well its been two weeks exact since i last updated ya.. huh.. i kno no one really gets on xanga anymore but i still wanna update.. so school started its goin pretty good so far im liking all my classes so far..work is alright just really tiring an gettin old same shit really.. life like my life.. i am ok.. i am not the happiess girl anymore but i am still alive waking up every morning just hoping i get thru the day.. ya i umm im pretty well just very depressed alot.. i dont even wanna explain much jus that..

Has your heart ever wanted to ask someone something..but your mind wouldn't let you because it was too afraid to know the answer

when u hurt me i stil wanted u when u ignored me i stil smiled at u when u were with another girl i was stil happy 4 u and after all this time i still love u

i'm so scared to lose youwhen you aren't even mine

the first time I felt true pain was when I saw you declare your love for her.. and I saw my heart break into a
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the only girl that deserves you is the one who thinks she doesn't. the one that will stick by your side no matter how much you mess up. and the one who will forgive you mistake after mistake

i sigh with tears in my eyes flop myself down onto my bed & whisper over & over " what did i do wrong? "

she's starting to wonder if the tears will ever s t o p