I don't think I'm going to be blogging anymore..

It will take me a while to actually shut down my site,
because I want to go through my past and save any blogs that mean something to me..

But no one really comes on here anymore..
And the few that do can get ahold of me on other sites, or by phone.

soooo.. yeah..

I'm on day 9,

and the urge to smoke is actually getting stronger.

This sucks.

I made it past three days with no smoking!

The first three days are always my hardest..

I want to celebrate..

who has a smoke?!?

I made it through the first day of not smoking.

It sucks.. i'm moody.. I have a headache.. The chantix isn't helping at all..

But I've decided I'm strong enough to get through life without smoking.

Tomorrow is my third day, which is always my hardest..

It's also the day my friend is coming to California to visit..

I have a feeling I'm going to eff up tomorrow night..

We shall see.

I have medically induced bulimia.. blech.

I'm taking meds to quit smoking, and they make me really sick.

After every meal I end up in the bathroom, leaned over my toilet.

I hate throwing up... but I hate smoking even more.

Tomorrow is supposed to be the first day of no cigarettes..

wish me luck!