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Thursday, June 12, 2008

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 06:51:01 GMT

years haven't i been writing my diet journal

having been keeping my weight around 44kg sometimes 42kg for 2 years, i was shocked last nite

i weight 47.5=.=!!!!

WTF

Here comes my diet plan again

I am gonna starve myself for 3 days

No food at all

Then start the apple diet or fruit/salad diet for a week

Melt all the fat away

Hate being a fat ass

getta wake up early tmr to have a regular routine for easy weight loss:p

Monday, February 18, 2008

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 08:38:58 GMT

You Know what,

I am always dreaming to be ur bride.

When we went into a relationship in 2002, i still remember the official day was 01/08...

when i was back to Melbourne,even You and me were apart, we could only keep our relationship through the phone, I still felt so fulfilled and loved..

And after we've broken up...

I dun dare seeing you, cos i knew you are always my dream man.

It has been years now, I see you almost once every year.
Every time after i meet you, I will dream of you for days or even weeks.
I know you are still my dream man.

And this year, it seems like we both still have sth toward each other.
And it has been weeks that I have been dreaming to be with you
I seriously always wanna be with you

I strongly feel my love towards you, how bout u??

I know you love ppl being skinny, and i was skinny weeks ago when the last time i met you
But not now, i gain 3 kgs >.< sad

I am going to meet you on Sat, and I will try my best to lose some weight before i see you

I still love you, and still wanna be your bride
I know you won't read it
but it's some support for me to lose weight to impress you before i see you

LOVE YOU

THINSPIRATION

Hope i can lose 2 kgs from today to Sat

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 11:04:54 GMT

I have been eating so bad this week, i did put on weight.....

i am goign to starve myself this week, no eating, go on liquid diet....

And i have to say, guys, sucked!!!!

Gals, please support me!!!I need u.

And thanks so much for ur comment

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 06:34:54 GMT

My friends told me he's found this dairy and he knew it's me here, and my bf was suspecting i am becoming an ana, that's why i privatized all my past journal. Gals, sorry about that.

When my friends told me he found this dairy, i almost cried out. I jus want to have a little space of myself, but then i couldn't, coz he is checking this out!!!

I was forced to eat and i hate it. Now i start to accept others ever my friends knowing i am an ana, coz it has nothing wrong with it. I jus want to get myself into the best figure i can. I did put on weight back to around 47kg, and i found those fat around my body, i hate it. I wanna lose it and get to 40kg.That's jus my style, it has nothing wrong with it..

Ana i've been back, sorry for not updating my journal as i was feared about my friends checking it out.

I did eat a lot, it's like heaps and heaps of calories, but i'll get back to my normal ana style, coz i love ana!!

Ana is jus a form of perfectition!!!