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Friday, August 29, 2008

  • Breaking bottles

    yes yes i know i havent like updated in A WHILE. but i havent been home this summer. making it IMPOSSIBLE to look for more quotes. i'll be updating regularly soon

    Is it cruel or kind not to speak my mind
    And to lie to you rather than hurt you...?

    If we tried, we could probably hold it all together

    Say something you mean.
    Don't be polite. Kiss, kill, nothing in between.

    it's hard to let the miles keep passing by. the yellow lines keep blending together in my eyes. and when seasons change again, then i will too. i just want to be closer to you.

    It's funny how, when you go through a year,
    nothing seems to change, but when you look back,
    everything is different.

    i don't need another superhero
    and i don't need another prince charming
    all i need is you.

    50% of the world is without food and shelter
    .. and you wanna tell me you have problems?

    he watched her take off her
    makeup. and wondered why
    she even put it on

    The worst thing you can do to yourself, is fall for someone harder than they fell for you.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

  • after im 18...

    i want to spend a few months in a tiny little hippie trailer thing while taking a road trip with some friends.


    then move into some big house/apartment with a bunch of friends, and we can have orgys evry night!
    then somewhere along the line, i wana get a pet pig! and name him elmer the great.


    then go to college or whatever to start a profession in ruining people's hair.


    then once i get a good job i'ma hopefuly get married, and have some kids.


    but one of them i want to adopt from japan- if i don't marry a japanese dude.



    then i wana have like three kids, and be one of those 'hot soccer moms'.



    you know, one of those mom's who have sons who's friends come over just to drool at there friends mother- yeah that kind.



    then maybe i'll be one of those hot grandparents, who just totally bring sexy back!


    yeahh, thats my life plan :]

    well i also want to go and work in africa helping little kids and stuff.



    maybe i could do it all?


    who knows.



    time will only tell xD


    okay, i'm done :D

  • when i grow up i wanna be famous

    It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are

    mistakes are painful but they're the
    only way to tell you who you are.

    when you run from something, it only stays with you longer
    when you fight something, it only makes you stronger.

    rock bottom is a beautiful start,
    rise up to show the world your scars.

    No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world

    The right thing isn't always real obvious.
    Sometimes the right thing for one person
    is the wrong thing for someone else.

    It is not our abilities that show what we truly are.
    It is our choices

    take a chance, because
    you never know how
    absolutely perfect
    something could
    turn out to be.

    you have to learn from your mistakes, and grow. and know
    that if it can happen once, it can happen twice.

    maybe she sees forgiveness in the sunrise,
    and maybe she sees hope in the moonlight.

    Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart.
    If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world.

    I may be emotional, but at least I'm not weak.
    It takes a strong individual to have the courage to cry.

    The best way to cheer yourself up is to try and cheer somebody else up

    When you're feeling your worst, that's when you get to know yourself the best.

    The best way to behave is not to.

    you never know the perfect quote
    until you've lived it.

    everyone smiles in the same language

    you can't change who people are
    without destroying who they were.

    Dreams are answers to questions we haven't yet figured out how to ask.

    and i think the best feeling ever,
    is feeling alive.

    some things don't last forever, but some do.
    like a good song, a good book, or a good
    memory that you can take out and unfold in
    your darkest times, pressing down the corners
    and peering close, hoping that you still do
    recognize the person that you see there.

    I have the thickest skin of anyone you'll ever meet.
    No one can say anything about me I haven't heard a million times before.

    I'd much rather be a woman than a man.
    Women can cry, they can wear cute clothes.
    And they are the first to be rescued from sinking ships.

    If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere.

    Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up

    Today, give a stranger one of your smiles.
    It might be the only sunshine he sees all day

    A bend in the road is not the end of the road... unless you fail to make the turn.

    Do not regret growing older.
    It is a privilege denied to many

    Everybody ought to do at least two things each day that he hates to do, just for practice.

    If you don't go after what you want, you'll never get it.
    If you don't ask, the answer is always no.
    If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place

    Never ruin an apology with an excuse

    A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

    Our hearts are drunk with a beauty our eyes could never see

    Take care of your body.
    It's the only place you have to live.

    And remember, no matter where you go, there you are

    Never apologize for showing feeling.
    When you do so, you apologize for the truth

    Let's be honest.
    Sometimes there is nothing hard in life than being happy for someone else

    You're so weird.
    Works for you though

    Isn't it better just to cling to the dream of what could have been, than to ruin everything with reality

    I wish I was a teddy bear
    Everybody loves them
    Nobody cares how fat they are
    And the older they get,
    the more they are worth!

