School

Goodbye Taiwan

after spending months in Taiwan after 10 years away from it, i am surprised that i'm gonna miss it. aunt asked me if i'd be willing to go back and come back again to take care of grandma, and i said it'd fine with me if they can come up w/ the funding for me to go back to tw again~

soo... maybe it'll be taiwan --> US --> taiwan --> boston. who knows?

i didn't think anyone's gonna notice that i found my xanga back~ but my blog proved me wrong :) this is why i like xanga.. cuz it doesnt delete my acct when i 4get my pw for a yr! hahahaha

and so the question of school distance from home vs $$$ starts...

am i supposed to transfer to a school closer to home and spend more money on catching up? or should i stay in original school and get in less debt but be further away from my family?

it is true that if anything happens, my family might not even be able to get hold of me. they won't know where to find me. i wouldn't know where to go... and i know i should totally be closer to my family

its not that i don't want to be closer to them.. i would like to take the chance to be closer, to cherish the time we're together. but i'm like a baby trying to walk... and i've learned how to walk so i'd like to prove that i can walk. but maybe i'm just being stupid me.

in any case, i decide to just enjoy and cherish and take hold of each day as it comes. dealing with one thing at a time... it helps, you know? :) happy spring, y'all ;)

omg i cant believe i m actually back. after a ton of things, i actually made it back here. huzzah?

so things have not looked too well. grandma's condition worsened, and she's going into palliative care.

i hope she gets better, but how much better is better?

when the doc came in and told me the news, esp. soon after i thought everything's just about the same, it really hits me a bit hard. it was like, foolishly thinking your grandmother's somehow stabilizing from cancer, and then you hear the bad news.. that it's actually been progressively worse. felt like someone pulled the floor out from under you. but then again, did i realy not expect it to worsen? i guess i was building my own dream.

on the other hand, i still have no idea where i'll be in september. perhaps home. perhaps some college. or, perhaps... taiwan. who knows what will happen in the next few months. perhaps i wont be in this world in a few months. no one can tell... right?

so, i m glad that i cherished the time i get to spend with my friend. it brings a lot of comfort when i think about the days we spent together, and think to myself, "yep, we've done all we can to make the time worthwhile. i have no regrets."

finally.... i'm sick. either cold or flu, i'm not sure which. but it feels terrible... oh well.

omg..

okay, so i realized that I haven't been in here in MONTHS! sorry bout that.
anyway, tons to write on here :P

first of all... my classes are ez, but not ez. lol. it sounds funny, but thats how it is.
and i have a place nxt yr! yay~
oh and i cut my hair. now i have a totally different hairstyle. hehe
seems like everyone likes my hairstyle tho :P

mmm... i've developed a new looove for 三點一刻奶茶

and Yoo Min-hyuk is awesome!! those of you who knows.. you know what i mean ;)
aww.. but i feel bad, coming down on YJ like that.. after all, he's pretty cute in his own way too ;)

anyway, so 2 nights ago i pulled an all nighter... lol. and it's all cuz of those two dudes haha *blaming* nah.. it's my fault. i chose to do it that way heh

kk.. this entry is prob long and confusing, so updates later :P now i gotta go have some FOOOOOD!!!

oh apparently i'm malnutritioned. almost fainted (interesting experience. too bad i didnt go the whole way) HAHA i'm crazy, i know...

OHHH anyone wanna go skating w/ me? i'm soooo determined to learn it now!! =P ppl made me realize how much i miss it.. even tho i've only been on the ice twice. heh. any takers?