Hello my name is Rebecca Tobin and i'm a love-a-holic

   Before i begin my oh so touching sermon i would first like to express my gratitute towards those xangains namely- Brian Seward and Stephanie Bergen who left me such inspiring comments.

College has taught me many things- mostly that in all actuality there is only a small percentage of people who aren't worth taking time to meet and that the one skill that can single handedly improve your lifestyle is being able to listen properly and keep judgements aside as much as possible.

I've also learned that life isn't as hard as some want you to believe and that things are always better when taken with "a grain of salt". Trusting your instincts is the best way to get through any situation and finding something that you love to do and making a commitment to it will help to keep you from sudden spurts of depression.

I've come to understand that "Happiness is the greatest good"- happiness is the ultimate goal in our lives. It is what we are always striving to acheive. The things we include in our lives are merely tools to help us to reach happiness. With this in mind there are two ways we believe we can reach happiness- with ignorance or knowledge. Not knowing about a terrible plauge that is spreading to your home town can keep you as happy as a lark while knowing about it can make you panic and whither you up with paranoia. In spite of that I believe that knowledge is the most coveted tool to happiness, with knowledge one can understand their emotions and how to handle them, after they have gained this knowledge then they would not need to be sheltered from the plauge. 

In conclusion I have decided to try to make knowledge my goal in life and not happiness because i believe that happiness is present when you aren't searching for it.

   You know it's almost winter when the butter you leave out to melt down to room temperature isn't warm enough for your knife.

   So bassically i love MCC and whatever any one ever told you about it (i.e; "it's just another high school") is completely incorrect! I think that actually going to a community college is the furthest away from another high school that you can get so i urge you to consider enrolling. I've made handfuls of new friends in just a month or two! and I am surely having a great time! (Also, remember, it's all about the professor so make sure you choose wisely and only pick those who have been recomended if you can).

    I'm beginning to set up classes for next semester and the cool thing is i won't have class on fridays but i also don't like that idea too much because it intices lazyness. I don't know really what i want to study with my two year degree anymore, i was going to be a hygenist but then there are some people who are trying really hard to get me to be a nurse. Nursing sort of scares me because it can be a very depressing job and it's also a job that you can be easily guilted into not leaving. I want to get a two year degree so that i can have a reliable job that pays pretty well and then after about a year go back to school for culinary arts and music. I'm afraid that i will get too comfortable in nursing money wise, and in that occupation i can't see myself being very happy.

    Also i am very afraid of needles and i hate violence. Now i've been wanting to conquer this fear for a long time and i'm really really seriously considering seeing a hypnotist. Perhaps if these fear factors (hehe) are taken away then i won't be so against nursing

*shrug* we'll see...

Well, life is strange and it takes you in several different directions. Sometimes it takes you right where you planned and other times it takes you where you didn't plan but not nessecarily where you didn't want to go. For instance i have a strong feeling that come September 8th both of my band members are going to abandon me. At first i thought well i won't be able to find people for a long time but then i realized after all of these concerts we're doing i'll have some connections built. I really don't like the idea of breaking apart from Sammy because honestly from a performance standpoint we're good for eachother. I mean he's a great blues improvist that plays overhand and is only 17 and i'm a female singer/bassist who's only 18. I have found that together we grab a lot of attention but apart?..... I'm not so sure. Besides having sam and sammy there was part of the reason why we were'nt a "chick band" being turned into that is my biggest fear. The only way Captain Indigo could survive after losing Sam and Sammy is if i could find someone suitable to replace them which will be hard and i'm not looking forward to it.

*Sigh*....so bassically if you know any good drummers send them my way. 

It's my birthday GO ME

I'm 18

YES NIGHT LISCENCE!!! best present ever oh goodness it rocks when what you get for your birthday is more freedom *sigh*

well i'm sweepy i love you