I..

1. face _, for the millionth time.
2. am getting annoyed/bored with my piercings
3. feel nice and clean and err fragrant.?
4. am beginning to really get worried about next week
5. am happy that tomorrow's the last day of mids for many! plus tomorrow's finally finally the last day that _! hehh, good riddance.
6. feel terrified that time has passed by so fast for the last couple of weeks 
7. don't know how to react to the whole cake thing that's seriously never gonna end huh.
8. am happy that i might be going to bake with R soon! ^^
9. am considering hair extensions..? opinions??
10. should go and study now

hold on to your words,
cuz talk is cheap.

I..

1. haven't been studying very much at all
2. have been sick on and off, and very tired
3. finally took off my braces yesterday, after about three and a half years
4. do not like how i look without braces. i resemble my ex favourite boy's ex.
5. find it pointless to bother too much about mids anymore. but being soo extremely unprepared (and overwhelmed) does make me rather sad. i am going to fail ever so miserably.
6. need tlc, booze, and big fat assuring hugs from my favourite people.
7. miss my bestfriend, sylvia ann ranque chee yi wei
8. ought to go on a serious diet after mids
9. am confused about a range of specific friend/s, enemies
10. shall have to spot topics for history and ss, and hope for the best
11. feel uncertain.
12. love and hate someone at the same time and feel like a f/ed up hypocrite
13. have been on binge after binge of late
14. am not going to make another mistake, again. i'm gonna cling on to whatever hope i bring myself to find in you. you can't possibly be a mistake.
15. cannot wait to meet the people i miss to bits after mids are finally over and done with
16. need to find myself at the foot of the cross
17. am disappointed with myself for being such a failure of a mugger
18. can't lose what i never had
19. am trilled that sylvia and i coincidentally have similar precious moments cross stitches framed and hung near our beds, and have chinese names that make us seem like sisters (yi wei and yi en)
20. really shouldn't be making this pointless list

oh the judges,
they shall frown.

Don't worry i cant run that fast
my legs can't carry the rest of me that far
dont worry you'll still be able to place me
to place me
you point your finger right on me

and all i want from you is love..

so much for love.

HI. i am going to type whatever comes to mind. i'm in a very strange mood now, i feel very irritable and yet very happy at the same time. you know you know, manzang but happy. haha i think the immense heat plus the reoccuring headaches ive been getting that's gotten to my brain har har har. anyway, i skipped chinese tuition today and it's 8:46 pm and i havent done any work yet ha ha shit this is so horrible. anyway i just wrote a letter to post to sylvia, i'm quite pleased with it! (: cept that it ain't very colourful plus it ain't as nice as hers but it's okay cos i put quite a bit of thought into it so yes that's what matters (: so yes i'm feeling really happy about that, though i've no idea when i'm ever gna find the time (yet again) to go and post it. so bestf, if you're reading this, it's time to get excited with anticipation! :D teeheee. (: so yes, that is one thing that made me happy today. another, is that i've finally printed out sylvia's and charmaine darling's baby photos and i've put them nicely in my wallet. like omg hehehehe yay finally. okay this post is really retarded and gay but im seriously quite happy with myself and how i've thoroughly wasted yet another day (did i menition? we didn't quite do anything in school today) i feel like a kid again, doing sweet yet childish bestfriendish things like these hahaha. cannot wait for midyears to be over! i miss having the luxury of having nothing to do. and oh! the weather's perfect for taking a dive into the pool in my brown bikini with white polkadots that i love many many YES but i have no time to do such shiok shiok things now because of the goddamn midyears AHH must use my time properply must use my time wisely. do you know ive gotten fatter? ok who am i kidding of course you know. like my legs are all soft and wobbly again, after getting slightly tougher after pft period. now they're all wobbly again PLUS they're getting bigger, this is bad! my room is in an absolute mess, i have no idea how i'm gonna study plus how i'm gonna make space on my bed for me to sleep hahaha shit arent girls supposed to be all ocd neatish haha actually i am okay, just that it comes in seasons and now is the season where i couldnt care less SO THERE, deal with it kthnx BYE.

IT'S SO HOT UGH.!

i hate you and how you treat me like t r a s h.

050106'

J the (S) <3

i'm sorry, i'm sorry.