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Thanksgiving

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 15:44:20 GMT

So, wow I have not been here forever. So it is Thanksgiving day and we got done eating like an hour ago. I have been home again for break this time. Visited a friend at Wittenburg for the weekend, drove home on Monday and have been home since. We had some friends over last night for a game night. It was pretty fun, but I think that we need newer games. I will write more later. Right now my dad is begging for me to get off the laptop.

Home

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 22:06:28 GMT

So, I am going home in less than 12 hours. It is going to be a really quick trip, but I am looking forward to it as much as possible, seeing the circumstances that I am going for.

My grandmama died last weekend, like I stated in my other entry and her memorial service is tomorrow. I think that it is going to be so strange for me b/c I have never exprienced a close death in my family before. It puts life in perspective for you. I am struggle with life right now, you know. Not like life itself, but what is my purpose and what am I suppose to do. Right now I am just living sun up to the next. I hope that something happens that will bring me excitement soon. Oh, back on subject, at the service tomorrow I will see my aunt's family. I saw three of them this past summer for like 4 weeks, but I have not seen my uncle and oldest cousin for like a year or something like that. So that will be nice to see them. My uncle is going to do the service, oldest cousin will lead the singing, he is an awesome singer, and my brother will give a prayer or something.

I never have attended a family funeral before and I am not sure how I will react. I guess you could say that I am a little nervous. Well, anyways. I will write again soon. Wish me a safe trip!

LIFE

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 23:09:27 GMT

So, I have not written in forever, but all is good, well as good as it can be.

My grandma just passed away Friday, in her sleep. It was for the best, but I am still going to miss her. It is different knowing they are still there somewhere and then knowing they are gone. I hope everyone at home is fine, especially my mom and Granddad. Memorial service is this Friday so I will be flying home for like a day for the service.

School has me busy like crazy. Studying all the time it seems, but then it doesn't. I am also working as much as possible too. I had a run in with my advisor today and was pretty upset by what he said to me. I just thought he confronted the whole situation the wrong way. I made a mistake in my wording of a question in the interview and it was taken the wrong way. I just am not sure about the whole training thing here. I feel very uncomfortable going in and now that this happened I really do not want to go in at all. I am just not sure what to do in a situation like this. So, that got me pretty upset today.

Other than that, I have been living life as much as possible with school work coming at you from every angle. I am hoping that the semester will get better especially in my A&P class. We have a test on Thurs. so pray that I will do well on it. Have gained a lot of new friends that crack me up a lot. They are seriously so funny sometimes!

Well, that is it.

TO MUCH TO DO > SO LITTLE TIME!!

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 21:52:00 GMT

So, I have been back at school for a 1 1/2 weeks. It feels like I have been here forever already though! Things went great coming down here and getting settled in. The only thing is where to find money to do laundry?!

I have started out great. I came to school with a different me. I am trying to be more confident in myself and in things around me. I would like people to look at me and say "WOW, I want to know who she is!" I think it is working so far to. I have met a lot of people already this semester and I am talking to people in my classes, etc.
Returning to the training room has been great. Funny how you miss something without realizing it. All the football players that I knew last year greeted me nicely on my first day back and I have met a few others too! They are great guys, at least out on the field when I talk to them a little or see them around campus. I am in class with four of them so that is fun. I don't travel with the team so I get to copy notes for them.

Classes are okay. I have a lot of work with them all. To much of it to get it all done in a day it seems. I mean I just feel like there is a lot, but there probably really isn't. I am worried about my A&P class. Have an exam next week that makes me a little nervous.

I have two jobs now. One is still at the Harding Pool, which I work two early morning shifts and one evening shift, that I might drop. The other job I just got at Searcy Athletic Club. I really like it so far. I also think that has to do with the fact that it is so different from lifeguarding. I have to wear an actual work outfit so that is different too! I get a free membership which is great for all the equipment that they have. I really like it so far!

Anyways, as you can probably guess that I do so much that there doesn't seem enough time sometimes to get things done, or I just completely forget to do it. I hope that I don't get tired of my schedule this semester, which would be bad seeing that it is only the second week of school. I can't wait for break already!!

Oh, I also have my horse here, which is great for stress release and makes me feel more at home. I love the fact that I can go out there and spend time with her, just being me and bounding with Pilgrim. I think that she really likes it here too!

Well, that is basically my life so far.
Oh, question of the week or month depending when I get on here again. . .
I have never just talked to a guy or went on a date . . . if someone asked, but I don't know him very well, should I say yes, or talk to him or what? And what if he isn't really my type? Any suggestions?

