Well i just got home from an hour and a half drive/reflection/prayer.  Yea i know i am odd to be driving and praying.  It helps me open up my mind on things and focus cause i am doing somehting to keep my body busy.  Anyhow.  First i got to say that i work with the best group of leaders for the youth gorup that i can hope for.  I am so grateful to have a group that i can respect, apreciate, love to be with, and will tell me to get my act together.  I don't know how life would be without my wednesday youth group nights.  But I was driving and htinking about whatever would come to mind.  yea i know that whats reflecting is.  geeze...  :)  ya know while thinking of all of this i am so thankful for all i have.  I may not be on the fast road to success in the eyes of hte business world but i am doing something that i love.  I haven't known my place so much in the youth group in such a while.  I am accepted and part of hte leadership.  But ya know my gift aint speeches in groups as many of ya know.   But if everyone there was only called to speak then how owuld the cleanup and musik and small groups run.  Plus the random things like crowd control.  lol.  i feel like i am finally getting a grasp on what i need to do to improve what i have so stubbornly held.   but ya i am still trying to figure it out.  I know where to start and i am glad for that.  things are seeming to jsut make more sense now.  don;t worry the billtor ya know isnt changing who he is.  just what is going through his head.  but ya know.  i just wanted to thank all of my firends for being there for me. I ask if y'all can pray for my guidance.  I am goin to try to actively pursue what i need to do.  thankyou and you all have a goodnight, day, nap, mud bath,  or whatever you prefer to do while in the moment.    oh yea

God thankyou...