This guys is my last post here, moving is over....so is this xanga. I'll still post about living here, just on my regular xanga.  Thanks for being so supportive of me while I've ranted here, you guys are truly the best friends I could ask for. I won't shut this down, but posts will cease to continue....
*hugs to all*
In memory of what my experience was like.....here's something little I wrote when really hurting....
"Dreaming of a land that never changes
Flexing with a world that knows not the meaning of never
Tears streaming for no more pain
A heart begging for more
Rain pouring it's whispers of ending
Streams of light refusing to end it's child-like game of hiding
Hands reaching for the unreachable
The unreachable begging to be caught
Emotions scream for stability
Stability lost in reality
Reality cutting like a knife
Hope wondering why she woke up
Sleep refusing to awaken joy
Yet for some reason.....I refuse to fail....I refuse to let failure catch me before you do....I refuse to let go of the cliff's edge, even when the rocks belong me call out my name, and insist rescue is impossible. I will believe in the impossible, I will find those streams of light, I will fight the good fight.....if for no other reason that when my race is over, I can look my creator in the eyes, the edges of his mouth with curve upwards, the light that never ceases to dance about him will shine just a bit brighter, the glistening eyes of the un-imaginable will sparkle beyond comprehension, and the voice that slices through all only to heal the wounds will tell me that I did his will, that my life glowed of just a fraction of his might and love.
When I look in the mirror my mind's eye flies back seven years, and I see myself where I began
With each trickle of tears I feel the burning wounds that never healed
Each cry of my heart sears through scarred flesh
But I am not alone...."
I feel so incredibly free now though, covered in peace, and smiling with the joy my God who pulled me through gave me....I will never forget this experience, good or bad, it's made a huge impact on whether or not I trusted God in ALL circumstance.....big and little.... | 
Pictures coming soon...
Andrew and I in the heart of Boylston (I hate the quality of my parent's camera....and yes I look like a dork....shhh.)......hehe. [EDIT] pictures aren't working...I'll fix them soon (maybe)....in the meantime you can see them here: 
THIS is the only sun and sign of warmth I've seen in a week, and won't see for at least another week. It's 44 today. PLUS, I'm out of tea to keep me warm! *whimpers* Okay, done complaining. 
