i haven't slept a single night in over a monthand not even once did you start to make sense to me.
<3 Hot Hot Heat
It was a perfectly shitty day. I don't mean that in an oxymoronic way but I suppose it is anyways. On to other matters...
It was a shitty day. It rained and I walked home in it. My mom and I aren't on speaking terms AT ALL anymore. I basically told her that I was sick of her telling me I was a bitch and cunt and making me feel bad about myself all the time and beating on my self esteem (this was after she told me I wasn't emotionally stable enough to drive a car.... right... I'm the emotionally unstable one out of the two of us... I know I'm crazy but come on; I know when I need to do something about it and I'm not like... her).
I can honestly say I wasn't mean about it. I was next to tears and I told her I was done talking about all of this and she kept going and I opened our back door and said "Either you can leave this room or I can but I'm done talking to you about this" and she told me not to come around her for the rest of the night and left.
Forgive me for standing up for myself. Forgive me for trying to be positive and feel better about myself. Forgive me for not liking to be told I'm insecure and emotionally unstable and a bitch and a cunt and forgive me for not putting up with it anymore.
I won't be made to feel like that anymore because I'm soo much fucking better than that. I'm smart. I'm driven (when I want something that is). I'm pretty. I'm somewhat amusing. =] I'm def. little and cute. I'm charming, apparently. I'm pretty much awesome most of the time. And I'm trying to make it even more of the time and be more upbeat.
And I'm sick of her harshing my mellow, mans.
And people wonder why I'm never home. Gosh. Here's your reason folks. Honestly, I'd much rather be around my boys and my chicas anyday. Even the ones that make me feel ugly (my gorgeous chick friends) and the ones that make me feel stupid sometimes (my amazingly smart guy friends).
They always cheer me up and tell me I'm cute and they love me and we laugh and sneak around and lie and have many inside jokes and eat ice cream and skate/longboard and play music and instruments and go to the park and to the diner and take pictures and go for walks and tan at Thornwald and go to the mall and just rock.
My friends > your friends. Kthnxbye.
You wouldn't even know a diamond if you held it in your hand. The things you think are precious I can't understand.
You've been telling me you were a genius since you were 17... | 