    Firemen never die,
    they just burn forever in the hearts
    of the people whose lives they saved.

    Bring it on. Bitch

    life is about chasing after things you truly think are worth it .. even if they dont happen.

    The future belongs to those who believe
    in the beauty of their dreams

    I think everybody needs a place to go when things become too much, a place where the world is the way you want it to be, & if you had a choice, it's how you would have created it

    If you cant find something to live for,
    you best find something to die for.

    Sometimes we take for granted the people in our lives
    that mean so much and when we finally realize that, it
    can be too late. Take advantage of every minute you have,
    hold onto and cherish every second. Have no regrets
    and never forget those that made you into who you are.

    Sometimes you make a promise
    & you mean it at the time,
    but then life gets in the way
    & makes it impossible to keep.

    We live and learn,
    and we crash and burn,
    We're gone.
    We take what we know,
    and we learn as we go,
    We run.

    The expected is what we live for.
    The unexpected is what changes our lives.

    for some moments in life,
    there are no words.

    the most memorable people in life
    will be the people who loved you
    when you were not very loveable

    live for today because yesterdays are
    over and tomorrow may never come.

    you make life better just by being in it.

    Every story has its ending,
    but in Life
    every ending is just a new beginning

    life doesn't give you the people you want. it
    gives you the people you need. to help you,
    hurt you, love you, to make you the person
    you were meant to be

    There are some things we just don't admit because we don't like the way it sounds.

    If you get a chance, take it!
    If it changed your life, let it.

    Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.

    Who will tell whether one happy moment of love or the joy of breathing or walking on a bright morning and smelling the fresh air, is not worth all the suffering and effort which life implies

    I don't believe in guilt.
    I believe in living on impulse.
    As long as you never intentionally hurt another person and don't judge people in your life.
    I think you should live completely free

    Life flies by so embrace it.
    Forget the past because you can't erase it.
    So live the dream and learn to chase it.
    And when you can almost taste it, it's all come alive

    Everybody wants to be the sun that lights up your life.
    But I'd rather be the moon so I can shine on you during your darkest hours, of the darkest day when your sun isn't around.

    Be crazy, be original, be outgoing.
    Be your own person, set your own standards.
    Be smart, don't hate anyone, be happy.
    Don't drink to fit in, stand out, be yourself, live your own life

    Go out, do crazy shit, have fun with your friends.
    After all, what's life without living?

    I guess sometimes the past just catches up with you,
    whether you want it to or not.

    Experience is a name everyone gives to their mistakes

    Love is an earthquake…
    Unpredictable and a little scary,
    but when the hard part is over,
    you realize how lucky you are

    Oh take your time,
    dont live too fast.
    Troubles will come
    and they will pass.

    You may see me struggle,
    but you will never see me fall.

    i'm going to get out of bed every morning
    and breathe in and out all day long.
    and after a while, I won't have to think.
    about how great and perfect i had it once.

    I have become everything I never wanted to be

    Im really getting sick of myself because when
    I look into the mirror I see somebody else

    the real truth is, were just a bunch of kids
    wanting to know what love is

    I don't miss you.
    I miss the person you used to be;
    The person who could talk to me about anything;
    The person that made me laugh,
    Even if I was having a bad day;
    The person who left me hanging on every word;
    && the person who was the first to notice me.
    Babe, I don't miss you.
    I miss the person you used to be. </3

    I know better than anyone
    what happens when you get attached.

    He's not what
    You think he is
    He seems like the
    Worst guy you'll know
    But then you meet him
    He makes you smile
    He's got the sweetest laugh
    He's the guy that will
    Never leave your head
    Even though you think
    You're over him
    You're not

    It's hard to watch people change
    right in front of you.
    But the worst part
    is remembering who they used to be.

    and when your heart breaks,
    you realize you have to fight like hell
    just to make sure you're still even alive.

    Cause love just leaves you bruised
    And I've got the scars to prove it

    & it's getting harder to live,
    each and every day.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

  • yeah im sorry everyone i've been gone to chicago && i met this really cute guy soo i stayed a little longer than i expected. but im back now && i expect to have updates alot more offten

    "..and those who were seen dancing,
    were thought to be insane
    by those who could not here the music"

    Lets drive in the sunset,sing love songs.
    We'll make unkeepable promises.
    && swear we'll never love anyone else.

    She walks in Beauty like the night
    Of Cloudless climes and starry skies
    And all thats best of dark and bright.

    The boy that deserves you the most; is the boy that thinks he doesn't.

    Admit it. Your A Mess Without Me.

