I'm alive!! Just lacking words. For the longest time writing things out was good solace for dealing with things in life - the good and the bad. Now it's just not good enough, hence the lack of posts. We all need change at some point and I myself am no different even if I never accomodate change too well. I'm not too sure what I'm getting at other than the fact that I just got tired of writing out my thoughts. So as the lack of writing has been increasing, so has the talking to friends part. I'm a firm believer in face to face conversation, so that's what I've been doing - conversing face to face.

You know when you argue with your parents. And you have a valid argument but for some reason or another they refuse to accept it. And so they keep on telling you in a sense that you're wrong. In which case you feel like it's no use because they'll never understand what you're trying to say anyway. So you just give in and you tell them what they want to hear so you can just get through it and get over it partly because you know you're right and partly because the sooner you give in the sooner you don't have to deal with it anymore. Because you know you're right regardless of if they understand or not. That was how it was like tonight. Except it wasn't with my parents.

The ideal of friendship isn't the same as it used to be. A concept so damn easy made so damn impossible. What the hell happens to people?