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Saturday, January 13, 2007

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 08:11:57 GMT

You're never prepared for stuff like this. All you can do is go with what you know...and make the best out of any situation that you're put in.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 10:26:11 GMT

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Sunday, December 17, 2006

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 05:34:20 GMT

UOYTUOBAKNIHTINEHWFLESYMTUOBALEEFIYAWEHTETAHI

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 09:43:39 GMT

SOMETIMESIWISHICOULDJUST~~DISAPPEAR~~

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 10:21:54 GMT

Ugh...I feel like a freakin' rollercoaster.

If real life were like Nintendo I could totally get unlimited ammunition of happiness. up,up,down,down,left,left,right,right,a,b,a,b,select,start

What's weird about this mood is that I had a kick-ass day.

Ifeelweird.Thatisall.

On a brighter note, earlier I found out that my vball girls went to the Univ of New Mexico and won the tournament they were in. I haven't heard any of the other details just yet, but I'm sure I'll get filled in by tomorrow's end.

Things I'm thankful for:

my parents, my new living arrangements, school starting oh-so soon, the fact that my truck runs, my friends, all the mass amounts of food I have at home, my nephew Logan, I'm healthy, my fraternity, my dreams, and my job. I'm sure there's more...but it's 5:30am.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 08:18:25 GMT

Hmmm...I've been slightly obsessed with Radiohead lately. In hs when they were getting really big I wasn't terribly impressed with them. I liked their vids bc they were weird, but other than that I really didn't understand the message they were getting across. I can't stop listening to them now! It's only been a few days, but I'm thinking this might...just might...turn into quite an unhealthy situation. lol I'm not really sure Tool is going to get knocked off their number 1 spot...or even that NIN is going to drop to number 3...but they're up there for sure.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Radiohead

Fake Plastic Trees

A green plastic watering can
For a fake chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth

That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself

It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns

He used to do surgery
On girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins

And it wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him out

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love

But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run

And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out

And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time

poetry.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 09:51:41 GMT

I'm up REALLY late for not having to work.

It's weird when you ask some people for their unconditional support in a funky situation, sometimes it feels like they say yes just because that's what they think you want to hear. I don't understand why people have malice inside of them. What makes someone so spiteful inside that ugly words just fly out of their mouth? What makes people ugly on the inside. I am usually such a good judge of character. I can spot that almost immediately in someone...I was just a little too starry eyed on this one. I guess I got so caught up in all the hype of "brotherhood" that I didn't even bother looking for any genuine badness.

Don't get my wrong. I'm only talking about a very select few here. For the most part I've found an amazing group of guys. Most are people that are genuinely good. But there are two that are really making me take a second look at all of this.

Radiohead definitely said it best...

Creep

When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye.
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
in a beautiful world
I wish I was special,
you're so fucking special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here

She's running out the door,
she's running,
she run, run, run, run, run.

Whatever makes you happy,
whatever you want.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special,

but I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here,
I don't belong here.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 06:25:53 GMT

Good news/bad news.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 19:06:24 GMT

Some more good ones:

Kevin Fowler - Not Lovin' Anymore

Chorus:
I feel sorry for the next girl in line, whoa
She ain’t got a chance in hell
The last one taught me not to let my guard down
Yeah, I’ve learned my lesson well, I’m not lovin’ anymore

If I seem like a jaded man
I’ve been burned time and again
By the flames of love, Lord above
Knows I try real hard
Not sure that I’m through with love
One thing I am sure of
I don’t want to feel this way again
So I'll tell ya now

Chorus

I’d be a fool to try again
Love’s a game you just can’t win
So for a while I think that I’ll
Sit out of the game
All the hurt and pain I feel
The wounds of love take time to heal
So don’t be a-thinkin that I’ll be a-lovin’ soon
So I'll tell ya now

Chorus

Kevin Fowler - I'll Try Anything Twice

Way back when I was in High School,
I had a girl her name was emmy sue.
One friday at the ball game,
She said I had it I'm breakin' up with you
Come along bout a monday morning.
She said she'd changed her mine.
I'm still that same old school boy,
Take her back each time..... oh..

Chorus:
Cuz I'll try anything twice, ain't no needin' bein nice.
Treat me like dog hell thats alright, go ahead and walk on me tonight.
If you want me back agian, I'll come running like the wind.
My ol' heart my pay the price, 'cause I'll try anything twice.... yes I will.

Way back when I was a young man,
Had a boss who treated me like a dog.
One friday at the days'end,
He said you fired don't come around here no more.
Come along bout a monday morning,
He said boy are you comein' in.
Now it's twenty years later,
And I'm still workin' for that man...... oh....

Chorus

Bridge:
Some fools they never seem to learn, they keep on comin' back.
Some folks they never seem to see the lines.
One day I'll show the whole world the man I am inside..till then I'll be the fool who never flys

Chours

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 13:23:46 GMT

My two new unoffical theme songs:

Shooter Jennings - The Song is Still Slipping Away:

With a bag, a bottle and this old guitar
In the back of some bus on the road
I'm living the high life with nothing to show
But a love that's letting me go
Your heroes turn out to be assholes
And the light in the tunnel that you're chasing is a train
The singer's in key the guitars in tune
But the song is still slipping away
The lights of the city paint a stage in the night
For two hearts breaking in time
Wild horses are cursed with their freedom in mind
And a hunger left burning inside

and Roger Craeger - Having Fun All Wrong

Well I guess you were right.
The Bluebonnets are worth the drive and
Now I'm here in Canyon Lake alone.
I know you came here
When you were down and feeling blue.
And it helped you sort out the pieces on your own.

But I'm seeing what you saw. The spring time is beautiful and
I'm proud to call this country home. But I am missing you
As the sun is setting on me I think I'll crank up my pick-u p for San Anton'

CHORUS:
There ain't enough dance halls in Texas to keep my heart and mind occupied
I'm trying it all the time Yeah I'm out there every night
My truck has seen some miles to find the words to write this song
To get me back on top where I belong. But I'm not over you yet.
I must be having fun all wrong

That river run was a whole lot of fun especially when you're with the ones that
Bring you so much laughter and good times.
But that river it ran so low
That only means you go real slow and you take the time to enjoy the finer things in life.
So we showered and shaved in a bathroom stall in a Texaco on the way to Gruene Hall.
It was a sold out concert for one of my heroes that night. Hey I guess I'm alright
I'm just a little bit tired tonight. Getting over you has made a busy man of me.

CHORUS

Oh I've seen Jerry Jeff umpteen times this year
He just keeps getting better everyday. I followed Robert Ear Keen
From Dallas to the Sparkling City by the Sea I jumped up on the sea wall and sang Corpus Christi Bay

CHORUS

TAG:
Well I guess you were right
The Bluebonnets are worth the drive