the good die young.

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my adapter was plugged into a 110v instead of 220v. it totally melted the inside of the power cord =( lucky me, the first ever acer store opened at megamall but of course they still have shitty service. i was told i was "lucky" because since the store is so new, they dont have much in stock of replacement parts. and they just happened to have the one i need! i went there tuesday to get it and they said its not yet in. then wednesday, theyre like "hey didnt we say we'd call you?" and im like "hey fcuktard, dont you need to ask for my numbers to do that?"

!$%R!#@!#!! another P500 gone to waste. at least i only paid a downpayment instead of in full.

anyway, i dont know when ill ever get a new adapter and power cord. ive been having internet withdrawals this past week

cousins from australia and hong kong are here. im very confused. its weird to hang out cos we dont know each other. sometimes we offend each other without meaning to. but when that happens i learn more about how to interact with them and what to say and not say.

Spell with Flickr a fun little program that lets you spell words with photos of letters from Flickr. If you don't like the photos that are first given then click the letter and it will change them for you.


when i was younger i would go through magazines to cut out letters for projects. i wish i had this site back then :P

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you know 90% of people's problems are due to their inability to get over the past?
-12 and holding

this movie was surprising. the girl is young pumpkin from memoirs of a geisha. she looks so different without makeup on!

ugh, i swear this is now my "i miss joe so much" site. my apologies. i need somewhere to vent all my frustrations. to feel like someone is listening or at least skimming through it. i understand though if you dont. its not exactly the best reading material to start or end your day.

i get tired of the heartache, i dont wanna feel this way anymore. but if there's "good days" when im alright, i start to feel guilty at the end of the day for getting over him. for starting to forget. every day is a challenge. how do i cope with this pain in a different way? i think i need to take more time. im tryna rush the healing process to get back on track w school and everything but now i think its doing me more harm than good. by not thinking about it and keeping busy. i dont wanna have emotional baggage. i dont wanna find out later that i buried things in my mind that im tryna forget. so with the rainy season starting up again, i gotta rethink my grieving process. its gonna be a rough couple of months coming up in so many ways. im afraid of taking on more units than im ready for. i have til july 1 to decide how im gonna handle this, how many units to take.

so anyway, these damn mosquitos wont quit biting me! i got the electronic fan on blast to deter them from flying towards me but it makes it hard to hear the movie!

everyone has different tastes in movies. so no matter whose house i go to, i end up borrowing between 5-10 pirated movies. and after i return them, there's always more waiting for me! i love it! =) =)

also youtube is doing the entertainment industry a favor. instead of me buying 029345024635 illegal movies and tv shows, i can just watch it online! before it gets taken down :P i'd watch full episodes on their respective sites but its not allowed out of the US =( =(

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i saw legally blonde the broadway musical on youtube last week. soo cute! i loved it! me and michelle were singing along cos i guess mtv put lyrics on the bottom :P now im currently watching "12 and holding." coming-of-age movie

yesterday i borrowed
no country for old men
ratatouille
21 grams
i know who killed me
in the land of women
license to wed
pride and prejudice
the last kiss
a scanner darkly

this works out for me because its not bad quality. my family doesnt buy movies that consist of someone holding a cell phone camera in a movie theater to tape the whole thing lol. also i dont mind the chinese or bad english subtitles.

BUT i went to abenson the other week to check out new air conditioner prices. OMG i saw my first HDTV ever!! its like i could touch the small pieces of gravel on the road under that shiny shiny car! P70,000! the US exchange rate is fluctuating again. YES! more allowance for me! :P a month ago that HDtv cost $1667 and as of last week it still cost P70k but now its worth $1569. uhm, i forget how big the screen was. 40 inches?

also for trisha's bday we bought hella tvshows all for $16! if i like it enough, ill buy the real thing in the states later.
one tree hill seasons 1-3 i started watching it again cos im bored and iono what happened after i left in 2005. pretty tame stuff though since after watching gossip girl :P

kyle ky 1. no thanks

ugly betty 1 i love this show! its so funny and cute and i love the clothes =) and amanda! i already saw season 2 on youtube =)

heroes season 2

the office 1-3 i bought it cos i heard so much about it and joe loved it. ive only watched the first episode so far and i HATE it! maybe joe only told me the parts he knew i would laugh at. it seems like such a guy show. maybe ill start watching it again later

30 rock 1-2. i keep hearing good stuff about this show too. i dont think its great though. i watched all of season 1 for the hell of it, but iono when ill finish 2 yet.

gossip girl. i like this show! ive tried to stay away from drama shows since i came back from US but this show i like! 100% of the time, i dislike pretty girls after i find out how bitchy/conniving they are. but blaire! i cant stop liking her! maybe cos we also see her vulnerable side. and i cant get enough of her clothes! i looked her up on wikipedia and she's 22. i always stay away from clothes that make me look like a little girl but maybe i shouldnt do that anymore. cos im picky and its hard for me to shop esp when i only like the simple stuff. if i completely shun clothes that make me look younger, then i dont have much left to choose from that fit me! now i just need a job.. or a credit card :P

when i can, ima buy desperate housewives seasons 3-4 and pushing daisies. who has the time/money to watch a $4 movie! not me =)

i have zero pictures of me as a baby. divorce is ugly. things get lost along the way. he said she has my baby album, she said he has it. =(

we went to tarlac this weekend. my grandpa is dying =(
he had a heart attack last november and was slowly improving since then. i feel bad for not visiting him more often but i was busy with school =( joe wanted to meet him. i was telling my lolo to please hold on until joe could come. then joe died may 4, my grandpa's bday. and lolo had a cerebral aneurysm the next day. coincidence?

lolo is living on oxygen tanks which are pretty expensive.
after fook chuen left the room, my grandma started crying and asking me what she should do. use her remaining money to let him live even though he'll only be a vegetable, or the other option and send him to God. i told her it was up to her, i wouldnt know what to do. [i didnt think i was in a good position to say anything. i didnt get to decide when joe would leave me, but she does.]

then we did this prayer.
in the middle of it, lola says and please take care of chloe. you know how she is feeling right now. please help her be strong.. at this point i was tearing up. everyone at the house was ignoring me but then i realized they just wanted to give me space. ..and help her find a much better man. LOL so instead of crying i started laughing instead! i forgot that she didnt approve of joe! when he was here, i was "sneaking out" of the house to go see him. not really, i told her where i was going and then she told everyone related to us that i was being difficult. and sometimes joe would miss me so much that he'd come over late at night even though he shouldnt [cos im the girl] and sleep over in the same room as me and my sisters. we didnt do anything, but because im in pi im being a "bad influence."

gosh, i miss that :P

then we went home and i raided the family plastic bags again for more baby pictures of me and ones of my dad yes! =) a month ago i posted about wanting a family pic. we couldve taken one at the funeral but i didnt want to. it didnt seem right. here's one of the three of us though :P


how me and joe celebrate father's day without kids.
joe: who's your daddy?
chloe: you are! you are!

lol <333