I have been reading my old post and Irealised I have been talking about my jobs quite a lot lately. Many people asked me why do I work so much? Many friends asked me to stop working so much!

I know.... I have a goal to achieve, but also I want to escape from something and I am losing myself. I need a new life, I need to find myself. What do I want?

Nice meeting you, welcome to my blog. =) You know I am talking about you!

I always complain about my birthday being in June. Since young I always have birthday around/during exam period. Friends of mine had no time to celebrate my brithday with me and some of them even forgot it was my birthday. After I came to Perth, it's still the same. Universites have their first sem exam during June.... Well, finally I graduated and I thought it's over... it's not.

As I am working in the Payroll, there are two busy periods for us, one is around Christmas and the other one is end of finacial year. Guess what... my birthday is so close to End of financial year. -_- I was in the office since 8 something on my birthday... everyone was so busy in the office that even I brought some morning tea in... they can only walk pass and get some.... I stayed in the office til 8:15... and after my dinner with my lovely friends, I worked for another 4 hours before I went to bed. Well it has been by far the busiest brithday I have ever had...

On Friday, I had a birthday party... it was the best brithday party I have ever had. 30+ people showed up and I received lots of pressies. I was so happy... seriously... so so so happy. I will always remember my 24th brithday.. it was GREAT! Thanks for all the wishes and pressies... I love them. Thank for showing up at my party... I am so happy that I can't discribe it with words.

I have been working in Hawker's for almost three years now. I have met so many differnt types of customers. Some of them are nice and friendly, some of them are troublesome and some of them are just too hard to please. This Uncle always come to Hawker's and ask me what is nice? He and his friend will always order one individual dish and another dish to share. He will always order the Prawn noodle which he is 100% sure it will not be available. He will always say he doesn't know what to eat and ask me to order anything that's nice. I will always try to come up with a dish that I think he might like, and the answer will always be NO. He will always end up ordering salt and pepper squid tenticles. No fail he will always complain about how tough those squid are.

I stop taking his order becoz I feel bad each time when I try to recommand a dish to him, and he will always say "Nah.. that's not nice" I still remember the last few times I saw him, he look rather sad, like a little kid and said "Err.. you don't take my order anymore."

Today I found out, he passed away becoz of heart attack. I know my eyes were red. The last time I saw him he was still so healthy and talkative. Uncle... may you rest in peace.

I didn't know the bond between me and some regular customers are so strong....

I visit my own blog every time when I come online... my blog looks so quiet nowadays. Of course it's becoz of me not making any noise here. I have lots to write about. Each time when I try to write something.... I don't know where to start... or sometimes I don't know how to go on... BLANK is the word to use. It happens to me again.

After I came back from my holiday, I have been working less. I am not sure where my time goes.. but it seems like I am always busy and I have no time to do a lot of things that I really wanna do. Work has been busy for me, getting to learn this new job, trying to finish my own work and at the same time teaching some new people. I just realised I have been working in Payroll for almost 9 months, time flies like mad. Just like yesterday that I was the newest person in the office, now I am expected to teach others. I have seen new people come in and old people leave.... the feeling is funny. I might not think that it's the best job on Earth, but I think without me realising, I am starting to get attached to my workplace. People at work are so nice (you do get S**T people sometimes especially working in Payroll).

I had an interview with the WA Police for a payroll job. I didn't get the job that I applied for, but they offered me another position instead. It's tempting becoz Police is a much bigger Dept and there will be more opportunities. I have to answer them by the end of this week, but I think I already have the answer. I guess it could be a good opportunities, but I have spent a while to build up to where I am now, it's not the best time to leave.

Another note...

Since young, I always try to impress people around me by being a good kid. I will try my best to help with housework, I always make sure everyone around me is happy with me. I always want my parents to be proud of me, and I want to give them the best in return. At least I don't want them to worry about me. Though, sometimes when you trying too hard to please others, you will oversee what you really want as yourself. There are two answers to this question, one is what it should be and one is what you want it to be. I am giving the answer of what it should be.... I am trying to tell myself.. what I want it to be is not the best answer... It's hard.. maybe at the end I will just choose not to answer this question. Life is crazy.. so am I.