so, 3 weeks ago, i did something minor, but stupid and got suspended for 10 days, got put on probation for the rest of my year here, and had my prefectship taken off. as to what i did, we shall not delve into that, but do know that it involves nonesuch alcohol, drugs, or plagerism. up to this day, i'm still behind in terms of work because of the self learning during those 10 days. that's how much a suspension sucks.
after that, came back to school for a week, and the fall term long weekend came. an actual vacation? nope. just meant a heavier work load. some came to me and said "wow lucky you you had an extra holiday", or "chow how was your vacation?" my response? just nod and smile. or add a line saying "it was boring." but they all don't know how much i'm fucked for work, college apps, even the course of my future. who knows? maybe if this didn't happen, i could've got into the my ED choice and be a happy man. what the hell, come what may.
and one last note: i really mean it when i said "i will never leave you."
"Chaos theory describes the behavior of certain nonlinear dynamical systems that under certain conditions exhibit a phenomenon known as chaos. In physics and mathematics, chaos is a word with a specialized meaning, one that
differs from the everyday use of the word.
To
a physicist or a mathematician, the phrase "chaotic motion" really has nothing
with whether or not the motion of a physical system is frenzied
or wild in appearance. In fact, a chaotic system can actually
evolve in a way which appears smooth and ordered."
the Lorenz attractor; a.k.a. the "Butterfly Effect"
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Why can scholarly people point out the things ordinary people cannot? Because they look at the big picture.
Translation: Alcohol is not the drunk man's concern. Underlying Meaning: The man did not drink for the sake of the alcohol. There are other things on his mind that we as observers cannot tell.
