monday blues

i'm hoping that if i don't go to sleep, then monday won't come, and i won't have to drag my derrière into work.. don't think that has ever worked though...

one of these days, i am just going to take a week off from work, and do absolutely nothing.. i think right now, i am slowly burning out.. or at least flickering.. august will be a good time for a week off.. i have 3 weeks of vacation left anyways and i have no idea what to do with them.

although.. in today's sermon i heard that only 1 out of every 5 people have absolutely no form of mental illness whatsoever. so maybe i'm just slowly going insane...

one day at a time though... if i fall asleep right this minute, i'll get 6 hours and 5 minutes of sleep.. but that won't happen.. i will wake up at 8am.. snooze until 8:30.. 50% probability that i'll reset my alarm for 8:45.. finally get out of bed at 9.. and somehow maneuver through traffic to get to work before 930... if i somehow make it before 9am, my boss will have a heart attack.. and i would never do that to him..

**edit** well what do you know... so it turned out that... i got to work at around 9:40 ish... realized i left my laptop at home... turned around to go get it... by the time i got back downtown... i still optimistically circled the really close parking lots, in hopes that someone had already taken a half day or something... finally admitted defeat and made my way to the farthest lot... then waited for the shuttle to bring me to the office building.. arrival time- 10:15am..

on a positive note, i really like my new raspberry shampoo...

Amherst plays Quidditch on CBS!! =)

creepy guy update

ARGH.. remember the lindt truffles the guy bought me? well.. i hastily threw them in the backseat of poor vic. hoping never to see them again... and then last night, i discovered chocolate stains on my backpack........ the stupid freakin chocolate melted (in 50 degree weather?!) in my car.. and left milk and white chocolate blobs ON THE SEAT. AHHH!!! my 1-year old baby has been sullied.. deflowered.. besmirched!!!!! waahhhh! this is what i get for being so gosh-darn ridiculously charming (and modest). HMPH.

ps. cleaning suggestions would be most appreciated..

never judge a book by its cover?

hmm. so.. i was studying in borders today.. and i had to take a break from the high school kids playing with magic cards at the next table. one thing that annoyed me.. there were 4 of them. 3 guys. 1 asian female.. but they were playing in sets of twos... not like i was paying attention or anything.. i was dutifully doing a practice exam. but the point is... i got annoyed.. with the girl. you see, every 30 seconds.. well i don't know about that.. but at least once a problem.. .she'd go "my turn?" ............ "oh, my turn?".......................... "is it my turn?" i was tempted to make a "YES!!!" sign for the poor guy with whom she was playing so he could hold it up every time she asked. i mean seriously.. you are playing with one other person... if it's not his turn.. chances are, it's your turn. it's really not that complicated. i mean, it's just a binomial distribution with m=1 and q=.5.. and it's not like you lose track of whose turn it is.. you go.. then he goes... and when he's done.. guess what? you go again! i'm definitely angsty melody today..

so during this break. i was looking at some random books .and this random guy walks up and says "hi, i'm jaime.." nono.. not "JAY-mee" but "HI-meh". holds out his hand. and asks what's your name? so.. being angsty melody. i say.. "and why do you want to know?" anyways.. he creeped me out.. and bought me some lindt truffles..?!?!?!?!?!? SOOO not eating those!!! ughh... and i dashed for my books the earliest chance i got... feigned a phone call.. (made a 'help!' call to dan, actually... he wasn't there..  but it's okay because i escaped anyway..) ooooooh and he said he'd buy my coffee next time i went.. which won't be for a while now..... iiiick.... he gave me the bejeebies... you know, borders has some WEIRD people... last april, this guy named mark followed me and katie out to the parking lot and asked if we wanted to see his car.... to which we gave a resounding "NO!"

but the point of this whole rant..... during this break... post-high-schoolers and pre-jaime.. i was browsing the shelves.. looking for interesting books.. and for some reason .. i thought about the whole "never judge a book by its cover" saying.. because for me.. i was drawn to books with nice covers.. pink, light blue... or those with nice legible font on the spine... simple, yet not black and white.. i noticed that i needed color.. (but not too much.. à la a hundred years of solitude by gabriel garcia marquez... WAY too much color) or the paperbacks with a nice texture.. you know, not the ones with the glossy covers, but the ones that feel kinda powdery... like eggshells.. and i noticed this at the time.. i remember thinking. hm... melody.. look for pretty books... and then a little voice said.. well what if there's an amazing book out there with a glossy brown cover and ugly font? so i guess.... i mean, i wasn't judging the books by their covers per se.... how can you judge a book if you don't even notice it? but then.. by not noticing.. was i just assuming it wouldn't be good? and thereby.. judging? and if i really wanted to be fair, would i need to pick up every single book and give it a chance before tossing it?  but isn't that a little impractical? i honestly don't know where i'm going with this... i guess what i'm saying is that i don't think people intentionally judge books by their covers. and yet they do.

Currently Reading A Thousand Acres By Jane Smiley see related

so after traipsing around our entire building today, looking for a blank CD.. i end up in my admin's office... "take whatever you need," she says... little does she know that i have an enormous penchant for office supplies.. but lo and behold.. i found a huge box of magic rub erasers!!! and really great blue pens, and durable plastic post-it tabs... it pretty much made my day...

oh that and the fact that i got a free lunch today.. we had a lunchtime meeting. and the wonderful SAS people brought in food from Panera.. do i say, oh, no thanks, i have my lunch upstairs?? NO. i happily fill my plate up with salad, pickles, sandwiches, chips, etc.. leave the meeting to hopefully catch a glance of my friend as he exits his interview, go back to work for a couple hours.. and then eat the lunch i brought from home. haha. and i am back on my cottage cheese kick. i'm starting to think that maybe it's a monthly thing.....

and i think i've mentioned this before.. so my apologies if you've heard this before.. but sitting in the meeting today, i suddenly felt like elle woods from legally blonde.. 25 people in this meeting.. 22 males.. all typical statisticians.. 3 females. the other females in the room have at least 2 kids... and here i am in my frilly pink flowery shirt.. not quite holding a pink fluffy pen... but a sparkly purple one..

all in all.. a pretty good friday.. now if i can just start studying........