Today was one of those days i watched the droplets of rain fall with the least enthusiam....being the type of weird-ass contemporary person that i am.. i love walking or dancing in the rain, gazing at stars, or even taking time to smell the flowers...for some reason, the rain was just as inviting, but in a different manner, i found myself walking in the rain with its droplets comforting me, juz as though they knew the grieve in my heart was not enough to produce the tears needed to make me feel better, juz as though they were the only thing that understood how i felt in this whole world..juz as though they were crying along with me..did alot of self reflection today, i wish i didnt coz it hurts but it's just the truth i have to accept in time..i hate, detest, and loathe being who i am, how i look, and what i do...it's easier to be an fugly person on the outside in this world.. at least u noe that when people favour you, they favour you for who you are inside.. at least it's comforting to know ur a complete and self-actualized person...at least u know people u love love u back genuinely...at least u know ur not a wall flower people stop to admire for a while before they move onto another ...what is the difference between family, friends, loved ones and strangers? i'm still trying to understand how they differ from each another in my life....