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| i think i might be a gypsyok so im in the coffee business that its known. but where i will be
working and living for the next few years is not known. this is the
list of possible destinations and reasons, some are more likely than others but all
are possibilities for one reason or another...
Auburn, AL -i
dont have much reason to stay in fact i have reason to leave but i
might not be able to get out of my lease and there could be something
here for me yet
Gulf Shores, Al -friends, the beach
Birmingham, AL -its my home town, family, friends, familiarity
Memphis, TN -lived there, love it, always planned to go back, and have good friends there
Nashville, TN -the only place i wouldnt know anyone, but lets face it nashville is just cool
Atlanta, GA -friends, the opportunities of the city
Orlando, FL -basically disney world, but its a cool place as well
Boynton Beach, FL -jeremy polley
Los Angeles, CA -tammy, this would be the craziest change, i might be eaten
Portland, OR -coffee culture, music, something new
Seattle, WA -coffee culture, music, something new
i just need to weigh the options and then narrow down locations and start looking for coffee shops i guess
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| well im working at my 4th job since moving back to auburn and like most
jobs i dont like it, but i guess its ok. maybe ill at least be able to
get by. i do have every weekend off though so i can travel a bit which
is cool. but im definetely inspired to get back in school and finish my
degree so i can open my own buisness and not have to put up with
assholes trying to talk down to me when they have no right. maybe this
job will give me a little better work ethic though. im definetely ready
to get back in school though hopfully it will be spring.
things have sucked lately but i guess its just life, it wont ever be
perfect so i guess ill try to make the best of it. at least my house is
starting to look awesome and my water hasnt been cut off for 2 weeks
now so i guess it is getting better.
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| life sucks really bad... its all smoke | | |
| i wish i could write all of my thought down through some kind of telepathic... thing... cause that would make communicating much easier
so ive been spending some time in the studio... not really, actually the building behind the restaurant i work at used to be a recording studio and we store stuff in there such as mayonnaise and booze... i guess it is kind of symbolic of where my life is, i wanted to be a musician but the closest ill get to recording is going out back to get some trash bags out of storage
but ive been working... and working hard. it sucks. im not used to it, and it makes me feel bad cause i feel like im lazy, which i guess i am. i mean im a good worker and a hard worker but i hate working, it makes me depressed and just kills life, i dont know maybe some people arent cut out for work, or at least some kinds of work. i just have a hard time committing so much time and effort to some thing that i not only dont care about but i actually dislike. but i dont really even feel like talking about work... i dont feel like talking about much really
ive been developing my personal philosophy on different issues since ive recently changed a lot of things in my life my view pint has to adjust to the current situation, pretty much all i ever do is think and day dream and it really gets in the way and annoys me some times. i wish i could get all of my ideas out but i dont have the ability to do that, it would take me days on this computer to just cover one issue. i really wish i had someone close who would want to talk about things (anything between history and philosophy to theology or medicine and science) i think i would be a lot happier and open if i could get my ideas out of my head, but its good to be back in the college atmosphere.
one thing that i know is that im not like anyone else... and i honestly hate it cause i never fit in any where. i have very weird things that i do that would take a lot of explaining. i have lived many different lives sometime simultaneously, kind of like a not crazy multiple personality thing, whether i move within a social group or move to a new place who i am changes to a certain extent. deep down im always the same person but im a different person in different places and to different people, i move to and from different life experiences, honestly i think im a compulsive changer.
i dont really feel like trying any more though and i think im ok with that i dont really care to be any one and it doesnt matter if i never am | | |
| well i now live in auburn again and there is still a lot going on and i
dont really feel like writing all about it... but yeah... i need a job
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