Not only am I too shy, I'm too fuckin nice, and therefore not aggressive enough.  The good ones/things pass me by because I don't do anything, and the unwanted starts to happen because I can't be a bitch and scream it to his face that "I don't fuckin want you! Get away from me!"  Yeah, I'm the girl that over and over dodges the advances until I can open the door and feel safe again.  Just 'cause a guy makes a move doesn't mean I have to accept and reciprocate it...so what if you feel like an ass, you put yourself on the table.  You should've known I'd shoot you down in a second.  Fuckin men...so dense sometimes.  I'm not that easy. 

I think I'm starting to believe that there are certain people that come into our lives for a reason...but their presence seems to be fleeting.  Of course you have the friends you'll have forever, who are always going to be there for you, who you would die for and trust with your life...but then there are those other few...the ones that touch you, inspire you, and most importantly, give you hope, but then *poof* they go.  Perhaps not forever.  Sure maybe you'll keep in touch, then again, maybe you won't...

Yeah, I am too shy.  What's wrong with telling someone they've restored some hope to your life?  There's nothing embarassing about that, right?  There shouldn't be.  But for a girl whose heart beats faster when called on in class, or who blushes when she speaks to more than 4 people at a time, who believes in the beauty of tragedy and the power of belief, it is a big deal.  I admit I don't look shy, and no one thinks I am by the way I dress, but you've all got me all wrong...what a fault I need to overcome. 

Disappointment seems to love me.  I don't know why.  Because I've been given the world and should have nothing to be sad or unhappy about?  I know I'm lucky.  I'd rather be happy than lucky.   

This is all just bullshit.  I'll just sleep it all off.  And eventually get over it for the time being.

MOTHAFUCKKKAAAAAS!!!!! 

WE ROCK and the world knows it.   

I can't believe it's been 4 years already!!  And look at us, growin up, spread out across the world.  It obviously goes without saying that my college experience would have been unbearable without you guys...who even knows if I would've made it.  Seriously.  Well I'm gonna try to skip being all sappy n shit on Xanga, 'cause I'm so not a xanga whore...But let's just say that you girls have changed my life in countless ways, and I am oh so thankful for having you in my life.  I  LOVE  YOU!!!  ~Your P.S.S.

Random thought: what animals eat sugarcane?

Nov 3 - Another night at Kaveh's...

Nov 4 - Karaoke

Nov 16/17: Midterm...I PAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSEEEEEDDD!!  But I really suck ass...=(

My 600 or so words:

Nov 17 - Armin Van Buuren at Banana...CRAZY awesome party!!

P.S. - Silk sheets are a great investment  =D, one of the many things attained on my shopping spree 

Nov 22 - Class field trip to a Tea House

Lush at night...

Nov 23 - Skipped class, went shopping, met up for a class Thanksgiving dinner