    If You Were'nt here. I'd be asking "What Is Love?"

    Always remember your loved. Never Forget Someone Cares.

    I can be soft and sweet or louder than a radio. I can be sophisticated or completely go out of control.

    I’m a very independent girl and some people think I’m weird because of it but that doesn’t bother me. Just because I’m not afraid to stand up for what Ibelieve in when everyone else is sitting down, that’s no reason to follow the crowd. Because maybe, just maybe, I’ll make someone’s life better because I wasn’t afraid.

    Yeah, some things in this world might have passed me by and I might have missed a chance or two but you won’t find any regrets in my eyes.

    Don’t fall for the boy next door. Trust me. He’ll move.

    No matter how much you hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.

    he truth is - we hide so we can be found. we walk
    away to see who will follow, we cry to see who will
    wipe away our tears and we let our hearts get broken
    to see who will come and fix them.

    are you satisfied with yourself now?
    You've made a mess out of a strong girl.
    She can hardly smile anymore,
    Sometimes she forgets to breathe.
    Are you satisfied with yourself now?
    You've ruined such an innocent girl.

    I kept my head high and you better believe,
    I never looked back.

    what you don `t know is
    that i, secretly, have a penis.

    DAMN IT. i'm so emo;;
    my SIDE * BANGS ruined my eye sight. ]:

    what is your talent, dan?"
    "apparently, i'm the murderer of love."-dan in real life

    i sold my soul to satan
    so i could become sterile.

    "do not use the reflection on the glass to check yourself out."-sign on glass window

     

    did because I can.
    I can because I want to.
    I want to because you said I couldn't

    Sometimes to be happy,
    you have to give up what you love the most.

    Make your decision &
    don't you dare think twice
    Go with your instincts
    along with some bad advice

    she was the girl who always carried
    around a camera to capture the
    memories because she was always
    afraid that people might forget them.

    If tomorrow you wake up feeling unoriginal or frail-hearted or faithless or tired of this world, please, just remember, i love you.

    getting betrayed by a friend hurts more
    than getting beaten by an enemy.

    I've never felt like this before, I'm overwhelmed by an unbelievably amount of hatred for him, yet, I couldn't be more in love. It's like I want to throw him out into traffic, and then risk my life to save him


    When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Don't try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

    When I don't think about you I'm fine. I've moved on, I'm happy without you. I don't love, hate, need or want you. But it's when something reminds me of you that I take myself back to that place where all the questions are still unanswered and I feel that pain all over again

    Weirdos and creeps are single because they're weird and creepy. But people like me are single because we're victims of bad timing

    I want you to tell me you don’t love me anymore. I want you to tell me she’s better than me. I want you to tell me it was all a lie. Even if you have to lie, I want you to tell me these things. I need you to make me hate you

    Pathetic isn't something I would normally call myself, but looking back I'm ashamed at how blind I really was.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

  • scream,aim,fire

    She's addicted to those song lyrics,
    Because it pours her heart out for her.

    & you see me as somebody new,
    I`m not that chained up little girl still in love with you.
    & so you felt like dropping in & expecting me to be free, but not.
    I`m saving all my love for someone who`s loving me.

    Fuck the feelings.
    Fuck the touch.
    Fuck the memories.
    They hurt too much.

    & there will be torn up photos, and lonely nights.
    cursing, crying, and drawn out fights.
    making up and a brand new start.
    Broken promises for broken hearts.

    [&&] she asked him
    "What kind of wedding do youwant?" [&&] he replied.
    "The kind that would make you my wife."

    Her mirror's cracked.
    Her make-up's smeared.
    All her hope is trashed.
    So with one last breath,
    She uttered the words,
    "I knew we'd never last"

    So now you ask her to dance to our song
    But you think of me when you start to sing along.
    And when the two of you laugh you think of my smile
    You just can't replace me no matter how hard you try

    I'm sure you'll miss me
    when i'm not in your arms.
    when she's laying on your shoulder,
    and you don't smell me anymore.
    i'm sure you're gunna hate it,
    when she looks you in the eye,
    and you don't see the love,
    like you did when you looked in mine.

    All she really wants is for you to finally
    get the nerve to say how you really feel
    about her. that way, when you look at her,
    she's not still second guessing what you really mean.

    I don't trust you.
    Cause every time your here,
    Your intentions are unclear.
    I spend every hour waiting for a phone call.
    That I know will never come.
    I used to think you were the one.
    Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all.

    Tonight I said goodbye,
    but I should have said more.

