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| feeling the blues lately
don't you hate it when people who you know but shouldn't really care about make you feel like shit? it seems like everyone around me have been making me feel miserable, either directly or indirectly.
i know everyone has their own personal problems and issues, etc. but does that give them a right to treat others badly? among the perpetrators:
- friends who are only there if they have no one else to hang out with, who go running off as soon as someone more desirable comes along.
- friends who talk about making plans together one instant, and ditch you the next without any notice.
- those that talk endlessly about their fantastic night out, but don't ever bother to invite you to these things, with the assumption that because you have a significant other, you no longer feel the need to have a nice group night partying out. but oh... be sure to invite them to any event you play or else their feelings get hurt.
- ^ this is made worse when you find yourself taking care of their drunken ass whenever their friends ditch them at the end of the night (this has happened way too many times).
- people who stick around only because they think they can get something out of you.
- people who are so hung up on their exes/crushes that they end up getting used and tossed aside on a regular basis, and insist on coming to you for support. but then abandon you soon after.
- ^ may use your words of comfort as ammo against their exes/crushes whenever they fight.
- childish few who demand that people approach them/say hi to them first or else they think you hate them. source of a lot of unnecessary drama.
- people who say stupid/rude things constantly, so that they either offend others or just come off as plain annoying
- people who talk shit about their own friends behind their backs.
- people who just talk shit about everyone.
i didn't mean to sound like i'm harboring a lot of hate there... but these are just some of the things about people i find annoying lately.
and in terms of school mates, no one seems all too happy lately... with school and with each other. in addition, i refrain from planning any events because there are simply too many people who don't get along with each other. it always comes as a surprise to me whenever so-and-so tell me to keep an event planned a secret from another "friend" because they don't want them to be invited for whatever excuse they are using at the moment. why does it feel like high school all over again? i guess being in a class of about 100... from 9-5, monday to friday, can really take a toll on a person. i see friendships crumble and hostility grow between people. i hear way too much gossip for my own good. i see my own friends getting hurt by other people . simply put, it sucks to be here.
and even if i keep myself distanced...you can't avoid everyone.
on the other end of the spectrum... are those who cut ties with people. even though you haven't seen them in ages, and have done absolutely nothing to deserve this kind of shut out. maybe they like to keep their life neat and tidy, and will only associate themselves with people they talk to on a regular basis. or perhaps you are not popular, talkative, or interesting to their liking... or one of my sneaking suspicions... because they don't dig your significant other. or maybe they just want nothing to do with you anymore. i dunno... it all sounds very juvenile when i write it out in that way... but i guess i am just feeling pms-y lately. i guess, mentally, i have a list of people who have done that to me. it comes back to me all too clearly whenever i feel especially shitty. like lately.
anyway, i have a friggin surgery prac in 5 hours and i am typing this shit up at 4am. hopefully the weather gets nicer soon~ i think we can all use some needed sunshine
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| i ran the worldwide nike+ 10km marathon today! my time is 1 hour and 10 minutes. we only stopped once (briefly) when we reached the steep hill. anyhow, it was my first marathon. quite proud of ourselves :). and it was a lot of fun! my name's not on the website though because i left my electronic shoe tag at home... but here are some pictures for proof that i was there 
there were over two thousand people. we were part of the Zone 4 wave... the slow one 
the race begins! 
at the 1 km mark 
sprint to the finish! 
finished! four very exhausted runners 
rejoice! 
at the after-race concert with our thermal blankets 
yea the concert sucks! wtf band is the Fakers? 
end up taking pictures of our shoes 
our loot. trying to get our money's worth... it was $60 to run the race 
what are we gonna do with all this? T_T 
50 livestrong bracelets. haha. we are so asian 
J's view from his room. so damn nice! 
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| my very pink study area    
we have a vet crew court volleyball game coming up this saturday the 30th at 1pm. anyone who can make it is welcomed to join (don't need to be in vet.. but must be in the melbourne area)
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sweet september
like most girls, i am a sucker for romance. i think that is the problem...
when i was younger, i vowed that i will never settle for anything less than totally romantic, all the time. that doesn't happen in real life. romance only happens on occasion, and rarely when you expect it to.
and i don't think it's fair for the girl to expect something special all the time. like how it wouldn't be fair for a guy to expect a girl to be pretty and charming and alluring all the time. that only works in korean dramas. they are lucky to see a girl like that 1% of the time.
anyhow, i don't have anything deep and thought-provoking to say... i just wanted to remind myself that even though it is not romantic all the time... i am still quite happy right now... at this moment in time.
and if it doesn't work out in the end, i know that it wasn't a total waste of time (not even a bit of it). and that through all these years... i had a really good friend by my side (more so than a boyfriend)... who took care of me and stood up for me... and loved me. and in return, i took care of him (to the best of my abilities), tried my best not to be that big of a nuisance, and loved him as much as i could.
even though he may piss me off at least once a day (now that we live with each other... it is hard not to)... he is still someone who has chosen to remain by my side at the end of the day...
...even though i shout at him for being a moron (plenty of times), slap him in frustration (sometimes) and pinch his butt in front of our friends (all the time). he is someone who tries his best to remember the things that i like and not like... and is someone i would have been really good friends with if we weren't together.
anyway, a lot of people don't see this... but we talk a lot when it is just the two of us. we're not too serious with each other (at all) but we are still nice to each other deep down inside. i am just lucky to have someone who i can tell just about anything and everything to... whether he wants to hear it or not :p how i wish xanga was like that...
anyway, pictures are from the upcoming photo-movie Sweet September
btw... i haven't read Breaking Dawn yet because of all the damn spoilers out there that has ruined my perception of it. i hear it sucks, so i don't want to even read it now!
*whoops* classes in three hours and i haven't slept yet. and i am still sick! anyway, i'll try to blog more often... now that it's week 4 and i haven't done much studying yet... which means i am procrastinating for no reason. :]
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| beijing 2008 olympic games opening ceremony - the performances
watched the entire thing last night live on television. it was so magnificent! a lot of it took my breath away. my favourites parts were the sparkling olympics rings, the modern dance/painting, the laser scroll, the footprints in the sky, the moving tiles, the 2008 military drummers, the confucius scholars, dancers, the women of the different dynasties, the treasure fleets, the kids, the twinkly glowy green men, the singing, the rising pagodas, the fireworks... the lighting of the torch. it was funny when my friend and i were asking... "what next? future china... world domination?".. and then they had the whole globe thing. truly amazing!
i was quite moved by it all *tear*. i even stayed to watch all the countries coming into the stadiums (that was pretty long/boring though). cheered for our fellow Canadians... there were so many of them! and felt a sense of pride definitely for Canada and the motherland, China.
for a moment there, the world forgot about all the criticism and controversy over china and just focused on the games. it was very memorable :). i hope everyone gets a chance to watch it
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one of the most important people in my life... my cousin and "big sis" Kirtrina got married legally today! since it was such a lucky day for the Chinese. 08/08/08. congratulations to her and Richard... i can't wait to attend the actual wedding ceremony sometime next year. can't wait to go home to see everyone then ^_^
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