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| i am in such unbelievable pain right now. I dont even know where to begin with it. The past few days, I have had a sore throat and now my stomach hurts... like sharp pains and i dont know what it is. It hurts so bad though. Also, today was Joe and my one year anniversary and it has been nothing but horrible (except for the card and the flowers) so i had to leave early from school for like 2 hours to go to the doctor and it happened to be during the only period that i see joe. and then tonight amanda and mike went out and i was stuck at home watching the kids and joe and i didnt really get to spend any time together. so i am really sad because i wanted this day to be perfect... i thought that nothing couple ruin it but of course it was ruined. The one day that means so much to me and its all screwed up. But im glad that Amanda and Mike had a nice romantic time together for their 6 day anniversary while i had to stay home and cry all night. I bid you all farewell. | | |
| wow things have been awefully hard lately. a lot of fights and stuff. its all stupid shit anyways. but yeah, it doesnt mean that it hurts any less. its crazy how things can go from perfect to terrible in such a short amount of time. i really wish that things could be perfect but i know that they cant be. life sure can be confusing sometimes. i guess that its just something ive got to deal with right now. hopefully i will have a good weekend. but who knows, that may get completely screwed up, too. Yeah this just isnt my week at all. | | |
| Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life
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| okay well that entry was supposed to be freaking private but oh well. i hope today is better than yesterday. and the day before that. and the day before that. and the day before that. so yeah. that has been my wonderful week. all bad days. why dont i just go for the rest of the week? 7 days of feeling like shit... and just to add to my misery, i still havent made up all my school work so i have like 2 a's, 1 c, and the rest b's. so im really pissed off about that. so now i get to go to school and be miserable and then come home and lock myself in my room listening to my anger music. hopefully trying to calm myself down. but we will see what happens today. | | |
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