    Don't say you love me. I know you don't.
    Don't hold my hand if your not sure.
    Don't call my house, Don't kiss my lips.
    Don't you get it? It Isn't meant to be like this.

    In the end you're just a typical guy,
    dragging a girl along,
    because you're not really sure
    what you want.

    Do your nights feel incomplete without our phone calls?
    Mine do.
    Do your eyes feel like they’re burning out of your skull?
    Mine too.
    Is it just our little routine that we’re missing so bad?
    Or is it the fact that we’re both losing the best friend that we ever had?

    You know you only want him cause he's no longer in your life.
    You know you only want him cause he no longer holds you tight.
    You know he doesn't need you...He's with her tonight.

    I`m staring at your photograph;
    Remembering all those times you made me laugh
    I never thought it would end this way,
    that i`d still be missing you, to this very day

    You look at him and he looks back.
    You want to kiss him, but you can't.
    His cologne attacks your senses and you begin to lose your mind
    You go insane when you see him smile.
    This boy has made you blind and it's so hard to break free
    So sweetie go ahead and tell her what you want her to be.

    I could take your number off my speed dial.
    I can block you online.
    I could ignore you forever.
    But I could never erase you from my mind.

    Today I looked into his eyes,
    They Screamed "i need you"
    But they also screamed "goodbye"
    They Said, "I love you and i'm sorry "
    And they said "Im moving on, Don't cry"
    They yelled " How could you replace me "
    and they also said " I tried "
    They told me " i miss you "
    and they also said "sometimes i want to die"
    His eyes revealed his secrets...eyes can never lie...

    I guess you can say her life is going well,
    She has everything she ever wanted. And she's happy can't you tell?
    She stopped dwelling on the past.
    because now she knows theres a reason things dont last.
    as you can see she is no longer sad.
    You couldn't break her and thats too damn bad.

    She looks him in the eyes
    and tries so hard to hide how she feels

    Maybe I make you out to be
    so much better than you really are.
    maybe all the credit I’m giving you is
    unfair. all the cute kisses & sweet
    words were just a cover. maybe you
    really are & always were just a guy
    who knows what he wants & gets it.
    maybe you just don't care who you hurt.
    maybe this all was a joke, but you really made me fall for you</3
    -thanks

    it's like half of me wants to be with him
    &&& the other half wants to get over him
    i guess i'll always have that some -
    thing
    for him..

    If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.
    If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.
    If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.
    But I did, I do, and I will.

    And I've waited here for hours hoping that you'd call.
    My dialing fingers are tired and your machine is full.
    I've taken eighteen showers just to pass the time.
    That fucking phone just rang but it wasn't you on the line

    Every time I shot back with
    "What's wrong with living in a dream world?"
    He'd say, "You have to wake up.."

    They say loving you is my biggest mistake,
    but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right?
    If ever I made a mistake, it's not that I love you,
    it's thinking that someday you'll love me too.

    I wanted everything to stay the same,
    but feelings fade and people change.
    I'm loving every moment like its my last,
    no longer letting my future be based on my past.

    I can't recall the summer breeze.
    Whispers through the apple trees.
    And I forget the songs I knew.
    I just remember you.

    I hear a song on the radio
    that reminds me of a boy i used to know

    She's waiting for you baby.
    Just remember though, when it comes to love.
    There is no such thing as "maybe"

    "Call me when you really miss me"
    is all She had to say.
    She made it sound so easy.
    But in reality it was so hard to walk away.
    It was hard to live without him.
    She barely made it through the days.
    Three months later he called her
    " Baby i miss you more then ever today"
    She took a breath and replied
    " I was so used to you calling me, Because every night
    We used to speak.
    But darling i 'm done waiting by the phone until i fall asleep."

    All I want is to be the girl falling asleep in a boy’s arms
    & not caring about anything else in the world,
    except how I feel at that moment while I’m with him.

    There's no way to be sure if it's love or not ,
    but i swear , if you could see my heart ,
    his initials would be engraved on it .

    Did you know;
    She knew something was there the first time you held her hand,
    even though it was just for fun.
    Did you know;
    she's probably the only girl who liked you cause of you,
    not cause of the way you looked
    Did you know;
    after you lead her on that night and kissed her,
    she smiled all night
    Did you know;
    that sweater you said you loved,
    was instantly her favorite
    Did you know;
    Whenever you called, she felt her heart skip a beat
    or even worse...
    Did you know;
    she waited for the caller id ,
    just to see it wasnt you
    Did you know;
    She never wears that sweater anymore,
    cause she thinks it was all a lie.
    Did you know;
    She'll never trust another boy,
    because of that kiss
    Did you know;
    She finds it hard to look through peoples appearences because,
    she knows its a lie
    & lastly
    Did you know;
    You took a once confident girl, broke her so badly that
    she cries herself too sleep because not only did
    the one person she thought would never lie to her did;
    But she actually believed it.

