so here i am in washington for my boeing internship and boy, am i nervous! i'm so afraid that they'll ask me questions about things and i'll have NO IDEA what the answer is. and then i'll just look stupid. i HATE looking stupid.

so i'm just really hoping that its more of a teaching/learning process. blah. i'm sure i'll do fine. i always freak out about this sort of stuff.

i have to start work at 6 in the morning! 6!?!?!? ughhh. i'm trying to think positive by saying, "hey i get out early at 230!". but man..... 6am. thats not a pretty time. well ... not a pretty time for everyone else when they are looking at me. yikes. watch out for charlotte in the morning.

i miss my friends in austin. =( i know i'll probably have a good time this summer in washington (even with all the damn rain) but i still cant wait until august.

just trying to get through.

things are tough. and i know that i seem ok to everyone else. and i am ok.. to an extent. i just feel empty inside. i just miss my dad.

everyone loses someone close to them at least once in their life.. but why does it have to happen to me now? i'm only 19. most 19 year olds dont have to deal with such a serious death. its just hard. really hard.

at least my classes are still going well. only have 2 finals. one on saturday and one on tuesday. and of course they are both bitches -- materials and dynamics. doesnt that sound really sucky? cause trust me. the names dont lie -- they are really sucky.