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Name: chrysanthemum
Country: Hong Kong
Metro: Hong Kong
Gender: Female
Interests: books, blue (the color), boys, boy-watching, listening to music, the library, danny phantom, sheng from silversun, and having fun!!!!!
Expertise: fooling around, getting into trouble, teasing, pointless arguing, cartoons (arthur...danny phantom....silversun) and boy-watching
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Member Since:
12/21/2005
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| this is too true... the supposed meaning of my birthday... You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true. Your Love, You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight is not your style. Your greatest WEAKNESS ...Pessimistic, haughty and sometimes unsociable and miserly. what??? is that even possible? how can something random online like from facebook tell me exactly who im without making me do this psychological tests and all that, but just from making me enter my birth date. this is crazy. if anyone can bother to read this, tell me if it sounds like me or not... | | |
| Goodbye's the saddest word (celine dion's song...) this part of "the luckiest girl" made me cry each and every time i read it. it's something hartley wrote in shelley's yearbook, when they knew they might not see each other, not knowing if it is only for a short while or forever. "His handwriting was firm and sure. 'Dear Shelley,' he had written. 'There is so much that I could say to you. I could begin with the day you walked into that classroom looking eager and a little frightened. I could write about the wonderful way you have of looking as if you thought something exciting was about to happen -but why write these things? It all means just one thing. I love you, Shelley. I really do. And now -good-bye. Hartley." its not so mushy. but so real and profound and candid. i love it. and then shelley says to a friend. "I guess that's what growing up is. Saying good-bye to a lot of things. Sometimes it is easy and sometimes it isn't. But it is all right." and thats the universal truth. this book was written in 1958; but the thing is while communications has become increasingly easy, the fact that good-byes remain hard still stands. even with letters, phone calls, e-mails, instant messaging, web cams, facebook- even though your message can reach your friend within 1 second even if you're a million miles away; it's not the same as being there. on the contrary, it makes it all the more harder if you know that these technologies exist, but either yourself or your friend doesnt seem to be able to find time to keep in touch. the thing about goodbyes are that you never know whats going to happen in the future, whether you can still remain friends, whether you can grow seperately without growing apart. you can never tell whats going to happen or whats going to change, all you can do is hope for the best. which is what makes goodbyes so hard. another more recent quote from "mountain solo" by jeanette ingold (2003): "Learning to say goodbye is part of growing up. It's a lesson you have to relearn occasionally, no matter how old you get." and also from my favorite tv series, "naturally sadie" (2006): "I may never get used to saying goodbyes." goodbyes. it's happened quite a few times to me, and trust me, it doesnt get easier. i guess, at least you know, the harder each goodbye is, means that the closer friends you've got, and then greater memories you've shared together. and thats something to be happy about. =) one of these days. we're going to go our own way. we'll be graduating soon. they say you never miss the water until it's gone, and that absence makes the heart grow fonder. after 5 years of waiting for the 3:45 pm bell to ring, i cant believe that after the study leave, that i actually MISS school now. its not going to be the same again. everyone would have already be living seperate lives by then. on the positive side though, if there were no goodbyes, then there wouldnt be new hellos, new friends or new anythings. and of course. its always cool to reminisce, and its ok to miss someone or something. instead of hiding your feelings, claiming that "i'm not missing you" (stacie orrico, 2006); embrace your emotions, let the future come, and dont be afriad to say "I MISS YOU" (klymaxx, 1984) so CHIMO~(inuit greeting, ie ben harrison's famous line in "naturally sadie", meaning goodbye-duh!) at least until we meet again. | | |
| Counting down the days its a beautiful day. and in a little more than a month, we can go out and experience this kind of wonderfulness. (i dont care if this is not a word) missing the feeling when sun kisses your arms and legs on a brillliant summer day. *yippeee...i miss my sandals!* Freedom in T MINUS 40 DAYS =))))))) | | |
| GLOOMY/WASTED the weather is abs awful. (im probably the only person who dislikes spring soooo much.) yah. i guess the rain is better than the preceding stuffiness tho, im like screaming PLEEEZE RAIN!!!!! please get it over with!!!! its really weird tho that its in this kind of time i have to stay home and study, all the more the gloominess then! at least i suppose that its not sunny and i wouldnt wanna go out instead. really. the weather DOES srsly affect your mood, and mind. it messes with it really. but at least now i can watch sadie (ATV World, mon/wed, 5:05pm)/silversun(ATV World, tue/thur, 5:05pm)/new season of ARTHUR(ATV World, sat/sun, 5:30pm)! can you believe it? TV as consolation? haha. thanks to those 10A/8A ppl, who believe in watching TV can srsly improve your english, no one can really do anything about me watching TV anyway, it's only like an hour a day anyway, how can THAT hurt? DISCONNECTED WITH THE WORLD
ironically im not exactly disconnected with the world, i actually have to even read the news more, since well my mom is making me, and i dont have the heart to argue. and reading the paper is cool really when you have time. but on the other hand, going on study leave is like being a hermit, you know that you can go online, talk on the phone and watch TV, but you cant go out or anything. you hear from your schoolmates, but its not as if you can see them and thats the big difference there. its only the second day since the hols but i already miss school so much, and its like i wasnt ready to say goodbye on the last day. it was tentative. but even if im not sure if im ever going back, some people arent DEFINITELY NOT. whether they are close to you or not, its gonna be different w/o them around. MAKING THE HIGH SCORE FOR JAMMIN' WITH HANNAH ha. online games. what i do when my kid sister's around. yah, and just recently i made a personal high, making perfect score on the advanced level (middle level) and yah, it's a satisfying thought. me making high score at ANYTHING is hilarious, i grew up plaing my friends' GBA during school christmas parties!!! and my fingers and my brain obviously dont work very well with each other. huh. READING acutally, Lin Yutang's book about the art of reading is pretty good, even tho i dont tend to understand everything he's talking about. he really makes a lot of good points and makes reading worthwhile. (m actually reading the chinese verson..=)))other book i just finished was the "empress of the world" about two girls with homosexuality preferences. what i got out of it was on the other was more of something else. this girl found out that words dont always work and that emotions cant always be explained. it reminds me of "The Math" which is some song by hilary duff. its cool. not all people like to be analysed, can be analysed or need to be analysed ....but the lack of analysis takes the fun out of crushing. =) which is partly responsible for my wastedness. im so not used to the lack of observations which result to the lack of analysis. *groan* all ive got as forementioned left to analyse is actually TV shows and some books. if anybody even bothered to read this far. *doubt* the above should hardly make any sense as its all a stream of consciousness and no proofreading, so the linkages and grammar more or less sucks. but who cares? its my blog, and i can do whatever i like with it. | | |
| from naturally sadie..(shady) whassup...whassup with that dawg? you scarf your dinner like a hog and you didnt even leave a tip that is bad, totally unhip... (does this sound like reallllllly bad rap?????) another one: "Shady Sadie" ---Run EXE/ Ben Harrison (really love this poem/song....SHADY SADIE SHE AINT NO LADY!!!) she left me b4 we even started i was shattered so broken hearted it was like getting kicked in the head, how could u do this 2 me red? in front of the family at dinner now i'm the loser and you're the winner for 2 weeks she was my lady but in the end she acted so shady life's not fair it should seem so now it's time for me to say chimo does it capture the "universal feeling of the dumped"? anyway, love it....would try to put the clip online...or you can always call me, and i'd let you see it on tape,,,xddd so. chimo~ | | |
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