whoa...it's xanga time.

soo..lately i've been UBER busy with a loada crap i don't wanna explain..

this is year going by SOOOO quickly..i didn't realize until yesterday that APRIL is almost over..wut the flip??

just finished watching "100 days with mr. arrogant"---> cute movie, but SOOOO unrealistic..

i used to swoon over fantasy-esque korean movies where there's a realy cute guy who's mean in the beginning and then turns all romantic on you..but lately..reality's the only thing that i think about.

i mean COME ON! when in the heck is some uber sexy guy gonna come over to you BY CHANCE...live next to you BY CHANCE...do all this cutesy stuff (while still being extremely cool and confident) for a person like ME?! HUH?! it's just not gonna happen..

and you know wut else? the thing that's making me so upset is that i have these CRAZYYY expectations that somehow/somewhere, it's gonna happen..i wait.wait.wait. and then nothing does...and then i get really upset/depressed/emo/stupid. additionally, there are ABSOLUTELY ZERO note-worthy people in my stinkin life...(ie: high school) bahh..

i mean some people have all this crazy drama going on about liking this person and that person..they do all this stuff together and they have a hard time letting go..and here i am..moping around about dumb stuff..

WELL YOU KNOW WHAT?!

NO MORE EXPECTATIONS ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE!! (not that i had one to begin with..it's nonexistent as of now)

i mean..i wish i had one of those childhood guy buddies who you used to hang out...wait...actually i did have one of those..but he lives in stinkin NEW JERSEY and probably forgot about me.

:sigh:.. stupid movie...

HOLY SCHMOOKEEESS.....

SAT's are tomorrow..wow..i didn't realize it until 3 days ago. ahh..

i'm semi-nervous about tomorrow. this will be my second time taking the exam so there's pressure for me to do well after i had all this tudoring and wut not.

i hate how colleges look at this score and base ur acceptance on a freaakkinnng APTITUDE TEST~~..it hows absolutely nothing about me OR the potential i have at that college..it's just another exam that asks u random, stupid questions and from there...you're basically A NUMBER.

:on a brighter note:

i have recently been watching season 4 of project runway..

i think being a designer or anything is one of the most difficult jobs to have. you not only have to please yourself, you have to please your client/company, get everything in on time, have a constant flow of ideas, and work endless hours trying to finish a project

i wish i could make my own clothes sometimes..

:on a bad note:

-i have been wasting my life away on the computer

- i gained a gajillion pounds..which are making me feel irritable, PMS-y 24/7, groggy, lazy, and GINORMOUS

- my grades are ppooopp

- i have nothing to look forward to anymore...my life is a never ending cycle

- i average about 2 1/2 hours of sleep every night

- whenever i need to study for a test, i find my self drooling all over my book 10 min. into my "settle down" mode

- people are just getting on my last nerve