still have so much more to do! aiyaah. navid, we're totally planning a pool party at your house alright? and chris you're leaving me so we have to do a few more things together before you go away forever .. wedge we need to get together more and talk like old times! heh. i was just thinking, i havent gotten a note from you in ages .. remember how we had a whole box of just each others' notes? yep. hope everyone is enjoying their last bits of summer and not procrastinating on their summer hw like me. call me up sometime! *muah*

bunnie.

crap you all, its been like .. four months since my last post? lol. sowwie. summer is pure bliss. all i've been doing is going to art classes and working and talking on the fone and it feels so good! i dont want summer to end for a multiple reasons. hope everyone else is having an awesome summer as well! call me, i got a new cell phone thats really pretty and makes cool sounds and the number is 389.8573 so gimme ring  so i saw a few movies, watched the italian job with wedge! mwaha, good movieee! i understand why you watch it everyday wei. sigh everyone is learning to drive and i'm just too lazy or something, so i havent even started drivers ed yet and chris is yelling at me telling me i should go learn so i can have my freedom. whatev, i can have ppl drive me around .. its all good. went shopping with rachel and blew about 70 bux. we had mongolian bbq!! yummmm .. and took pictures! finally, after about 3 years of saying we would. and ohhh, my parents actually let me go out on a date with a guy! OMG. it was amazing like you wouldnt believe. i had the best july 4th of my life. hrm so neway .. nothing much is new here i guess. i'm going to sleep now cuz i gotta get up so early tomorrow for art in sf. hope everyone is relaxing and having fun with their summers, keep in touch! luv ya all mucho,

bunnie

*you dont see me*

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where
I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets?
'Cause I'm getting tired
Of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and taken and
Tumbling and breakin'
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream of worlds
Where you'd understand
And I dream a
Million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when
You're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the light
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where
I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met?
And is this the last chance
That I'll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
~Josie and the Pussycats~

hello you .. six people that read my xanga. lol. juss kidding .. i'm shuuure theres more of u *coffs* havent updated in like a million years but yeah whats new. i feel very bitter. har wonder whyyyyyy. everything is so weird .. feels strange .. yeah. i think that before i was happier, even tho it was emotional insanity, i was generally happier deep down inside. yeah now when i sit down and have one of my rare moment of doing nothing (note: these are very very rare) i start to get all blaahhh and wanna start crying. poop. bottom line: i brought this all upon myself .. hehe im sucha dork. buh bai ppl .. i'll update again in like a few months. my arm feels weird and tingly between my last two knuckles .. yes and that was random. byeeeee

*bunnie*

helloooo all ..

haha i wonder how many people actually read my xanga? probly like .. 2. yep cuz i'm just sucha loser ;) haha. nehoo .. i have all the evanescence re-stuck in my head .. for everyone who was remotely around me last year .. u kno what thats like (sowwie lauren i kno its painful for u) mwaha. well its better than that spanish song that was stuck in my head for like two weeks straight .. las amarillas .. good lord. that was so annoying. waaaah i dun wanna take my finals *tears* i'm scared. oh! but i dont have a 79.8% in math .. which is so happy. cuz fisher screwed up. so i actually have an 87.8% .. still borderline .. but an A-! <-- adv. alg. 2 is different for u ppl that dunno. and then in chem i had an 89.66% .. which probably went down cuz i got a C on my last test .. eww. it was hard! and it was stuff from like the beginning/middle of december so yeahh i forgot everything. ew school. i needa go blow like 10 bux on microns for the notecards n stuff. whoopee. ehh dont feel like writing more .. i tend to go on >.< soooo yeahh .. happy studying u all *grins*

bleck.