Friday, November 17, 2006

• Today has been a rough day... I had to go on my lunch break early because I couldn't stop crying after a regular customer found out my friend had died and was politely asking questions... I probably made him feel terrible!!... But oh well, I guess...

  I have been thinking, and I really think that death proves God's existence extremely. Because it does not make sense AT ALL to be able to form miraculous, meaningful, and connecting relationships with other people, just to have it "stop" after that person dies. I mean, I'm not saying that people won't go to hell where they will be gone from you forever. But, honestly, I don't believe April became such a BIG part of my life for it to be over and done with now... There are things that go beyond words, and my brain just honestly can't wrap itself around the thought of true joy and friendship not having a HUGE COSMOS PURPOSE!! 

  If I am making any sense right now... Gosh, thank you all my friends for the thoughtful comments you've left. It means so much... You are all in my prayers, and I love you so much, no matter how far away you are... God is so awesome, and I am so thankful for everything He has done... God bless you! I can't wait to see you again, whenever that will be... And please remember to pray for April's husband Brandon and best-best friend Loren if you remember... Talk to you later...

  **Edit**I just came across a statement that said "The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them."  ......HA. Ha. I beg to differ..

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