Friday, July 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 20:56:28 GMT

I can't believe that basically I only have a month and a half left of summer. It has gone by too fast. I start my second session of lessons this coming Monday. I should have about 9 people this time. I have had some people say something about the money and how much it cost. I do feel bad sometimes, but I am doing this on my own. Plus, it is not as bad as it is at Y's or anything. Plus, I really enjoy it and I think that some of the parents see that through their kids and how excited they are about swimming and learning new things. I just hope it all goes well. I didn't advertise really with this b.c my computer is in the shop and I can't print anything out that was on there. I hope that my computer is not to messed up b/c I do not have the money to fix something major. I got the Battle for Middle Earth II and have not really been able to play it b/c of whatever is wrong with my computer. It has been a somewhat relax week, but with emotional things happening. One of my friends is not really talking to me and I am not sure if I can talk to her about things that are happening in her life. Then this guy I have a crush on is disappointing and well any girl knows how that is. I am partial about going back to school seeing that I have no friends there and I am afraid I am going to do horrible in class, esp. A&P II. Sometimes I wish that I stayed at Lip b/c of my awesome friends there and we would always hangout and go to dinner together and weekends where a blast, but I couldn't stay for academic reasons, you know? Maybe, who does!
SOME VERY EXCITING NEWS IS THAT I AM GOING TO AUSTRALIA IN A YEAR!!! I am so excited about that and am trying to convince my friend Ellen to go with me. People pray that she will change her mind and go with me!!! It would be an amazing experience to have and to stay away from the drama that is happening in our lives.

It is weird what growing up does to people. You see how it effects all of us. One change by one person and it changes everything and everyone. Some people really grow and mature and do amazing things and other either don't change at all or grow less than what they were. I mean I look at people I knew when we were all little and it is funny to think of what they are going to do or what they are going to become. Like one man I know is making a difference in China and the people's lives there.

OH! Ellen, Jillian, and I went and saw the 12:02am showing of Pirates 2. Brilliant. Absolutly brilliant and amazing. There were some parts where I cringed, but I loved it all the same. Mum won't be able to see it.
Also saw Superman Returns. BEST plotless movie EVER! At least to me! I loved it. Maybe b/c I am not a super, Superman fan, but a fan all the same. So anything involved with that hero as well as many others, I will go see! Oh, I loved the whole Savior conflict in the movie too!! Brilliant!

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 20:49:28 GMT

SO, been an okay week I guess. Have had a headache for around two weeks now. Tonight it is not as bad as last night. Didn't go to church this morning because of it. Have to go to the docs for a 3 hour test thing, at least that is how long he said it would take. I think it is to check my insulin resistance or something. Only work two days this week so that is nice, plus lessons! We have safety day on Wed. That should be fun for the kids. Superman Returns is out this week for all you people that are behind on movies and such! I am really excited about it! Michelle had a shower yesturday, it was really nice. Then we had a fried ice cream social that night at the church. Ellen came with me and we had fun playing games. Ellen and I also watched The Brothers Grimm. It was a little bizarre, but good all around. Tomorrow I have lessons and then I am going to go see Pilgrim, call the vet and then help mum and da look for a new washer! YEAH!

Friday, June 16, 2006

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 11:01:40 GMT

So, I have been super busy, like I said last time, but this week has been weird. Got stung on the forehead Tuesday, first time since like I was 12 or somethings. Face swelled a lot. I would have taken a pic, but I don't have a dig. camera, so can't. Went to the docs yesturday and got a steroid shot in me arm. It hurt at first and then I had a all this energy the rest of the day. Only draw back was I got muscle cramps in my calves and could not sleep! Today is Jessica's wedding, a friend of mine. Still don't have an outfit for it and am going in a little bit to look some more. I am not sure I like the shirt styles that they have this summer that are being sold at the River Valley mall, our town's mall. Her wedding is at 6:30 and we have beautiful weather today. Should be nice, not to hot or cold. It will be late though. I hope I don't get wedding blues. I am only 20, way do I have to know people that get married so young. I need to hang out with single people that enjoy it. It is weird getting older. I realized this past week that I am closer in age to our youth minister and his wife than the teens, that is so weird. I really like them though! They are nice and doing great things with our teens. I hope they stay a while. Well, got to go! That is all right now!

Monday, June 12, 2006

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 19:56:16 GMT

Wow it has been a long time since I have been on. Not as good at this stuff as my brother. I still have not figured how to put more than my profile pic on this. Have been really busy. Managing the Copeland Pool as well as lifeguarding and doing swim lessons. It has been nice. Trying to make some money to save for Australia and gadgets. Other than that not much has been going on. Pretty much at the pool and then home.

Friday, March 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 13:01:53 GMT

So, been pretty busy lately. Started a new workout program and it is going well. Hope that it helps for bball tryouts. So I also got a call from the docs and I do have mono again , but not as bad. Getting over it though because I fell less tried in the day. Four more days til spring break. Since I am sick I am going to leave Thurs. night for Nashville and then drive the rest on Friday morning. Hopefully I will be home before 2pm. Well, that is all that I can think of today. Have a great day!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 22:44:49 GMT

SO, I am pretty much bored lately and really tired.

I have been working out 4xs a week since semester started and have not lost any weight, so that is a little depressing. I eat as health as I can, well for school food at least. I am taking this challenge fitness thing right now. Hope that it works. Played bball intramurals and we did pretty good. It was really fun as well.

Went to the Doc's last Wed and got blood test. No result notice yet, hope something pops up to explain why am so tired.

Find an awesome podcast called United Kingdom Talks, the guy is very entertaining. The show is about 1 hour, but so wish it was longer. Listen to it when I go to class.

Well, so Harry Potter and Goblet of Fire comes out on DVD soon and I slightly excited about it, since I am a fan. Fun fact for you all. Currently re-reading the books and listening to Jim Dale read it on my ipod.

Played Innertube water polo last night and the first game was really fun, but the second was not so much. We came in second.

That is about it so far.