    & it's ridiculous how many times
    your name happens to just slip out of my mouth
    during the day.

    When "your song" comes on the radio ; turn the station. When the
    day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling;
    turn your phone off. When he tries coming over ; don`t answer
    the door. Think of the broken promises, the lies, the
    manipulation, & the tears, the wasted moments. Think about how
    your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the
    middle of the night, & how it felt to your stomach when you saw it
    wasn`t him & realized once again he hadn`t called when he said he
    was going to.

    Close your eyes & count by twos
    & when you get to five;
    that's when I’ll stop loving you.

    Those nights you can't sleep
    it might be because you're awake
    in someone else's dreams.

    It's amazing how whenever
    I try to like another guy
    you always seem to sneak
    into my mind and whisper,
    "Hey, remember me?"

    & she tells you over and over
    that you don't love her
    just because she wants to
    hear you say that you do.

    She swears there’s nothing
    wrong but I hear her playing
    the same old song.

    I told him i loved him
    and the feeling was mutal..
    he loved himself too.

    Cut it out.
    Don't start with your pathetic excuses.
    Lies come out of your mouth like breath.
    And I'm starting to realize that'll never change.
    You'll
    ever change.

    Turn up the radio and sing your
    lungs out.
    Because kid, this is it.
    And this is all it will ever be.
    So get used to it. Suck it up and live.

    dont want to like him anymore & i
    just can't, im obviously not good
    enough & im not going to sit around
    & wait until my chance..until i'm
    good enough for him..so i'm just over
    him. but theres seriously something about
    him that makes me like him so much..since
    i met him, there was something about him that
    makes me go absolutely crazy over him.
    This is why I didn't want to fall again. I
    didn't want another dissapointment, I
    didn't want to get my hopes up, I didn't want
    to cry, I didn't want to lie,
    but it looks like I've fallen again.

    Things with us are never normal..
    i think we like it that way. never knowing
    what might happen from one day to
    the next. i think that`s why we can't
    ever let each other go.

    You're my favorite subject;
    yet the only one i failed.

    And so I'll smile, because you tell me you
    love it so much. and I'll make believe you're
    not really killing me inside.

    When I think about every other gorgeous girl
    who likes you now,
    I wonder why I even try.

    His throat choked upon the words,
    spilling from his lips.
    "I'm lying" is what she heard,
    "I'm sorry" is what he said.

    I still remember the things you said.
    They replay back in my head.
    Your smile you used to send my way is with me all the time.
    I remember all the things we did, back to the first time we met.
    The memories are all I have left, how could I forget?

    Should i shake your hand or kiss your cheek?
    convince you it's not lust, it's chemistry.
    she looks at him. her eyes scream;
    just tell me what you want from me.

    I want to be the girl in the picture on his dresser
    I want mine to be the window he wishes he
    could throw rocks at. I want my fingers to be the
    ones he dreams about lacing his through. I want
    to be free of wanting this, but only if it means
    I don't have to want it anymore because it's mine.

    Yeah, I miss him.
    but I think I miss what I
    wanted him to be, more
    than what he actually was.

    He's the kinda boy you can flirt with
    yet still talk to like hes your bestfriend.

    he's the only person she wants to be with.
    he means so much to her.she loves his stupid jokes,
    how he can change her entire day by just giving her a hug,
    the way he can always make her laugh,
    and how hes by her side through everything that goes wrong

    Do you miss him at the most happy & fufilling times in your life?
    Just cause you miss him when the world is quiet & you feel alone
    doesn`t mean you love him..you will miss anyone when you`re lonely..
    it`s when your life is going great & you still feel the ache in your heart
    cause he isn`t there to see the genuine smile on your face & happiness in your life.

    I hope you're not expecting an apology
    because the only thing i did wrong, was want you.

    And everytime you speak her name
    does she know how you told me
    you'd hold me until you died, but you're still alive.
    And I'm here to remind you of the mess you left when you went away.
    It was a slap in the face, how quickly I was replaced.

    Sun is shinin' in the sky
    There ain't a cloud in sight
    It's stopped rainin' ev'rybody's in a play
    And don't you know
    It's a beautiful new day hey,hey

    And at some point I’ll call you and tell you I miss you, and you are the point of my day.
    And my face will get flushed and my throat will choke up when you tell me that you feel the same.