school's about to start.............

life sucks right now

xanga is officially dead!

ok, so things are really good right now. i'm getting over michael, by intense work, haha, just kidding. things are healing, i guess because we're able to be friends now, and we're honest with eachother, which makes me happy.

my birthday is TOMORROW!!! which will be amazing

we're going to see the drakes descent, and also pirates of the carribean....i'm really excited

i got $212 for my bday, from gparents, parents, and uncle jack, which is GOOOOOOD

i'm going to start my own bible study, which really excited me, cause i could sure use it. i bought three max lucado books tonight. i think kari an cailtin are gonna do it with me too. it's nice to have friends to study with.

things are going by so fast....it's crazy.

Currently Listening Morning View By Incubus see related

it's recently come to my attention that i have become the crazy cat lady. i have insisted on giving all the cats/kittens on our street, outrageous names. we now permanently have a cat, named squishy, who has a broken neck, and crossed eyes, who never leaves..he love us. i can't believe i've become the crazy cat lady at almost 17.....let's call guiness book

so, i can never sleep past ten, and i don't know why. it doesn't even matter if i went to bed at eight at night, or six in the morning, i can't sleep past ten. i don't even need an alarm....i just always wake up.

so, things are.......confusing/depressing lately....i don't know why. i've gotten into the habbit of doing the same routines over an over again, just to get by. i hate it. i don't even know what to do anymore.

i'm trying to become more dedicated to reading my Bible, and praying everyday. i've realized that it's something not to be taken lightly. i am not a good christian, i need to work on that.

on another note, mission trip really depressed me.....everyone on the sight would talk about how we/they/you were so happy to be sharing God's love with everyone, in all aspects. but when we would get to the rooms at night, the talk was about all the big party's back home this weekend, and who has sex with who, and what the best ciggarettes are.....needless to say i wasn't suprised why my nickname in the group was "prude"......although my response to why i'm so crazy and fun (without drinking), was that i don't need all that to have a good time.....

i don't understand how you can care about someone so much, but completely give up on them, and the relationship in general. i've realized that you can't make someone love you back. so now i just have to figure out how to get over it. it's something that will never be, his decision.

my birthday's coming up, in four days. i'm not really that excited to tell you the truth. i know what i want to do, but i know when i ask, it will be a no, and i will be heartbroken/even more depressed on my birthday. i don't even give a crap about presents anymore.....

i love you caitlin. you help me get through everyday.

-cath

When a girl says she likes you, she wants you to ask her out.

When a girl misses u, she's afraid to see
how your new girl looks, she's dreading the fact that ur not
hers any more

When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when bumping heads 3 years later

When a girl just stares deep into your eyes, she's
HOPING that your hers and only hers ( it shows how much she cares: eyes never lie)

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever, " she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more than that


Guy Facts:

When a guy calls u
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine, " after a few
minutes,
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders
if you do?

When you're laying your head on a guy's
chest
he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday
he is in love

When a (good) guy say he loves you
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you, "
he misses you more than you could have
ever
missed him or anything else

it's all crap!!